You cry out to our Father, this makes you righteous!
Blessed be the ###, who does not seek counsel from the wicked, nor stand in the way of sinners, nor sit at the seat of scoffers. No, ###'s delight is in the law of the Lord and in his law ### meditates day and night. ### is like a tree firmly planted by a stream of water. Who yields her fruit in her season. ###'s leaves do not wither, and whatever ### does ### prospers. The wicked are not so, they are like chaff which the wind blows away. Therefore they will not stand in judgement, nor will the wicked gather in the assembly of the righteous. For the Lord knows the way of the righteous but the way of the wicked will perish. In Jesus Name I pray! Amen
May you not be so hard on yourself, for we have all been where you are. I pray God will give you his guidance and wisdom!