Feeling defeated. We are taught that God wants us to

[msbella]

Feeling defeated. We are taught that God wants us to have our dreams and to dream big, not just to meet but to exceed our dreams. We are taught that our dreams are not put there by mistake but I am now believing it's not true. I have prayed the same dream forever and it never comes true. I am feeling lonely l, defeated, unworthy. I am a good person who is a good daughter, sister, aunt, friend but still nothing. I see countless others who aren't even living right get their dreams yet I never receive. I am thankful for my job and my home but life is not about those things because it's nothing if you have nobody to share it with. I was going to church faithfully and praying all the time. I was giving to help others yet I am knocked down again. I became so depressed and defeated that I stopped going to church 2 months ago and now I feel I am being punished for that. I know we are to hang onto faith no matter what but I am human and can be honest that I got upset because I try so hard for others and to spend another year with my prayers not being answered hurts. 2 months ago I was on my knees about ready to end my life praying for God to help me and still no help. The only reason I did not go through with it was my mother would be upset. People think that those who commit suicide are cowards bur that's not it. They are people who need help and can't see past that minute of pain they are in because it hurts too much to hope because sometimes hope and faith will be the thing that hurts the most because you hang onto it bur better times never come, your dreams never happen. How do you hang on to faith when it's hanging on to it and never seeing it happen that destroys you? Sometimes emotional hurt is the worst pain of all. Every day is worse than day before. I can't hope or pray anymore because I just get disappointed. How can God see me on my knees begging for help and something to look forward to and it never come? As angry as I am I sm upset at myself for being upset with God for not seeing I need help. My pastor explained to me I am not the only person to get upset with God and won't be the last and God expects us to have moments of bring uoset. I feel like a failure though for being upset. It's bad. I need a lifeline from God. It's Christmas and then my birthday in a few days and I am miserable. I pray for a family with the man I love. I pray to be a good mom and partner and to be able to go to church with the man I love. Seems my dreams are too big. Don't think I can hold on much longer. Please pray for me. Pray that my dreams happen so. I need a chance.

 

[NeverGiveUpHope]

I prayed for this in Jesus Name. Amen

 

[Isabelle10]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.



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[SetFree2016]

Father God, in the name of Jesus, I pray that you meet the needs of this individual. Father, along with this person, we join together in asking that you honor this person's prayer request, in the name of Jesus. Amen.

 

[goodnewslad]

msBella       something I realize also adding to your frustration and hopelessness is "there are other people who  experience as you do" yes that is very true, but, and I  almost want to laugh here, when we are hurting we don't really want to hear about others, I don't know if anything I say here will help you.(I am  going through much pain now,Christmas day,emotional frustration  and physical pain of sorts) but  I am not here to tell you that,or if anything I say will be of help.  

in the Scriptures there are so many where they tell of the wicked prospering and having no problems how they live long lives free from discipline and punishment.   YES MSBELLA  IT IS THE WAY IT IS, ONE THING I CAN SAY, IS TRY VERY HARD TO NOT FOCUS ON THEM,  THERE IS ONE SCRIPTURE THAT BRINGS LIGHT,  IT IS " IF THE GOODLY OR WEALTHY MAN INVITES YOU TO HIS TABLE, AND YOU ARE A PERSON OF APPETITE, PUT A KNIFE TO YOUR THROAT"    I HAVE THOUGHT ABOUT THIS SCRIPTURE MUCH,     BUT ITS GIST IS  DONT ALLOW YOURSELF TO BE OVERTAKEN WITH HOW THE WICKED PROSPER OR EVEN HOW THOSE WHO HAVE MORE THAN YOU ARE SO FORTUNATE.        MSBELLA  I WOULD LIKE TO SEE YOU FREE FROM YOUR CARES AND MISERABLE SUFFERING,   YES I KNOW HOW HURTFUL IT IS TO BE MISERABLE AND NOT TO  BE ABLE TO MOVE OR DO  ANYTHING ABOUT IT.  

MSBELLA   I FEEL VERY GOOD ABOUT YOU   NOT DOING ANYTHING FOOLISH AND REGRETTABLE    TO GOD BE THE GLORY  PRAISE GOD FOR YOU, I FEEL GOOD ABOUT YOU,      I AM NOT SEEKING COMPANY AS ONE WHO IS MISERABLE, I AM PROUD TO READ WHAT YOU HAVE SAID, I BELIEVE AND CAN SEE YOU ARE A BEAUTIFUL PERSON.      MSBELLA I DONT KNOW TO HAVE ANSWERS FOR YOU, AS I DO  NOT HAVE ANSWERS FOR MYSELF, MY LIFE MAY ALWAYS BE THIS WAY,   BUT I HAVE LEARNED AND IT DOES HELP ME TO FOCUS  BETTER,    I ASK GOD TO GIVE ME THE SPIRIT OF JOB  AND THE SPIRIT OF THE APOSTLE   STEVEN    THESE WERE TWO BRAVE AND RICH MEN IN FAITH,     HOW THE APOSTLE STEVEN SAID AS HE WAS BEING STONED TO DEATH    "DO NOT LET IT BE CHARGED TO THEIR ACCOUNT"    AND HOW THE PROPHET JOB   RELIQUISHED ALL TO GOD    IN SAYING  "THOUGH HE SLAY ME YET WILL I LOVE HIM"      MSBELLA    THIS ALSO GIVES ME A BETTER PRESPECTIVE,   GOD DOES NOT NEED US, HE DOES NOT NEED US BEING GOOD HOLY PEOPLE AS WE SOMETIMES PROMISE HIIM IN OUR PRAYERS  AS YOU SAY BEGGING,I TOO HAVE BEGGED SEEMING TO NO AVAIL.      EVEN AS THIS CHRISTMAS DAY HAS COME I AM MISERABLE AS I TYPE.   FRUSTRATED,  (YOU MIGHT SEE A PRAYER OR TWO OF MINE WHERE I HAVE REFERRED TO MY LIFE AS GARBAGE)  

HERE WE ALSO DO NOT HAVE THAT RIGHT.IN ACTUALITY   WE ARE SINNERS,   YES IT HURTS TO ADMIT AND IT IS FRUSTRATING   "DOING EVERYTHING WE THINK IS RIGHT ONLY TO BE KNOCKED DOWN,  WITH THE "WHERE IS GOD"    QUESTION EMPTINESS.  

I KNOW THAT GOD OWES ME NOTHING, IT IS I WHO OWE HIM,

BE GRATEFUL MSBELLA GRATEFUL ON YOUR KNEES IN PRAYER HOW FORTUNATE YOU ARE THAT YOU ARE NOT BEING TERRORIZED OR BESET BY NEIGHBORS OR THOSE AROUND YOU.   TO GOD BE THE GLORY YOU HAVE YOUR BREATH AND BEING,   MSBELLA   I FEEL HURT THAT YOU HAVE NOT GONE TO CHURCH , (I HAVE NOT BEEN TO CHURCH IN DECADES)    BUT IT IS GOOD THAT YOU FEEL GUILTY.    BUT I AGREE SOMETIMES WE CANNOT FIND WHAT WE SEEK IN CHURCH,   BUT THAT IS ANOTHER TOPIC IT WOULD TAKE TOO MUCH TIME AND SPACE TO TALK OF HERE SENSIBLY . 

MY CLOSING THOUGHTS OF YOU MSBELLA    THIS SCRIPTURE ALSO IS VERY PROMINENT IN MY FOCUS   "ALL WE DO IS OF VANITY" YES,     MANY OF THESE SCRIPTURES ARE CONFUSING WHEN WE READ OF JESUS AND GOD WANTING TO PROSPER US AND YET WE EXPERIENCE AS THOUGH THE HEAVENS ARE MADE OF BRASS.     MSBELLA  I WANT YOU TO HAVE A JOYFUL CHRISTMAS A JOYFUL NEW YEAR AND IF NOT YOUR DREAMS A JOYFUL OUTLOOK AND WISDOM   THE WISDOM OF GOD TO ACCEPT THIS BLANKNESS AND SUFFERING MAY BE TO HIS GLORY,   MSBELLA   I REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY HERE, BECAUSE MY PAIN IS I AM IN DARKNESS ABOUT MY SITUATION AND ALIFE,   HOW I NEED BETTER FINANCES AND TO BE IN A DIFFERENT PLACE (YUMA,ARIZONA IS NOT WHERE I WANT TO BE ANYMORE, AND I DO NOT WANT TO LIVE IN MY HOUSE BECAUSE OF NEIGHBORS AND PEOPLE WHO ARE NOT VIOLENT BUT ARE PEOPLE WHO  ARE FRUSTRATING.     MSBELLA    BE WELL BE LUCKY BE COURAGEOUS   I WONT TELL YOU TO TRY AND HAVE FAITH OR THAT THERE ARE SO MANY WHO DO NOT HAVE THEIR DREAMS AND PRAYERS MET,I WONT SAY THAT TO YOU.        I AM PROUD OF YOU THAT YOU HAVE CHOSEN NOT TO DO SOMETHING REALLY REGRETTABLE, AND I HOPE AND PRAY YOU WILL REMAIN IN THAT STATE OF MIND AND HEART NO MATTER WHAT ELSE HAPPENS OR OCCURS    MSBELLA   GOD IS GOOD NEVER ENDING MERCY   IT IS NOT FOR US TO CONTEND WITH THAT,     AS I HAVE BEEN SAYING EVEN IF WE ARE TRUDGING ALONG DAY TO DAY   GOD IS GOOD,     I DONT KNOW IF ANYTHING I HAVE SAID IS OF HELP    I WILL SAY MERRY CHRISTMAS AND JOYOUS NEW YEARS FOR YOU PERSONALLY NO MATTER        BE WELL MSBELLA BE OF A CHEERFUL HEART IF YOU DO NOT RETURN TO CHURCH   AT THIS TIME IT MAY BE WHAT GOD HAS FOR YOU  AND ABOUT DOING GOOD TO OTHERS ONLY TO BE KNOCKED DOWN, MSBELLA    BE COURAGEOUS    AMEN AND AMEN FOR YOU MSBELLA

 

[BlessMeFatherGod]

Almighty god,please answer quickly this prayer,,,In Jesus Name...I Pray,,,,Amen

 

[goodnewslad]

msBELLA        I want you to have explanation or at least give you better perspective about yourself  this proverb comes to mind when I read your request.  "just because you are intelligent does not mean you wont go hungry"  GOD works in mysterious ways HIS WONDERS TO PERFORM.     "WE SEE THROUGH A GLASS DARKLY"    there is no doubt about this scripture,   everything in this life has some darkness to it, we will never have answers to everything in this life as to why GOD does what HE DOES.   it is for us to accept,   "all that happens    happens to the glory of GOD to those who love GOD.    I know this is a very tough scripture to accept when something tragic or terrible happens,   here we should look to JOB and see how his life has gone.   but all in all MSBELLA    I pray for your frustratons  and life to cone to your liking and freedom from frustrations   in the coming years 

 

[val7]

 

[Saraha]

Heavenly Father hear our prayers. In Jesus Name I Pray Amen

 

[mitchandkay]

msbella , the Lord never promised us that life on this earth would be an easy one , but He DID say that He would NEVER give us more than we can handle . I hear that you are hurting , but you need to know that now is NOT the time to stop going to church and praying , you need to go after God first and foremost .  You should open your bible and find a scripture { a promise from the Lord } and you need to stand on that promise that concerns what you are needing . God NEVER fails us , His timing is NOT our timing , a delay is NOT a denial from God . To end your life would be a slap in the face of God , you are here for a purpose , read Jeremiah 29 : 11 . Your life has value , you matter to the Lord . Seek Him with your whole heart and NEVER loose hope . He is worthy of ALL our praise , worship Him , things change in the presence of God . Be blessed dear one !