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Disciple of Prayer
I have walked too far, and I knew better. I am terrified. I am a false prophet, a drug addict, and I have hurt so many. My whole life story is a tale of selfishness. Everyday I see the judgement coming and I am powerless unless Christ will forgive the unforgivable. Marijuana is witchcraft and I knew it, yet time and time again I gave my soul for it, I quit and filled my family with hope after wrecking myself time and time again. It ruined my mind, my heart, and my soul. The new age is a lie and its light is darkness. There is no "free love" but Jesus. The bonds of sexual sin hurt so much, and what hurts more is knowing I came from such a wonderful family, where I learned the truth at every corner, yet I was prideful, and wicked ever since I was a child. I am ashamed of myself, and I am heartbroken that I wasted so much goodness that was given from God. The self is the ultimate source of misery if you follow it above all else, and I did. I knew the Word so I hid behind it, but I am a hypocrite, and I don't know how to repair all the damage I have done. I pray for Jesus' forgiveness, and that he free me from these horrid demons. In Jesus name, I pray that if there is still a way, that God would make it known. I have little strength, but I know I can do all things through Christ, I just pray my fate is not sealed. I have spoken many words, and my life has not reflected them, for I cherished myself, and sin. I pray for forgiveness, and for Jesus. All I want is Jesus. God bless you all.
