Depression,heartache, feelings of failure

[Autism mom warrior]

Lord I came to this site for peace, to repent in my sins, to ask you to help me. I was blessed to have four children.  Lord you have me children with special needs and I don't know how much longer I can do this. My energy levels are so down. I'm on meds for depression.  Years are pouring down my face Lord as I type, I know you see them. I am feeling like a failure.  I can't work due to the kids autism.  I am poor living off my children's social security 661$ a month to pay rebt, feed and cloth four children.  It's eating away at my heart and mind. Their dad is in California with a women who he claimed when we were together was just a friend.  I'm heart broken.  My children didn't get to go anywhere this summer, nor did they get any new school clothes, Jenna broke her wrist playing today and now I got to take her to orthopedic and I have no funding to do so. I have no friends or family here. I am all alone. I'm having major panic attacks over EVERYTHING and I have no one to turn to. Lord I'm going to be 35 Wednesday and I feel like I'm a piece a garbage. I feel like I'm never going to get anywhere in life. Omar owes me 2,000$ and meanwhile I have to skip meals to make sure the kids eat. I went to the food pantry and felt. So low. I was told I could only go once a month. Lord I have court with omar in September.  But I'm in mass and he's in California with his new girlfriend.  She gets me mad because she calls and talks crap to me and i hang up, even had to change my number.  Lord I have only you, no earthly parents or friends, I'm trapped in this house. I lobe my kids but being a mom to multiple kids with disabilities n no support or money is killing me inside my mind and heart. Lord I need you desperately.  Help me Jesus.  I can't go anthor day feeling like this.  I need to be refreshed and happy so I can be the mom you need me to be. Help me Jesus with housing and rent and food but most of all help my mind. Find someone Jesus to give me a break before I die of heart attack.  In Jesus name amen 

 

[JesusIsMyOnlyHope]

Heavenly Father. In the Name of Your Son Jesus Christ, I pray, that you will receive and answer your child's prayers according to your perfect will. Amen

 

[Boo Boo Kitty]

I prayed for this. In Jesus name, amen.

 

[Hopeful23]

Life sucks and it's getting worse. So many disloyal and selfish people. What your husband did was totally disgusting. Just proves that a person doesn't need friends from the opposite sex. Usually, something more is going on than they are willing to tell you. Trust is earned and so easily lost. I hope that guy is able to live with himself and sleep at night. What a ****.

As for the income. You should get more than that. I don't know where you live but I'm assuming the US. Can you get some kind of disability benefits or extra help considering you have kids with special needs? They can't expect you to live on that. That's ridiculous. The dad should pay child support. If you're on government assistance then possibly they can go after him for some kind of support.

I never had any summer holiday either. I'm stuck at home with my grandson who has ODD and my poodle who is really too old to travel. I don't think I have been taken out in just over a year. Kind of feels like a prison. Like I said life sucks. I don't know the answer but life is definitely not fair at all.

If you want you can send me a message and maybe I can do some research and help you and give you some moral support.

 

[Divine Light]

Father we come to you in the mighty Name of Jesus, Father God we praise, honour and worship You, we give you all the glory for You are our sole Provider, Our Healer, Our redeemer, Our glorious King, there is no other like You Father!  Father Your light shines in each and every one of us, this Mom's light is dwindling, Father send you wind to blow on her fire and rekindle it for Our God is a fire.  Lord set her alight with the Holy Spirit that Your power delivers her.  Set her ablaze with a new anointing the poverty, mire and disabilities have passed away for she will do a new thing in her life. Thank You Father for your peace and grace upon her, thank You Jesus! Amen

 

[Anonymous]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

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