Please pray for me as I am trying to be forgiving as Christ has called Christians to be. I am trying to be obedient to all His commands. I was doing fine until my mother did something to me the other day that really set me back. I have been experiencing demonic attacks that started occurring years ago while I was still involved in the new age (which I am not anymore). Alongside these attacks, a very large group of people (and even others who don't even know them like people who came into my life after this group started targeting me and who do not, in any way, shape or form know them) has been targeting me for years. In the past few weeks, I believe God has helped me to understand the origin of these attacks and the targeting from this group of people. I now believe that demons were using these individuals to keep me bound in unforgiveness (these people did some extremely heavy and harmful things to me even to the point of trying to physically harm me). They influenced them to do the things they did to me to cause me to stay stuck in this pattern. So in the past week, every time an intrusive thought (which I have been suffering from terrible intrusive thoughts related to the things these individuals did to me and I notice these intrusive thoughts often come at times where I'm reading my Bible or praying) about their behavior came into my mind, I would say to myself that I forgive them and I would pray for them. I had started seeing wonderful progress and life seemed to be getting back to normal. But then my mom did something very hurtful related to this group targeting me (her family is involved but hiding it from her, my dad's family is as well and so is my brother-in-law - my mom, sister and dad are the only ones who are not; I've tried to tell my mom and sister about all these people being involved but they don't believe me - but none of this matters now as I now understand the true origin of all this and God is showing me how to deal with it) where she insinuated that I am trying to keep her from talking to her family who I am no contact with partially because of their actions in this harassment I'm writing about. I have never, ever tried to keep her from her family. Her family, however, has done many things to openly try to turn her and my sister (and my sister who passed away) and my dad against me. But yet I am constantly being pointed at as if I am causing dissension when all I'm doing is trying to move on with my life. When she did this, I'm not sure if I just didn't know how to process how she was treating me - and what she did was so aggressive for no reason. All I did was tell her (and so calmly) that I was going to be upstairs doing schoolwork for university in response to her saying that she was going to go upstairs to talk on the phone with her family. All I did was tell her calmly that I was going to be doing schoolwork so that she would know I couldn't have distractions. And the downstairs area of the house was totally free for her to be on the phone in. She literally blew up at me. I have prayed that I forgive her and for her but what she did brought back all the anger, hatred, bitterness and resentment that I have toward her family because while these attacks were happening before things improved last week, it often felt that they and those targeting me were somehow orchestrating people to attack me on their behalf even from afar. I had some very creepy, openly supernatural experiences with their harassment toward me where the line between just regular human bullying and something supernatural/demonic occurring was crossed. I was upset for other reasons that I can't remember now as well. Also, it made me start to question whether it's true that these individuals were just demonically influenced to harm me or whether this evil is truly just who they are. It just caused so many problems. Either way, I now feel totally set back and all the demonic attacks are coming back and I am going through so much. It's not even that I don't want to forgive. I feel like something has taken over me and I just feel no control whatsoever, there's just so much going on. I'm very sick of all this. Please pray this will end. It felt like it WAS ending and now it's back. I'm so sad.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have.