Dear Jesus, I don’t know if I am doing right. Today my wife and I are going to turn in the divorce papers. I still do not want to get divorced, but she does and continually tells me she is in pain just being around me. Her animosity is through the roof and she is unwilling to give me another chance or our relationship another chance. In order to keep things amicable in the house and in front of the kids, I have attempted to man up and not be a hindrance to what she wants, constantly giving into her wants. I don’t know if this was the right decision but always I have been leaning on You to intervene. The times I have tried to say or do anything it has only made the situation worse with her and pushed her further away. My faith is in your plan Lord, my faith is in You and that is if You want this stopped, You will handle it, as I don’t know how to. I am clueless Lord on what to do and submit to your will. This has been extremely difficult lately and over the last couple months it has just gotten bad. I do not want to lose my family, you know the desire of my heart, I want another chance to be the good Christian husband I know I will be, but still we press forward without a semblance of love or compassion from her. She thinks the kids will be fine, I do not, she thinks this whole things is fine and it hasn’t been. Needless to say I have done things that pushed her down this road, but she is unwilling to be accountable for any role she has played in anything, making it difficult for her to have compassion and mercy. I do not want to get divorced, but I am unwilling to hurt her or fight her about this. Lord I will fight the world for her, but fighting someone who doesn’t want you and is unwilling to soften their heart to you, is terrible. I am constantly told I am not validating her wants and needs and this leads her to push away further. Please Jesus, I don’t want this to happen, but I don’t have the power to stop it, so I will trust in you. Give me peace and strength today to conduct myself appropriately. Help me to respond with strength and kindness. Lord you know things are bad, please step in, please do something. I love you Lord, but her I am on the day of turning in divorce papers and I am worn down. I love you, thank you for the blessings you have given me.
