Love and feelings can be so strong and emotionally exhausting. Father God loves us all, you me and your special friend in your next post! I do not know how he he does this all, as his love must be far far greater than our highest imaginations, but I am so glad that he does love us all! look to his son Jesus and do what he does! That is a lot! Take Jesus into your heart, and obey him, you will know his will as you seek him, because you will find he has shown us how to live and to love as he did in the bible. Often this is sacrificial as there is a price to pay, look at all the effort Father God must put in to love us all, and we may never know what he has done to protect us already! Pray and love your friend as Jesus loves you. Gods timing is perfect, and often not instant and usually much better than our request, but persist and he will bless you! You may find local christian believers who can share Gods' love and spend time together with you. even in a church, you need to seek your group that understand you and you are at ease with them seeking our dear father. I bless you by asking fathers blessing upon you and his peace be with you; just let his peace rest on you ok!