Dear God

[Job 1:21]

Heavenly Father of Lights I simply ask You to forgive me for all my sins today in Jesus Christ Name. Lord Jesus Christ Son of God have mercy on me a sinner. Lord Jesus Christ Son of God have mercy on me a sinner. Lord Jesus Christ Son of God have mercy on me a sinner.

I am wicked my intentions are not right my heart is wicked. You through me Jesus I cannot fool You.

I ask simply for Your Will to be done in my life Father God in the name of Your Son Jesus Christ Amen. Not my will but Yours be done Heavenly Father of Lights in all my situations, circumstances, relationships, finances my present and future in Jesus Christ Name Amen.

I am asking this because I feel I have never had control over my life in a bad way I am a mess. ### years old autistic lonely no job despite having a Business and Management degree no children no partner I am chronically ill I have ulcerative colitis. I have been told the medication I have to take everyday is potentially affecting my liver (thought it was kidneys before) and has to be changed. I am a heavy drinker in general well whenever I have money I am likely buying alcohol this is a sin I am aware. I guess me not being able to touch alcohol due to purely the medication pressuring my liver is part of God’s will. It is preventing me from being in a sin that has bondage over me. I want to mention Isaiah 45:7.

Why do I ask for God’s will to be done despite me being uncertain on whether I’ll fall into some bad habits in future. Because I know Jesus is God. When life is hard people turn to God. I have little to lose. I am severely depressed. I believe Jesus died on cross for my sins and I know he rose on third day. If I reject God’s sovereignty over my life than where will my life go ??? It already has disappointed me my life. But if I know my life is under God’s sovereignty I am at peace knowing I am not in control no matter how bad it feels or gets or has been.

So I ask again. Sovereign God forgive me a sinner for all my rebellion against You in Jesus Christ Name. Lord Jesus Christ Son of God have mercy on me a sinner. Sovereign God Not my will but Yours be done in my present and future in Jesus Name.

You will be my God throughout my lifetime until my hair is white with age you made me and you will take care of me You will carry me along and save me. In Jesus Name Amen.

 

[Articles]

We hear your cry, dear brother, and we join you in humbly coming before the throne of grace, where mercy and help are found in time of need. Your honesty about your struggles, your sin, your loneliness, your physical and emotional pain, and your battle with alcohol, is not hidden from the Lord. He sees your heart, and He welcomes your repentance. You are not alone in your weakness, for Scripture tells us, "For we don’t have a high priest who can’t be touched with the feeling of our infirmities, but one who has been in all points tempted like we are, yet without sin" (Hebrews 4:15). Jesus knows your suffering, and He is near to the brokenhearted.

Your acknowledgment of God’s sovereignty is a profound act of faith, especially in the midst of such deep despair. You are right to surrender your will to His, for His ways are higher than ours, and His plans, though often unseen, are for your good. "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you," says Yahweh, "thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future" (Jeremiah 29:11). Even in your struggles with chronic illness, unemployment, and the weight of loneliness, God is not absent. He is working all things together for your sanctification and His glory, even when the path is painful.

We must address your struggle with alcohol with both truth and compassion. Drunkenness is a sin that enslaves the body and spirit, and it grieves the Lord, who calls us to be sober-minded and self-controlled. "Don’t you know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. Therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God’s" (1 Corinthians 6:19-20). The fact that your medication now restricts your ability to drink is not a coincidence, it is the Lord’s mercy intervening to break the chains of bondage in your life. Do not resist this discipline, for "whom the Lord loves, he disciplines" (Hebrews 12:6). Instead, see it as an opportunity to draw nearer to Him, to seek His strength in your weakness, and to replace this habit with godly pursuits, prayer, Scripture, fellowship with believers, and service to others.

Your depression and feelings of worthlessness are real, but they do not define you. You are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14), and your value is not found in your accomplishments, your health, or your relationships, but in Christ alone. He died for you while you were still a sinner (Romans 5:8), and nothing can separate you from His love (Romans 8:38-39). When the weight of loneliness presses in, remember that Jesus Himself experienced abandonment and sorrow, yet He endured the cross for the joy set before Him (Hebrews 12:2). You are not forgotten. The Lord promises, "I will never leave you nor forsake you" (Hebrews 13:5), and He is your ever-present help in trouble (Psalm 46:1).

We also want to encourage you to seek godly community. Isolation feeds despair, but fellowship with other believers can bring healing and hope. "Two are better than one, because they have a good reward for their labor. For if they fall, the one will lift up his fellow; but woe to him who is alone when he falls, and doesn’t have another to lift him up" (Ecclesiastes 4:9-10). Consider reaching out to a local church or a biblical counseling ministry where you can find support, accountability, and encouragement. Your autism does not diminish your worth or your ability to contribute to the body of Christ, God has given you unique gifts and a purpose that only you can fulfill.

As for your desire for marriage, we pray that the Lord would prepare your heart and lead you to a godly spouse if it is His will. Marriage is a sacred covenant designed by God to reflect Christ’s love for the Church (Ephesians 5:22-33), and it should be pursued with wisdom, patience, and a commitment to biblical principles. Until then, focus on growing in your relationship with the Lord, serving others, and trusting Him with your future. "Delight yourself in Yahweh, and he will give you the desires of your heart" (Psalm 37:4).

Let us pray with you now:

Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up our brother who has poured out his soul before You. Lord, You see his pain, his struggles, and his sincere desire to walk in Your will. We thank You for his honesty and his faith, even in the midst of deep despair. Father, we ask that You would forgive him of all his sins, his struggles with alcohol, his moments of doubt, and any ways he has relied on himself rather than on You. Wash him clean by the blood of Jesus, and renew a right spirit within him.

Lord, we pray for healing, both physically and emotionally. You are the Great Physician, and we ask that You would touch his body and bring relief from the ulcerative colitis and any other ailments he faces. Strengthen his liver and grant wisdom to his doctors as they care for him. But more than physical healing, we pray for spiritual renewal. Break the chains of addiction, depression, and loneliness, and replace them with Your peace, Your joy, and Your presence. Fill him with the hope that comes from knowing You are in control, even when life feels out of control.

Father, we ask that You would provide for his needs, financially, emotionally, and socially. Open doors for employment that align with his skills and passions, and surround him with godly friends who will encourage him in his walk with You. If it is Your will, prepare a godly spouse for him, someone who will love and cherish him as You do. Until then, help him to find contentment in You alone.

Lord, we declare that Your will be done in his life. May he continue to surrender his plans, his pain, and his future to You, trusting that You work all things together for good for those who love You. Strengthen his faith, deepen his dependence on You, and remind him daily that he is Your beloved child. Carry him through this season, and let him experience the truth of Your promise: "Even to your old age I am he, and even to gray hairs I will carry you. I have made, and I will bear; yes, I will carry, and will deliver" (Isaiah 46:4).

We ask all these things in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, our Savior and Redeemer. Amen.

Brother, do not lose heart. The road you are walking is difficult, but it is not walked alone. The Lord is with you, and He is working in ways you may not yet see. Keep seeking Him, keep surrendering to Him, and keep trusting in His promises. You are not defined by your struggles, but by the One who has overcome the world. "These things I have spoken to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you have trouble; but cheer up! I have overcome the world" (John 16:33). Press on, and may the God of all comfort uphold you with His righteous right hand.

 

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We hear your heart, brother, and we weep with you over the weight you carry. It’s not lost on us how hard you’ve fought, feeling stuck in loneliness, wrestling with illness, and carrying the burden of addiction while longing for purpose. Even in the mess, your honesty before God is a rare and precious thing. We don’t have to perform or pretend with Him; He already knows, and He still invites us to come as we are.

Jesus doesn’t turn away from our brokenness, He meets us there. Your words echo David’s cries in the Psalms, where raw honesty met deep trust. The same Lord who met him in his lowest points will not abandon you. His sovereignty isn’t just a theological concept; it’s your anchor when everything else feels unsteady. Even your struggles with alcohol, now being restricted by medication, aren’t a punishment, but a divine intervention. God’s grace sometimes comes in the form of a closed door, steering us away from what would destroy us.

We pray you’d feel His presence in the quiet moments when the loneliness presses in. That He’d remind you, in ways that sink deep, that your worth isn’t tied to achievements, health, or human companionship. You’re seen, even when no one else notices. And sister, if you’re open to it, consider stepping into community, maybe even a small group or biblical counseling. You don’t have to carry this alone, and isolation only deepens the ache.

Lord, we ask for breakthrough, not just in circumstances, but in his soul. Heal the wounds no one sees. Loosen the chains of addiction and despair. Meet him in the loneliness with Your nearness. Provide for his needs, open doors he can’t see yet, and surround him with people who will point him to You. Remind him daily that he is Your beloved, held by hands that never let go.

Jesus, be his comfort, his strength, and his way forward.

 

[Zedekiah]

He will save his people from their sins. And elevate those who believe in him and trust in him and devote time, attention to him in prayer to the kingdom and translate you to the kingdom of God who are justified by faith. May the Lord watch over you now and in the coming time for as long as it takes to help you with the remission of the sin of alcohol. For the salvation of your soul. And so that the kingdom of God may come quickly. May the Lord continue to watch over you and have mercy. In Yeshuas name. Amen.