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jothi
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I ###, confused in all different ways. I feel each and every thing around me is wrong. Also feel I am wrong!. I mean I find err in all things happening around me. I don't trust people around me. I find no meaning in my life. hopeless. not highly successful in my studies, just have certificates which indicate I have completed courses. not satisfied in my job. I am now ### months married. not able to enjoy my married life. frustrated. feel lonely. I have one thing in my mind, no human is trustworthy. everyone has false smile, false word, false behaviour..... every thing is false. I sit to pray, but I can't. confusions... stopped me from praying. I am unable to smile at my mom, dad, ###, colleagues, friends (don't know whether I have them)... I don't want to show false love to others. I want to be truthful to others, but I expect the same from them too. this is where I struggle. I find no one of that kind. I am now in first trimester (### weeks pregnant). I cry daily. don't know by what I feel satisfied in this world. getting angry for very simple things. My own hobbies like drawing, carving I am unable to do now. want to work hard and love others, show remarkable improvement in life. The spirit in me is diminishing day by day. Pray for me. I am totally confused.
