I pray that you find a light in the world kimjr, I pray that God gives you strength in this hard time and that you can know that He is always with you and watching over you even in the bleakest of times. Lord, I ask that you touch kimjr's heart, and that you can help ease her pain and confusion. If it's your will I ask that you give her a sign that things will get better, and I ask that she finds whatever she needs to pull her forward, and closer to you God. If you're trying to teach her something then I ask that you make it clear to her, and that she can understand and grow from it. Amen.
I have been in a similar situation for well over a month now. I've lost the love of my life, I've lost both my cat and my dog I've had since childhood, my grandmother, and my mother may be the next. It has been a hard time but God has pulled me through. I feel lost and confused just as you do, but I have grown so much in this past month, and I know in the future I'll be led right where I need to be because of all this. Hard times will come and pass, and for those who continue to stand next to God when they do, they'll be greatly rewarded. I pray that you find what you need kimjr.