Anonymous
Beloved of All
Hello all. I've never been on this site before, but I think more than ever I need a prayer request for my college transfer applications. For some context, I am currently attending a small, prestigious liberal arts college with a class size of around 300. It was my dream school and right before I came here I was over the moon and so excited to start my life at the school. When I got accepted it was the greatest day of my life and I celebrated for weeks. Since coming, I've unfortunately been disappointed. I feel so lonely and alienated all the time, and it doesn't seem like the goals of everyone else align with my goals for college. I have one friend who goes home on the weekends so I'm oftentimes alone on the weekends while everyone else is partying. I simply just study and sleep because I don't have any other activities or friends to make. Everyone seems to already have their groups and because my school is so small it's hard to make new friends. My church is a great community but most of the members go to a different school around 30 minutes away so I can't really build too much community with them. I also felt like I wasn't getting the education that I was expecting, and financially, it seems too expensive. I applied as a transfer to three other public universities, two of which are UC schools. The two UC schools are my dream, and I want to go so so bad. However, none of these schools have high acceptance rates and it's more likely that I will be rejected than accepted. I have so much anxiety regarding this, and I'm losing sight about what may be in store for God. I don't want to believe that it may be in God's will to keep me at this school, because I just feel so miserable here. I've tried reaching out to every possible community, including the Christian community but I just can't make any connections and I'm slowly spiraling into extreme loneliness and depression. The Christian community was actually the most alienating community, and I've never felt such hostile energy which made me lose hope with everything. So I guess what I want prayer for is peace. And maybe a little bit of encouragement. It's really hard to not obsess over these applications and my anxiety is through the roof whenever I think about it. It just feels like if I get rejected there is no hope anymore. Please pray for peace and that my anxiety will go away. Everything is in God's hands and I need to remember that.
