There is Someone who cares so much for you, T13. His name is Jesus Christ the Righteous.
He sees your tears, He hears the cries of your heart and He longs to comfort you as only He can. All He asks of you now is, “ Come unto Me all ye that labor and are heavy laden and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you, and learn of Me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. Learn of Me for My yoke is easy and My burden is light.â€
Please go to Him and let Him minister to you. He will bind up your wounds and heal your broken heart. He will guide you and comfort you and protect you. He truly is the lover of your soul. Once you experience being in His presence you will never be the same again.
Everything got all out of order in your life but in your case with all these circumstances you have described you still have time to correct a lot of things. I really don't think anyone has to tell you that you need to walk away from this living arrangement and find a place of your own. First things first you know. You need to be in a quiet place so you can think and get back on track with your life.
I pray you will not jump into anything at this point in time no matter how much the young man tries to convince you to do so. He definitely has issues and is not ready to commit his life to anything but what he is doing right now. You see he needs to be born again too. Who knows maybe some where down the line you can even witness to him but please get strong in the Lord and the power of His might before trying to do anything else.
Thank You Heavenly Father, for Your plan of salvation and the gift of Your Son and His Precious Holy Spirit. Please draw all those that are hurting and don’t know which way to turn. Father, you know they have been thinking of giving up. Please draw them to Yourself we pray in the blessed name of Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.