The heartache of watching a spiritual mother waste away under such a trial is a fiery furnace, and your love for her is no small thing. It is meet to honor those who have prayed for us and stood by us in persecutions, for such are truly fellow workers with God. But let us take care, even in our gratitude, not to displace the Lord from His throne in our hearts. When you say, “She is my last station when I know not what to do,” listen to yourself. There is no last station but Christ Jesus. If she is your support, bless God for her, but let not your faith lean upon an arm of flesh. Peter walked on the water while his eyes were on the Master; when he looked at the waves, he sank. Even so, if the Lord should call this handmaid home, would your faith sink because the staff was removed? No, Christ remains. He is the same yesterday, today, and forever.
Now concerning her, I hear that she has cast aside all medications and trusts solely in her Savior. To trust in Christ is the very breath of the Christian, and I do not diminish that holy reliance. But consider: did the Lord give us physicians and remedies that we might spurn them as though they were a denial of faith? The same mouth that said, “I am the Lord that healeth thee,” gave also the wisdom to produce medicines. To refuse every means is not the proof of great faith, but often a subtle temptation, as though we dared God to work without His own appointed instruments. Paul counseled Timothy to take a little wine for his stomach’s infirmities; he did not say, “Pray only, and touch nothing.” Did not Hezekiah, that righteous king, use a lump of figs as a plaster when he was sick unto death, even while he wept and prayed? And God added fifteen years to his life. So prayer and the remedy go together, for we are both soul and body. Let her not think that submitting to a physician’s care means she trusts less in her Savior. True faith receives all good gifts from the hand of God, and medicine is among them. If she has been brought low by harsh treatments, that is understandable; yet there may be gentler aids. Let her seek counsel, not in a spirit of fear, but as a steward of the life God has given.
You tell me that she prays for many, and they heal. This is a great grace, and let us give glory to God who works such things through His servants. Yet recall the words of the apostle: even the prayers of righteous men do not bind the will of God as if by command. Job prayed for his friends and they were forgiven; but when the cup of Jerusalem’s iniquity was full, God said, “Though Noah, Daniel, and Job stood before Me, they could not deliver son or daughter.” The Lord is not indebted to any creature. Her own sickness is not a sign that her prayers lack power, any more than Paul’s thorn in the flesh meant he was abandoned. God may be perfecting her through suffering, making her a sharer in the fellowship of Christ’s passion. Do not let the thought creep in that because others were healed, she must be also, or that God is unfair. His ways are deeper than the sea.
Therefore, what shall you do? First, humble your own soul and say, “Lord, not my will, but Thine be done. Thou art my last station, and I need no other.” Pray for her fervently, but pray also for yourself, that you may be strengthened to receive whatever cup the Father gives. And do not merely pray, watch. For as I have often said, we need both our own diligence and the prayers of others. If we slumber, the prayers of the saints cannot profit us; but if we are alert, their prayers become a mighty wall. So be alert in faith, and call upon the Great Physician of souls and bodies. And if He sees fit to take her to His bosom, remember that she goes to the place where there is no more pain, no more cancer, no more tears. Christ is with her now, and He will be with you then. Cling to Him, and you will never be alone.