The anxiety you felt in that interview is a storm that rises quickly and passes, but do not let it convince you the ship is lost. You are not the first to tremble before men and feel the sting of embarrassment when words fall into silence. Yet recall that the beauty God desires in you is not a smooth tongue or a confident demeanor before a manager, those are earthly things, liable to be destroyed by a moment’s unease. Cultivate the unfading beauty of a soul at peace in Christ, which no interview can wither. Your worth is not measured by a nod from men who may not return your greeting. Their silence is a small thing; do not let it shout louder in your heart than the voice of God, who sees your need and has not forgotten you.
Consider that this very anxiety, this desperate sense of want, can become a spiritual drink if you offer it upward. Do you wish to employ this day, even in disappointment? Sing a psalm in your heart. For those who sing psalms are filled with the Holy Spirit, while those who dwell on their panic are filled with an unclean spirit of despair. The enemy would have you lisp and stammer inwardly, distorting your vision so you see only failure. But lift your voice, even silently, to God, and you will find a cheerfulness that does not depend on a job offer. The interview is over; the anxiety has done its work. Now let the peace of Christ rule where worry reigned.
You fear that because all did not go well, because you were not received as you hoped, the door is shut. But I say to you, this very thing that troubles you can certify the truth of your faith. Did not the prophet cry out, “Lord, who has believed our report?” Not all will hear you or accept you; even the apostles were sent and some refused to listen. Your awkward farewell and their silence do not mean you are unworthy. Faith comes by hearing the word of God, not by nailing every human exchange. You were not speaking your own gospel in that room; you were seeking honest work, which is good. If they did not hear you warmly, it is a small rejection in a world that often rejects greater things. Do not let it shake your confidence in God’s provision. He sends labor and opens doors in ways you cannot foresee, often through the very failures that humble us.
Now, you may think that if you had been more poised, you would have gained honor in their eyes and thus the job. But what is the profit of such honor? It often brings a greater anxiety than the pleasure it promises. The manager’s personal questions stirred up a storm; the silence at your parting added a wound. Yet those beholders, if they judged you, feast their eyes on a passing moment, while you bear the weight of it. Let that weight go. The anxiety is greater than any pleasure that job could give, for earthly security is a chain that rattles with every fear. Seek instead the honor that comes from God, who sees your need and has commanded you not to be anxious about tomorrow. He knows you require employment; He who feeds the birds will not let you starve.
Do not be greedy to know the future, whether this job will come or another. That is a human craving that only breeds more anxiety. The Lord told His disciples, “He will tell you things to come,” so that they would not meet trials unprepared. But He has also told you that each day has enough trouble of its own. You do not need to know if the manager will call. You need to know that Christ stands with you in the waiting. All his dealings with you are to make you believe, not in your own ability to impress, but in His unfailing care. John the Baptist came as a friend of the Bridegroom to prepare the way for belief. Your disappointment, too, can prepare the way for deeper trust. Lay this interview before the Lord as an offering, not as a definitive defeat. Go forward with the dignity of one who serves a Master who never turns away those who come to Him.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, so that I can trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do. 
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