Please pray for me about this: I have posted before about spiritual warfare that has been targeting me for most of my life. This warfare influences people in my life/environment to do cruel things that they wouldn't otherwise do to me to try to push me toward deep unforgiveness and other things (like new age practices like divination). There is someone at my church who I used to have a good relationship with until I entertained negative thoughts that the enemy was putting in my mind about this person related to behavior that I believe they did while under the influence of this warfare. I literally only entertained those thoughts one time I think but after that, it was like this person became totally evil toward me. When I'm interacting with them (and this usually happens with anyone that I'm interacting with who is being influenced to behave cruelly toward me by this spiritual warfare; also, whenever someone is heavily used by this warfare to target me, I will usually find out later that they have some area of their life {even if they're not aware of it} that causes them to be easily susceptible to demonic influence) and this negative behavior starts, if I ignore it and continue behaving in a Christlike manner, their behavior will improve. However, their behavior now is just still overwhelmingly negative toward me and these moments of improvement seem small now. I have made the decision recently that I am going to leave this church. Between this warfare using people in my church to behave cruelly toward me (and some people are used constantly with little relief) including the pastor who I never know whether he is going to be kind or cruel to me from one moment to the next, and other problems outside of this warfare that I notice in this church (for example, none of the relationships I'm trying to build at this church seem deep and reliable no matter how hard I try to build them, they all only seem surface level and this has created a deeply lonely experience - sometimes I even feel that no one has any real interest in truly building relationships with my mother and I; also, my mother and I are the only two African Americans in this church - most of the people in it are Caucasian - and as long as we have been attending, there are some people who have just never spoken to us once and due to some of the erroneous, racist movements that are currently spreading through the American Christian community {and the likelihood of some of my church members being involved in those movements which is sadly high} and the current political landscape, I have serious suspicions that it is because we are black; there are other problems in addition to this like my having serious concerns about the Christian community that this church is connected to), I have decided that I will eventually be leaving. I hope and pray that God will lead us away from this church soon because it is excruciating continuing to endure what I have endured at this church and the problems it has now caused in my life and faith. However, until God leads us away, we still have to attend church (but I am considering taking a break for my mental health, I'm just scared to do that because I am afraid this warfare will target me more if I don't go to church) and it is so difficult dealing with this person I'm talking about treating me like this and the entire experience of this spiritual warfare attacking me through this situation. Please pray for me about this. Thank you.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have.