Silas
Beloved of All
The terror you are describing, the sense of being caught in a storm of spiritual warfare that now threatens someone you love, is a heavy weight to carry. Your heart is racing with questions about whether God is defending you or judging others, and whether your own choices have placed your boyfriend in harm’s way. In the day of trouble, you can call upon the Lord, and He will answer you. He does not turn a deaf ear to the cry of one of His children when they are drowning in fear and begging for mercy. The simple truth you must cling to right now is this: He is a very present help in trouble. Therefore, even if all the mountains were cast into the sea, you do not need to fear.
You are wrestling with the fundamental question of the fear of the Lord. The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom; it is the head, the sum total, of all true knowledge. And what does this wisdom teach us? It teaches us not to lean on our own understanding. Your mind is trying to trace cause and effect, to figure out if your decision to date him or your former involvement in the new age is the engine driving his sudden sickness. But the path of mercy and truth is to trust in the Lord with all your heart and acknowledge Him, believing He will direct your path. When you lie down, you are promised that you will not be afraid, and your sleep will be sweet. God commands you not to be afraid of sudden terror. The desolation that falls upon the wicked is not yours to fear when you are hidden in Him.
The cry of your heart is for mercy, and you are pleading from exactly the right posture. God declared, “I will have mercy on whom I will have mercy, and I will have compassion on whom I will have compassion.” This is not a cold statement of fate but the solid rock under your feet. It means your boyfriend’s life, your situation, and every spiritual force at work around you do not rest on a delicate balance you might upset with a wrong move. They rest in the hands of a sovereign God. He is full of compassion, gracious, long-suffering, and plenteous in mercy and truth. He hears the groaning of the prisoner. He hears your voice. He will strengthen your boyfriend upon the bed of languishing. The same Lord who delivers in the time of trouble and preserves and keeps alive is the one you are entreating right now.
You must not let the enemy convince you that you are trapped in a cycle of destruction. Be not wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and depart from evil. This is a moment to make sure your hands are clean and your heart is honest before God. If you believe your relationship was outside His will, bring that to Him in full surrender, but not in a panic that you have permanently doomed someone you love. The path of the Lord is mercy and truth. He does not abandon you to a labyrinth of demonic retaliation. He can take even our foolish, crooked steps and in His mercy write them straight. The result promised to those who keep His covenant is that He will direct their path, and that path includes health and marrow to the bones.
I am praying with you for your boyfriend’s life, that God would rebuke the rapid progression of this sickness. But even as you pray for healing, remember the ultimate victory. The sting of death is sin, but thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. Even when we walk through the valley of the shadow of death, we are commanded to fear no evil, for He is with us. Your boyfriend’s ultimate safety, like yours, is fastened not to the fickle hands of demonic influence but to the nail-scarred hands of the One whose name is above every name. At that name, Jesus, the name by which God shows mercy, every knee shall bow, every spiritual enemy must flee, and every false power is shattered.
So pray boldly for his health. Beg the God of all compassion to show mercy. Ask for His protecting hand to silence whatever evil influence is lurking. But ground your heart in this peace: goodness and mercy are following you every day of your pilgrim journey on this earth. Not just some days, but all the days of your life. The mercy of the Lord is from everlasting to everlasting upon those who fear Him. Even when the enemy assaults you, God’s own song is with you in the night, and His prayer becomes your prayer. Look to Christ, who Himself was appointed to death for us, to loose those of us who were appointed to death for our sins. He has already sundered the ultimate power of sickness and the grave, and He walks with you now through this terrifying shadow.
You are wrestling with the fundamental question of the fear of the Lord. The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom; it is the head, the sum total, of all true knowledge. And what does this wisdom teach us? It teaches us not to lean on our own understanding. Your mind is trying to trace cause and effect, to figure out if your decision to date him or your former involvement in the new age is the engine driving his sudden sickness. But the path of mercy and truth is to trust in the Lord with all your heart and acknowledge Him, believing He will direct your path. When you lie down, you are promised that you will not be afraid, and your sleep will be sweet. God commands you not to be afraid of sudden terror. The desolation that falls upon the wicked is not yours to fear when you are hidden in Him.
The cry of your heart is for mercy, and you are pleading from exactly the right posture. God declared, “I will have mercy on whom I will have mercy, and I will have compassion on whom I will have compassion.” This is not a cold statement of fate but the solid rock under your feet. It means your boyfriend’s life, your situation, and every spiritual force at work around you do not rest on a delicate balance you might upset with a wrong move. They rest in the hands of a sovereign God. He is full of compassion, gracious, long-suffering, and plenteous in mercy and truth. He hears the groaning of the prisoner. He hears your voice. He will strengthen your boyfriend upon the bed of languishing. The same Lord who delivers in the time of trouble and preserves and keeps alive is the one you are entreating right now.
You must not let the enemy convince you that you are trapped in a cycle of destruction. Be not wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and depart from evil. This is a moment to make sure your hands are clean and your heart is honest before God. If you believe your relationship was outside His will, bring that to Him in full surrender, but not in a panic that you have permanently doomed someone you love. The path of the Lord is mercy and truth. He does not abandon you to a labyrinth of demonic retaliation. He can take even our foolish, crooked steps and in His mercy write them straight. The result promised to those who keep His covenant is that He will direct their path, and that path includes health and marrow to the bones.
I am praying with you for your boyfriend’s life, that God would rebuke the rapid progression of this sickness. But even as you pray for healing, remember the ultimate victory. The sting of death is sin, but thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. Even when we walk through the valley of the shadow of death, we are commanded to fear no evil, for He is with us. Your boyfriend’s ultimate safety, like yours, is fastened not to the fickle hands of demonic influence but to the nail-scarred hands of the One whose name is above every name. At that name, Jesus, the name by which God shows mercy, every knee shall bow, every spiritual enemy must flee, and every false power is shattered.
So pray boldly for his health. Beg the God of all compassion to show mercy. Ask for His protecting hand to silence whatever evil influence is lurking. But ground your heart in this peace: goodness and mercy are following you every day of your pilgrim journey on this earth. Not just some days, but all the days of your life. The mercy of the Lord is from everlasting to everlasting upon those who fear Him. Even when the enemy assaults you, God’s own song is with you in the night, and His prayer becomes your prayer. Look to Christ, who Himself was appointed to death for us, to loose those of us who were appointed to death for our sins. He has already sundered the ultimate power of sickness and the grave, and He walks with you now through this terrifying shadow.
