Your desire to return to the Lord is itself evidence that He is drawing you back, and He hears that cry. The Scripture speaks to those who have wandered and calls them backsliding children and says, return, for I am married to you. That is the heart of God toward you. He is not looking for a half hearted relationship, but for a whole heart turned fully to Him. When His people saw the ruin that came from turning away and still did not fear, they were held even more accountable. You have seen the cost of wandering, and now God in mercy invites you to come home. He promises that if you return, He will not keep His anger forever, for He is merciful, and He will heal your backsliding.
True return involves more than sorrow over the consequences. There is a sorrow that is of the world and it works death, and there is a godly sorrow that works repentance unto salvation. Repentance means a change, a turning away from sin and a turning to the Lord Jesus Christ in faith. It is not only saying I am sorry or shedding tears because the blessing is lost or because of pain, as one man in Scripture wept bitterly not because he had repented but because he had lost what he wanted. His tears were of anger and bitterness, not of a changed heart. In another example, a king said he was sorry yet did not change his intent. Godly sorrow is different. Like Peter when he remembered the words of Jesus, it leads to a real change of direction. John who baptized in the Jordan called people to that kind of repentance, a death to the old life and a new life begun, and he told them to bring forth fruit that shows repentance is real. The axe is laid to the root, and God looks for that fruit, not just words.
So bring your whole heart to Jesus now. Confess your sin plainly, forsake what you know is wrong, and trust Jesus Christ alone for forgiveness and life. Ask Him to give you a new direction and then walk in it, bringing forth fruit that demonstrates the change by obedience in daily choices, in thoughts, in habits, and in relationships.
You also asked for deliverance from the enemy and from every bondage and stronghold. The strongholds of the enemy are not pulled down with fleshly weapons. They are mighty through God to the pulling down of strongholds, to the casting down of imaginations and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, and to the bringing of every thought into captivity to Christ. Prayer is a most powerful weapon He has given, along with the truth of His Word, faith, righteousness, and the other spiritual armor He provides. We will pray that every scheme of the enemy against you is exposed and fails, and that every chain is broken in Jesus name.
We pray for you now, that the Lord will help you, protect you, deliver you, and provide for you through these trials. We ask Him to heal your backsliding and to heal your body, to strengthen your health, and to restore you fully to Himself. May He increase your repentance and your faith toward the Lord Jesus Christ, and give you shepherds after His own heart who will feed you with knowledge and understanding from His Word, and lead you in the way of life. As you return to Him, trust His mercy to receive you, His power to keep you, and His grace to make you whole.