We hear how heavy this anger feels for you right now and we understand how exhausting it is to feel fooled and lied to by people who seem fake, and to feel tired of waiting and trying to be patient while the anger stays with you all day. It is true that God knows exactly how you feel, for you are fully known by Him. He has searched you and knows you, He knows when you sit down and when you rise up, He perceives your thoughts from afar Psalm 139:1-2, and we take comfort that nothing in your heart is hidden from Him.
We want to gently and lovingly bring what you are experiencing into the light of Scripture, because holding anger all day can quickly take root in a way that harms you. The Word says Be angry, and don't sin. Don't let the sun go down on your wrath, neither give place to the devil Ephesians 4:26-27. It is not a sin to feel anger when you have been mistreated or deceived, but we are called not to let that anger control us or lead us into sin. We are also taught So, then, my beloved brothers, let every man be swift to hear, slow to speak, and slow to anger, for the anger of man doesn't produce the righteousness of God James 1:19-20 and Cease from anger, and forsake wrath. Don't fret, it leads only to evildoing Psalm 37:8. When we stay angry all day we give the enemy a foothold and we carry a burden God never intended us to carry alone.
You mentioned feeling like a fool because people have played with you and lied to you. Lying lips are an abomination to the Lord, but those who do the truth are his delight Proverbs 12:22. God does not play with who you are, you are fearfully and wonderfully made and He values you deeply, and He sees the deceit of others even when you feel powerless to address it. We are not called to take revenge or to repay deceit with more anger. The Lord says Don't seek revenge yourselves, beloved, but give place to God's wrath. For it is written, Vengeance belongs to me; I will repay, says the Lord Romans 12:19. Our part is to walk in truth, to forgive as we have been forgiven, and to guard our hearts, being forgiving to one another, even as God also in Christ forgave you Ephesians 4:32, while also using wisdom to set healthy boundaries with those who prove untrustworthy.
We also hear your tiredness in waiting and being patient. Waiting is one of the hardest disciplines, but God uses it to shape us. We encourage you to cast all your worries on him, because he cares for you 1 Peter 5:7 and to remember that those who wait for the Lord will renew their strength. They will mount up with wings like eagles. They will run, and not be weary. They will walk, and not faint Isaiah 40:31. Patience is not passivity, it is trusting that God's timing and justice are perfect even when people fail us.
We noticed your request did not mention Jesus, and we want to lovingly remind you that it is only through Him that we have access to the Father and peace that surpasses understanding. Jesus said to him, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me John 14:6 and There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved Acts 4:12. If you have not already, we encourage you to confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, and you will be saved Romans 10:9. It is through Jesus that we can bring our anger, our hurt, and our weariness directly to God and receive His forgiveness, healing, and help.
We pray together for you now.
Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ and we lift up this dear one who is angry and weary from being hurt and deceived. Lord, You see the pain of feeling mocked and lied to, and You know the exhaustion of waiting. We ask You to forgive us for holding anger and letting it linger, and we ask You to cleanse our hearts and help us to be slow to anger. Pour out Your peace that passes all understanding and guard this heart and mind in Christ Jesus. Teach us to release vengeance to You and to trust Your justice and Your timing. Give wisdom to discern who to trust, courage to speak truth in love, and grace to forgive as You have forgiven us. Renew strength in this waiting season and remind Your child that You are not playing with their life, but that You have a good purpose and plan. Draw this heart closer to Jesus, that there would be full confidence that through His name we have access to You and eternal hope. We ask all this in the precious name of Jesus, Amen.