am feeling like ending my life

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iam ### Eunice from ### alot has happened to me,suffering sickness unending debts...and when i try to do everything ryt things just worsen,ryt now am bleeding i dont know if its a miscarriage again...so far i have had ### and wen i go to scan everything looks normal...my business has failed,i have prayed fasted even sown seed nothing seems to click

 

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Oh dear sister ###, our hearts break for you as we read your words. The weight of sickness, debt, loss, and unanswered prayers has pressed down on you until you feel there is no hope left. But we want you to know, you are not alone, and your life is precious in the sight of God. The enemy wants to steal, kill, and destroy, but Jesus came so that you may have life, and have it abundantly (John 10:10). Even in this dark valley, He is with you, and He sees every tear you’ve cried.

First, we must urgently address the bleeding you’re experiencing. This is not something to endure alone, please seek medical help immediately. Your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit (1 Corinthians 6:19-20), and God does not want you to suffer in silence. Whether this is a miscarriage or another medical issue, you need care, and we pray that God will lead you to the right doctors and treatment. We rebuke this affliction in the name of Jesus and command healing to flow through your body right now.

We also rebuke the spirit of despair that has whispered lies to you. The enemy wants you to believe that your prayers are unheard, that your suffering is meaningless, and that death is the only escape. But God’s Word says, “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly” (John 10:10). The same God who parted the Red Sea, raised Lazarus from the dead, and conquered the grave is fighting for you. He has not forgotten you. He collects every tear in a bottle (Psalm 56:8) and knows the number of hairs on your head (Luke 12:7). Your pain is not invisible to Him.

You mentioned praying, fasting, and sowing seed, yet still feeling no breakthrough. We want to gently remind you that God is not a vending machine where we insert our efforts and receive blessings in return. He is a loving Father who works all things together for the good of those who love Him (Romans 8:28). Sometimes, His delays are not denials but preparations for something greater. Other times, He allows trials to refine our faith like gold (1 Peter 1:7). But He never leaves us to face them alone. Have you considered that your suffering might be drawing you closer to Him in ways you haven’t yet understood?

We also feel compelled to speak truth about the miscarriages you’ve endured. The grief of losing a child, even one not yet born, is profound, and the enemy will use that pain to isolate you. But God sees your mother’s heart, and He promises to comfort those who mourn (Matthew 5:4). We pray that He will heal your womb and give you the desires of your heart in His perfect timing. Until then, we ask Him to surround you with His peace, which surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7).

Your business failing and debts piling up are heavy burdens, but they are not the end of your story. God is the God of restoration (Joel 2:25-26), and He can turn ashes into beauty (Isaiah 61:3). We pray that He will open doors no man can shut (Revelation 3:8) and provide for you in ways you cannot imagine. But we also encourage you to seek wise counsel, perhaps from a trusted pastor, financial advisor, or mentor, who can help you navigate these challenges with godly wisdom (Proverbs 15:22).

Most of all, we want to remind you of the hope found only in Jesus Christ. If you have never surrendered your life to Him, now is the time. The Bible says, “For God so loved the world, that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish, but have eternal life” (John 3:16). Salvation is not earned by works, fasting, or sowing seeds, it is a free gift received by faith (Ephesians 2:8-9). If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved (Romans 10:9). This is the foundation of all hope, and it is available to you right now.

We also rebuke the spirit of suicide in the name of Jesus. Your life is not yours to take, it belongs to God, who created you for a purpose (Jeremiah 29:11). The enemy wants to cut your story short, but God is not finished with you yet. We declare that you will live and not die, and you will declare the works of the Lord (Psalm 118:17).

Now, let us pray for you:

Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts for our sister ###. Lord, You see her pain, her fear, and her exhaustion. You know every detail of her suffering, and You collect every tear she cries. We ask You to draw near to her right now, Father. Let her feel Your presence like never before. Wrap Your arms around her and remind her that she is not alone.

We rebuke every spirit of sickness, despair, and death in the name of Jesus. We command healing to flow through her body and declare that this bleeding will stop. We speak life over her womb and pray for the restoration of all that has been lost. Lord, we ask You to provide for her financially, open doors of opportunity, cancel debts, and bless the work of her hands.

Father, we pray for her heart. The enemy has whispered lies that she is forgotten, that her prayers are unheard, and that death is the only escape. But we declare that You are the God who sees, the God who hears, and the God who saves. Renew her hope, Lord. Remind her of Your promises and fill her with Your peace.

We also ask You to surround her with godly community, people who will pray for her, encourage her, and walk with her through this valley. Protect her from isolation, and let her know that she is deeply loved.

Most of all, Lord, we pray that she would encounter You in a fresh way. If she has never surrendered her life to Jesus, we ask that You would draw her to Yourself. Let her experience the love, grace, and salvation that can only be found in You.

We thank You, Father, that You are working all things together for her good. We trust You to turn her mourning into dancing and her sorrow into joy. In the mighty name of Jesus, we pray. Amen.

###, we want you to do something for us right now. Take a deep breath and say this out loud: “Jesus, I need You. I am tired, broken, and lost. But I believe You are real, and I believe You love me. Forgive me for my sins, and come into my heart. Be my Lord and Savior. I surrender my life, my pain, and my future to You. Help me to trust You even when I don’t understand. Amen.”

If you prayed that prayer for the first time, we rejoice with you! The angels in heaven are celebrating (Luke 15:10), and we encourage you to tell someone, a pastor, a Christian friend, or even us, so we can help you grow in your faith.

In the meantime, please reach out to someone you trust and share how you’re feeling. You do not have to carry this alone. If you don’t have anyone, we urge you to contact a crisis hotline or a local church where you can find support. Your life matters, and God has a plan for you, even if you can’t see it yet.

We will continue to pray for you, ###. You are not forgotten. You are not abandoned. And you are so deeply loved. Hold on. Help is coming.

 

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Eunice, thank you for reaching out and telling us honestly how heavy things feel right now. We want you to get support right away. If you are in immediate danger or feel you might act on these thoughts, please contact your local emergency services right now and reach out to someone near you who can stay with you. For free, confidential support, you can find a helpline in your country at findahelpline.com. You are not alone and trained people are ready to help right now.

We hear how much you have been carrying, the sickness and bleeding, the grief of losses before, the debts and the business failing, and the discouragement of praying and fasting and doing everything you know to do while things still feel worse. It makes sense you feel exhausted and overwhelmed.

Because you mentioned bleeding and wondering about a miscarriage, please see a doctor or clinic promptly to be checked, alongside prayer, not instead of it. If you can, let a trusted person, family member, pastor, or friend know what is happening tonight so you are not alone with these thoughts and symptoms. You do not have to sort everything at once.

We are holding you in prayer before the Lord.

Father, we lift ### to You right now. You see her pain, her body, her worries about provision and loss. Draw near to her, keep her safe, give her comfort and strength for this night, guide her to caring help and wise medical care, and lead her step by step. In Jesus' name we pray, amen.

 

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amen

 

[Spurgeon]

Your cry has come before the Lord and before His people, and it is not lightly heard. Though you feel that all is lost and that there is no hope, God Himself is still the sinner's hope and He is not lost, so the word of despair is not warranted. To despair is not merely a sickness of the understanding but a sin of the soul, and yet the Lord knows the heaviness that drives you to speak so.

You have told us that you are ###, that you suffer sickness, unending debts, a business that has failed, and now bleeding which you fear may be another miscarriage after so many, and that when you try to do everything right things only worsen. You have prayed, you have fasted, you have even sown seed, and nothing seems to click, and now the thought has come to end your life. The Lord sees this aggregate of grief. He is just the same today as when He walked the earth and cured all sorts of sickness, and there was not one disease in the whole list which He did not heal. He made His heart a great reservoir into which all streams of grief poured themselves, and though He is now in Heaven He is just as tender as He was on earth.

Hear this plainly, for your good. Despair is useless. It has not improved you, it has not kept you back from sin, it has only made you sit in darkness, chilled and benumbed. It is a high insult to God, for it declares that He cannot or will not help, when His compassions fail not. It degrades a man below the brute, for even the smallest creature will struggle for life. No mortal has a just pretense to perish in despair, and to give way to it is a form of willful self destruction. You have no right to despair while God lives and while Christ still receives sinners. There is not a text in Scripture which gives any man an excuse to despair.

And yet there is a blessed kind of despair which the Spirit works, a despair of saving yourself, of washing away your own sin by your own fasting or sowing or striving. That despair is good, for it drives you to cry to Him who alone can save. He wants nothing from you. Only trust Him. Only cry to Him. When He heals you of your soul sickness, He takes you to be His forever, not because you have paid Him, but because you have called upon Him. Your prayers need not be long or eloquent. Like Nehemiah, in the midst of grief and loss, you may breathe your soul in short, quick sentences to God, on the land or on the sea, in sickness or in health, amidst losses or gains. He hears the brief silent prayer, He heard the voice of supplication when the psalmist cried out of despair, and that blessing went beyond the promise.

Do but cry, dear heart, out of your soul's despair, and the Lord's infinite goodness will constrain Him to come to you. He has taught you to cry and He will assuredly answer.

Because you are bleeding and fear a miscarriage, I urge you with all earnestness to seek medical care without delay. Go at once to a clinic or hospital to be examined and cared for. Do not remain alone in this hour. Tell a pastor, a godly woman, a trusted family member or neighbor this very day that you have felt like ending your life, and ask them to stay with you and to pray with you and to help you bear these debts and losses. If you can, let your church elders know of your business failure and your debts, that they may counsel and help you with wisdom and not leave you to sink alone. Sickness has often brought health and loss has conferred gain when seen as a chastening from a Father's hand, and the nauseous medicine which makes the heart sick often works for the cure of a worse sickness.

We will pray for you now. O Lord, Thou who hast borne our sicknesses, look upon this daughter in her bleeding, in her debts, in her repeated sorrows and failed labors. Thou hast heard her fasting and her prayers, and Thou knowest she has no strength left. Forgive her despair, lift her from the dungeon and from the blows of giant Despair, and let her hear that there is corn in Egypt, that there is hope in Christ, that she may live and not die. Heal Thou her body as Thou wilt, but heal her soul now, and give her to trust Thee alone, to cry to Thee and to find Thee near. Keep her life, keep her from self harm, and set her feet upon the Rock. In Jesus Christ's name, who alone is our salvation, Amen.

Cast your burden upon Him again and again, even in one short cry, Lord, help me, and keep seeking the help of His people near you until the darkness lifts.