Justbecause5
Humble Prayer Warrior
Yes, there is power in prayer (James 5:16)!
It’s hard to believe it’s already February. Time is filled with swift transition
I need strength.
In August 2022, my job in Alaska was complete. My wife and older daughter were preparing to go overseas in mid September to visit family. My two young sons and I are headed to Texas to start a new job and to set up our new home.
After my sons and I left, my wife hired an attorney and together they went to court and convinced the judge that I had stolen the boys and carried them across state lines. I was 5000 miles away and knew nothing.
In late September 2022, my wife and a sister in Christ flew from Alaska to Texas and stole my two sons from me. I was working in my classroom when they took them. It was one of the saddest days of my life.
I cried for nearly 200 miles back to my dad’s house. I have shared many tears since then. I have not seen my children since September 2022. Every day is filled with pain as I missed them with every ounce of my being.
I have prayed probably 1 million times plus. I have obeyed the words of Jesus, mankind should always pray and never faint never give up never lose heart (Luke 18:1ff).
I prayed fervently. God would take me back to Alaska. In August 2024, God answered the prayer and took me back to Alaska. He gave me a teaching and coaching job. My previous temporary company paid for my first class ticket. God answered my prayer.
I was so convinced that before my plane landed, my wife would contact me and the reconciliation process would take place. I was wrong. Instead, the next 18 months I suffered greatly in so many different ways. I felt like Joseph when he went to prison. I felt like Job when he suffered so many difficulties at the hands of Satan.
I have suffered in so many ways. I lost my teaching job on November 20, 2024, due to no fault of my own. I lived in the homeless shelter. I lived in the back of my van for 28 nights. I lived in a primitive basement with no toilet. I almost died on December 29, 2024 when I got locked out of my van and -23°F on top of a mountain by myself God spared me that day.
Today is February 5. On March 5, I must move out of my studio apartment. I can stay but it will cost me $1500 a month. I lost my last job on June 16 and I’ve been doing gig work ever since. God has blessed me in so many ways.
God has blessed me in so many ways that it gives me strength and confidence that God will answer my prayers and not not too far future. It’s a weird feeling to realize that God brought me here but why? Did he bring me back to Alaska, just to suffer? I can’t imagine that’s the case.
I love the rain and it gives me strength (Acts 14:17). However, from late October until April, there is no rain. Any moisture is going to be in the form of snow. The next thing that gives me comfort is moose. It’s weird to say that, but it’s true. Every time I see one, it gives me strength very similar to the rain. I love to see them.
Many times I have prayed that God would let me see a moose and either that day or the next I would see one. In fact, on Tuesday I pray that I would see a moose, and on Wednesday night I did in a weird place. It amazes me and it builds my faith that God is listening carefully to my prayers and is fully aware.
I think I can write a book about my adventures back in Alaska. I don’t know that anybody would read the book, but it would be interesting. Nonetheless, I have suffered greatly; however, I’ve seen the end of God in the northern lights, in the sunset and sunrise, in the Moose and the fox and the Caribou, etc. I’ve seen the mountains from a far and up close. Alaska is the prettiest place I’ve ever been.
I was thinking the other day that I have been back in Alaska 18 months and I’ve never paid rent not even one month. I don’t write that to brag rather to say look at what God did. Granted, I have not lived in ivory palaces, but I have had a place to stay that was free. Looking back, I see the provision of God.
I continue to hope and pray that my family will be reconciled. I have no idea how it will happen. I have decided to put everything into God‘s hand and let him sort it out. To let him work. Let him open the door. Let him make the provision. I believe that is true faith I’m willing to do anything that God shows me to do, but until then, until God shows me what to do. I remain, I patiently remain.
God carried me through the holidays. They were very difficult. I’ve always been a dad that love the holidays and special days like birthdays. I’ve always tried to make them special for my loved ones. They were very difficult every one of them, including New Year’s and my anniversary.
To me, divorce is a hateful act. It’s contrary to the will of God. It’s the very epitome of selfishness. Granted, there may be a few exceptions where it’s needed, but I think in most cases, love could win over as the Bible teaches.
I still love my wife, even though she has done horrible things to me. I stand prepared to forgive her and love her like Jesus love the church and gave himself for her. I am sincere and saying that. I am not a perfect man, but I’ve always been a forgiving man. I stand prepared to forgive my wife and treat her like none of this happened.
Please pray for a reconciliation in my family.
I have even prayed, God if you are not going to restore my family, will you please take me far away from Alaska. Will you please give me a good job far away and I will move immediately. So far, no opportunity has been made available. I have tried. I have sent resumes all around the country. Opportunities that seemed promising suddenly ended often abruptly it’s like God wants me to stay here.
The VA has paid for my apartment for a total of nine months. They can pay no more. So, one month from today I will be homeless unless I choose to stay here and pay the $1500.
It’s like everything is pushing me against the wall. My time in the studio apartment is almost over. I’ve been doing gig work since June 16 and my van broke down in November. So I’ve been renting a car since then however, the prices of rental cars are about to go up even doubling and tripling in price. A car that currently cost me $27 a day will be $150 a day in a few months. I cannot justify or afford to do that.
Yet, the things that I have been through tell me again again again that God will make provision. Will it be a special job? Will it be another opportunity to live somewhere unexpected at the present time? I don’t know.
I feel like Job. I remember at the end of his story. It says that God bless the latter end of Joe more than his beginning. I hope and pray that God will bless me more in the near future.
I need strength!
I miss my children deeply. I do not understand how a woman can do this to her husband. I do not understand how a wife can do this to the father of her children. How can you live with yourself, knowing that you have played the part and destroying your family? How can you look in the mirror and think it’s OK to do what you’ve done. I would faint if I had done this to another person and then looked in the mirror. I would have broken down and been apologetic almost immediately.
I need your prayers.
I need help. Please pray for me. Please pray that I will have strength. Please pray that God will continue to work in my life to make provision. Please pray that God will let me stand tall again just like Job eventually stood tall!!!
I trust God!
I have read the psalms over 30 times in the last 2+ years. They have been such a help to me in drawing closer to God. Also, I spend large amounts of time each day in constant prayer. I pray all day long.
Please continue to pray for me.
I have recently started a small business that I’m hoping will eventually replace part or all of my income. I’ve had some recent success, and I’m hoping that my success will continue to grow. It will allow me to live anywhere. I choose to live and make the kind of money that I need to make. I hope and pray God will bless me with wisdom and strength to make it work.
It’s hard to believe it’s already February. Time is filled with swift transition
I need strength.
In August 2022, my job in Alaska was complete. My wife and older daughter were preparing to go overseas in mid September to visit family. My two young sons and I are headed to Texas to start a new job and to set up our new home.
After my sons and I left, my wife hired an attorney and together they went to court and convinced the judge that I had stolen the boys and carried them across state lines. I was 5000 miles away and knew nothing.
In late September 2022, my wife and a sister in Christ flew from Alaska to Texas and stole my two sons from me. I was working in my classroom when they took them. It was one of the saddest days of my life.
I cried for nearly 200 miles back to my dad’s house. I have shared many tears since then. I have not seen my children since September 2022. Every day is filled with pain as I missed them with every ounce of my being.
I have prayed probably 1 million times plus. I have obeyed the words of Jesus, mankind should always pray and never faint never give up never lose heart (Luke 18:1ff).
I prayed fervently. God would take me back to Alaska. In August 2024, God answered the prayer and took me back to Alaska. He gave me a teaching and coaching job. My previous temporary company paid for my first class ticket. God answered my prayer.
I was so convinced that before my plane landed, my wife would contact me and the reconciliation process would take place. I was wrong. Instead, the next 18 months I suffered greatly in so many different ways. I felt like Joseph when he went to prison. I felt like Job when he suffered so many difficulties at the hands of Satan.
I have suffered in so many ways. I lost my teaching job on November 20, 2024, due to no fault of my own. I lived in the homeless shelter. I lived in the back of my van for 28 nights. I lived in a primitive basement with no toilet. I almost died on December 29, 2024 when I got locked out of my van and -23°F on top of a mountain by myself God spared me that day.
Today is February 5. On March 5, I must move out of my studio apartment. I can stay but it will cost me $1500 a month. I lost my last job on June 16 and I’ve been doing gig work ever since. God has blessed me in so many ways.
God has blessed me in so many ways that it gives me strength and confidence that God will answer my prayers and not not too far future. It’s a weird feeling to realize that God brought me here but why? Did he bring me back to Alaska, just to suffer? I can’t imagine that’s the case.
I love the rain and it gives me strength (Acts 14:17). However, from late October until April, there is no rain. Any moisture is going to be in the form of snow. The next thing that gives me comfort is moose. It’s weird to say that, but it’s true. Every time I see one, it gives me strength very similar to the rain. I love to see them.
Many times I have prayed that God would let me see a moose and either that day or the next I would see one. In fact, on Tuesday I pray that I would see a moose, and on Wednesday night I did in a weird place. It amazes me and it builds my faith that God is listening carefully to my prayers and is fully aware.
I think I can write a book about my adventures back in Alaska. I don’t know that anybody would read the book, but it would be interesting. Nonetheless, I have suffered greatly; however, I’ve seen the end of God in the northern lights, in the sunset and sunrise, in the Moose and the fox and the Caribou, etc. I’ve seen the mountains from a far and up close. Alaska is the prettiest place I’ve ever been.
I was thinking the other day that I have been back in Alaska 18 months and I’ve never paid rent not even one month. I don’t write that to brag rather to say look at what God did. Granted, I have not lived in ivory palaces, but I have had a place to stay that was free. Looking back, I see the provision of God.
I continue to hope and pray that my family will be reconciled. I have no idea how it will happen. I have decided to put everything into God‘s hand and let him sort it out. To let him work. Let him open the door. Let him make the provision. I believe that is true faith I’m willing to do anything that God shows me to do, but until then, until God shows me what to do. I remain, I patiently remain.
God carried me through the holidays. They were very difficult. I’ve always been a dad that love the holidays and special days like birthdays. I’ve always tried to make them special for my loved ones. They were very difficult every one of them, including New Year’s and my anniversary.
To me, divorce is a hateful act. It’s contrary to the will of God. It’s the very epitome of selfishness. Granted, there may be a few exceptions where it’s needed, but I think in most cases, love could win over as the Bible teaches.
I still love my wife, even though she has done horrible things to me. I stand prepared to forgive her and love her like Jesus love the church and gave himself for her. I am sincere and saying that. I am not a perfect man, but I’ve always been a forgiving man. I stand prepared to forgive my wife and treat her like none of this happened.
Please pray for a reconciliation in my family.
I have even prayed, God if you are not going to restore my family, will you please take me far away from Alaska. Will you please give me a good job far away and I will move immediately. So far, no opportunity has been made available. I have tried. I have sent resumes all around the country. Opportunities that seemed promising suddenly ended often abruptly it’s like God wants me to stay here.
The VA has paid for my apartment for a total of nine months. They can pay no more. So, one month from today I will be homeless unless I choose to stay here and pay the $1500.
It’s like everything is pushing me against the wall. My time in the studio apartment is almost over. I’ve been doing gig work since June 16 and my van broke down in November. So I’ve been renting a car since then however, the prices of rental cars are about to go up even doubling and tripling in price. A car that currently cost me $27 a day will be $150 a day in a few months. I cannot justify or afford to do that.
Yet, the things that I have been through tell me again again again that God will make provision. Will it be a special job? Will it be another opportunity to live somewhere unexpected at the present time? I don’t know.
I feel like Job. I remember at the end of his story. It says that God bless the latter end of Joe more than his beginning. I hope and pray that God will bless me more in the near future.
I need strength!
I miss my children deeply. I do not understand how a woman can do this to her husband. I do not understand how a wife can do this to the father of her children. How can you live with yourself, knowing that you have played the part and destroying your family? How can you look in the mirror and think it’s OK to do what you’ve done. I would faint if I had done this to another person and then looked in the mirror. I would have broken down and been apologetic almost immediately.
I need your prayers.
I need help. Please pray for me. Please pray that I will have strength. Please pray that God will continue to work in my life to make provision. Please pray that God will let me stand tall again just like Job eventually stood tall!!!
I trust God!
I have read the psalms over 30 times in the last 2+ years. They have been such a help to me in drawing closer to God. Also, I spend large amounts of time each day in constant prayer. I pray all day long.
Please continue to pray for me.
I have recently started a small business that I’m hoping will eventually replace part or all of my income. I’ve had some recent success, and I’m hoping that my success will continue to grow. It will allow me to live anywhere. I choose to live and make the kind of money that I need to make. I hope and pray God will bless me with wisdom and strength to make it work.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have.