Justbecause5
Servant
There is power in prayer (James 5:16)!
My family and I moved to ### in February 2019 to work with a small church. My mom died in April 2019.
The church grew from 28 to nearly 90 with 22 baptisms during Covid. God provided the increase. In my life as a minister, it seems like anytime something good was happening within the context of the church, Satan attacked.
In August 2022, my two young boys and I headed to ### to start a new job as a teacher. My wife, an older daughter had purchased tickets in May 2022 to leave in September 2022 to go overseas to visit family. My wife bought those tickets without even talking to me.
After the boys and I left ###, my wife hired an attorney and together they went to court and convinced the judge I had stolen the boys and taking them across state lines. I was 5000 miles away, taken care of my sons, starting a new job and trying to make it till payday in the end of September 2022.
Finally, payday arrived. I received my first check from the school and I’m moving allowance. I was so excited. The boys were excited for payday, though they did not know the exact date. I could not wait till school is over so that I could take them shopping and get everything that they wanted and needed for school. I also look forward to setting up my new home in preparation for my wife and daughter return returning from overseas.
During my conference period, I was in my room working when the principal in HR lady came to my room. They told me that my wife had come to the school and taking the boys. I immediately busted out in tears; it was uncontrollable. I cried like a baby.
I have had a lot of pain in my life. However, the pain that I experienced that day was terrible. I could not believe that my wife had done that to me. I have not seen my children since. Today is June 17, 2026. I miss my children with every ounce of my being. I suffer with deep depression and sadness.
I immediately started praying fervently that God would work. I must have prayed for my wife over 1 million times. I prayed for my family that my family could be restored and reconciled. I was willing to forgive my wife what she had done. I was willing to do anything I could to restore our marriage in our family. I pleaded with God to take me back to ###.
In late 2022, I attempted to prepare my own way to go back to ###; however, it failed. I finished the school year. God gave me several temporary jobs that took me to ###. The jobs gave me strength, money and made me feel good about myself.
Finally, in the summer of 2024, God answered my prayer. This is one thing that gives me the most hope. It is amazing all the things that happened that resulted in me going back to ###. It’s like God’s perfect plan unfolded during the summer of 2024.
I was flying back to ### from a 17 week job in ###. While flying, I received a text from the talent manager asking if I would go back to ### to work. I said yes. On Father’s Day 2024, I flew from ### back to ### to do a 30 day job. However, as my partner I begin work, we could tell that the job probably would be extended so we inquired. It was extended another 30 days.
Towards the end of the second 30 days, on July 28, 2024, I received an email offered me a teaching position in ###. I would be teaching eighth grade science. In addition, I would be coaching basketball. I took the position.
The company that I was working for in ### had to pay for my ticket back to my home. My new home was ### so they paid $### for first class ticket from ### to ###. So, on August 19, 2024, I boarded the plane and flew to ###. My faith was strong.
Prior to the departure, I had contacted several places to live. But it was catch 22. A lot of the places to live are out in the hills around ###, which would require a vehicle. I could not get a place to live and I could not get a vehicle. So, my plane took off, and I had no place to live in no car to drive. I quoted second Corinthians 5:7 probably 500 times while in the air. I was strong until the last couple hundred miles when I realized my plane would land and I had nowhere to go.
I remember, Abraham believed that if Isaac was killed, God would raising from the dead. I believed that before the plane landed, my wife would contact me and provide a place to live in a vehicle to drive. I was so confident that I had a smile on my face and energy in my steps. However, as the plane got within a few hundred miles of its destination, I became very weak in spirit and mind. The plane landed at 12:15 AM and I had nowhere to go.
A lady on the plane that had been seated on the opposite side of first class on the first row had been asked to move over by me. She and I talked all the way to ###. She was very kind when the plane landed, she and her husband took me to the shelter. I would live at the shelter for the next 4.5 months.
The next 21 months in ###, I would suffer again and again. My teaching job disappeared on November 20, 2024 due to a contract issue. The school had to pay my salary through the end of April 2025. I’m so thankful that God provided for me.
When I first got to ###, I was in HR limbo for 10 days. I could not step foot in the classroom until everything was complete with HR. So, I started doing gig work mainly DoorDash. I got pretty good at it and it became something I did every day to try and provide food, money and gas money even when I started teaching.
After I lost my job at the school, gig work became my full-time work. I had purchased an old van from a person that I met just before leaving ### the first time. He financed it but charged me $### he and I have been helping each other ever since then.
I have suffered in every way possible in ###.. I have lived at the shelter. I have lived in the back of my van 28 nights. I just finished living in my car for 17 days. Etc. I lost my teaching job due to no fault of my own. Later I got a job. It’s a lab manager and after three successful weeks, I was let go due to no fault of my own. I went back to gig work.
Even in gig work, I had problems. My old van had three blowouts in six weeks. I had to buy tires. Then the front end bearings went out and that cost me nearly $###. I did not use my van for like six months. I rented a car. In the winter time in ###, rental cars were relatively inexpensive maybe $###-$### a day.
It’s just like everything just kept getting worse and worse. The rental car prices went up and I had to return to my old van. But then my van broke. Wouldn’t start for a week. But then it started. Then the timing belt broke. Then the apartment complex that I lived in towed my van without even telling me. Later, they claimed that it was stolen. It was not it did not run due to the timing belt.
Then I lived in an apartment. I got behind in my rent due to gig work and vehicle issues. I have been working with the Landlord‘s wife because he had had heart surgery. But when he got better, he came to my apartment and chastise me and embarrassed me in front of everybody. He then cut my water off. He then cut the electricity off. Then he made it where I couldn’t get in the room. He stole everything I had I left with only the clothes on my back. In fact, I wore those clothes for 17 days. I just washed them for the first time a few few days ago.
I have suffered tremendously and it’s painful when I think about everything that I’ve endured. The weird thing about everything is that I feel like my love for God is stronger than it’s ever been. I feel like my faith in God is strong stronger than it’s ever been. And by the way when I say God I’m talking about Christ and the spirit, etc..
It bothers me on this prayer request line when some concludes that I don’t believe in Jesus or maybe I’m not saved. Yes, I am safe. I was baptized into Christ owns July 5, 1979. I’ve been a Christian for most of my life, I love God Christ, the spirit with all my heart.
I lost my job at the lab on June 16, 2025. Since then, I’ve been doing gig work and some capacity. I’ve learned so much about doing it and I’ve had some success. But I continue to have issues with cars, course, gas prices going up to over $### a gallon did not help.
After being evicted illegally by my previous landlord, I lived in my rental car and then I rented a car from ### the guy who sold me the van. For 17 or 21 days I lived in the car and did gig work and took a shower at the gym. It was not easy sleeping at a 45° angle.
So finally, I contacted ###, my previous landlord, and the lady who let me live in her pimp basement for 4.5 months. First, I asked her if she had any apartments open and she said no. Then I asked her if I could move back into a primitive basement and she did not want me back there because of lies that she told before.
When I lived in the primitive basement for 4.5 months, I was determined to show appreciation by doing anything I could to help her. She lives 400 miles away. However, as winner approached, she had a boiler guy who needed to get down into the basement, but she did not tell me. When he was unable to access the basement, she became furious at me and eventually asked me to leave. Of course, it was not my fault at all because no one told me anybody was coming over. Still angers me when I think about her actions. It was 1000% her fault but she pushed that blame on me and asked me to leave.
I feel like I could write a book about all this stuff. I’m sure Satan is laughing as he sees the suffering that I’ve had to endure. I know that God is near to the brokenhearted… Sometimes I feel like he’s 1,000,000 miles away because of all the pain that I’ve endured I’m like God where are you?
Finally ### allow me to move back into the apartment but then the next day she told me to leave because she did not receive any money even though I had sent her $###. I stayed in the apartment. She finally got back to me and told me she’d gotten the money. I don’t know why she makes me feel so terrible about myself.
I have been pleading with God for reconciliation. I can’t see anything. I trust that God has been working. I trust that my wife’s life has faced her own set of trials that slowly, but surely is causing her to come around I hope.
I have plenty with God God, if you are not going to restore my marriage, would you please give me a good job that will take me far away and I will leave immediately. I will leave today. So far, nothing.
In the summer of 2025, after I lost my job at the lab due to no fault of my own, I had five interviews quickly. I thought for sure God was working. Then I had opportunities outside the state. One company, from ### contacted me about moving to ### for a manager position. I thought it was the hand of God. Then a school in ###, contacted me about a relatively high, paying position there in ### teaching school. Initially, I said yes, but then said no due to the fact they needed me to move quickly. When I responded later, they said they had filled the position. It’s like God did not want me to leave the state. Another church in ###, contacted me and they seemed really excited about me. They needed someone to preach and teach and lead singing which I can do. I had even contacted another school to see if I could teach there to supplement that income. Everything quickly fell apart. It’s like God did not want me going there.
I don’t know what guy wants me to do
A week ago, I noticed a job as a branch manager had a company. I was familiar with the company because when I first got the Navy in 1995, I had interviewed with that company for a technician position. I did not get that job so, all this time later, I applied to the position as branch manager. I got an interview and I did a Zoom interview a few days later which I think went pretty well.
The man that I did the interview with asked me if I wanted to I could come into the branch the following week to meet him because he was coming up from ### and he would give me a tour. So, I did that on Tuesday. I met him and took a tour of the facility
If I were to get this job as branch manager, I believe it would be an answer to my prayer. I had asked that God would take me far away and give me a good job; however, if I got that job, God will be keeping me here and giving me a good job. I guess we never know exactly what God is doing or not doing.
I love to do gig work. I really do. I could imagine myself doing some type of gig work the rest of my life. It may just be to add a few hundred dollars of salary to my weekly income or it could be full-time.
However, gig work has its problems. You have to actually physically go deliver food or items to make money. So you have to hustle. You have to use your own car and it causes wear and tear. You have to buy expensive gas and maintain the car, etc..
I do miss having a regular job because the pay is always gonna be there as long as you show up to work and do your work. Of course, I know from experience, any job can disappear suddenly and without warning, no matter what the performance was at the job.
But as I said before, I feel like my faith in God is stronger than that it’s ever been. I’m confident that no matter what happens with this job, God will make provision. If I don’t get this job, which I hope I do, God will provide. Even if it means I continue to do to do gig work.
There are days that I just want to die. I am not suicidal. I am not looking for sympathy. I’m just stating facts. In my life, I have suffered in many different capacities, but I have never wanted to death. I welcome death. I wish God would exchange my life for someone else. Let them come back and I’ll go. I want to be with the Lord. I wish God would send a chariot to come get me. Again, I’m not saying that for sympathy, I’m just telling you what I feel in my heart. I’m so exhausted from everything. I am so exhausted.
I wish I was perfect. I know that I’m not I wish I could say I’ve done everything right, but I have not. I’m a sinner like anybody else saved by the blood of Jesus Christ.
I am exhausted.
My wife did horrible things to me. I’m sure she’s going to lose her soul due to her horrible decisions and behavior. However, I stand prepared to forgive her. I stand prepared to love her, like Jesus loved his church. I stand prepared to be the best husband and father I can be God please restore my marriage in my family.
One thing that really keeps me going is when I think about everything that God did to bring me to ###. To me, it is so obvious that God orchestrated the plan that unfolded in the summer 2024. God did that. I did not do that. Mankind did not do that. Everything happened, I believe by the hand and foresight of Almighty God.
I did not even comment about December 29, 2024. I went to ###, which is the largest hill in your ###. From there, you can see ### on a clear day. It was going to be a beautiful sunset on that Sunday and so I gathered my Lord supper material and I headed to that spot about 25 miles outside town. It was a very cold day, round -###°F while there, something crazy happened, and I was logged out of my van.
However, I patiently walked around the van looking for maybe some type of way to get in the van. I was unsuccessful. I only had a light jacket on that’s it. I tried to find a rock to break a window, but it was unsuccessful and then ran down to the bottom of the hill. My face was numb and my ears were numb and I could barely talk all signs of hypothermia sitting in. I’m guesstimating I would be dead probably within an hour or so I was freezing.
It just so happened there were two women sitting at the bottom of the hill in an old, but very nice truck. They were willing to help me and allow me to get in the back of the truck and then took me back to my van. One of them had the idea of taking off the antenna and slipping it in the window on the passenger side that only went up about 3/4 of the way due to a previous accident, possibly a moose hit. The best sound I ever heard was when that lock opened.
I believe God saved my life that day.
I am exhausted. I’ve been through so much. I feel like I could write a book about all these things.
I’ve read the psalms like 30+ times since 2023. I have only read the psalms a few times this year in 2026. Reading the psalms is giving me so much strength.
God has picked and put certain people in my life since my wife left me. It’s amazing to think about people that suddenly knocked on my door out of nowhere where. Are a school janitor that simply clean my room twice a day who became my very best friend after my wife took my kids. Who would’ve thought? He had been hired two weeks before me. It’s almost like God allow the school to hire him, knowing that he would be such a good friend to me when everything happened.
I am exhausted. I miss my children terribly in a period in a few days, Father’s Day will take place. I don’t understand how my wife could allow another Father’s Day to go by knowing that her children, our children, do not have a dad. What is wrong with women in 2026?
90% of divorces are initiated by women. Some may be legit, but probably most or not. We all should be praying that this habit will stop. I often pray for vengeance against all family attorneys that destroy marriages and families.
I do hope that this country will start to take this more seriously. Some states are starting to question no fault divorce. So many homes are being destroyed as women decide. They
My family and I moved to ### in February 2019 to work with a small church. My mom died in April 2019.
The church grew from 28 to nearly 90 with 22 baptisms during Covid. God provided the increase. In my life as a minister, it seems like anytime something good was happening within the context of the church, Satan attacked.
In August 2022, my two young boys and I headed to ### to start a new job as a teacher. My wife, an older daughter had purchased tickets in May 2022 to leave in September 2022 to go overseas to visit family. My wife bought those tickets without even talking to me.
After the boys and I left ###, my wife hired an attorney and together they went to court and convinced the judge I had stolen the boys and taking them across state lines. I was 5000 miles away, taken care of my sons, starting a new job and trying to make it till payday in the end of September 2022.
Finally, payday arrived. I received my first check from the school and I’m moving allowance. I was so excited. The boys were excited for payday, though they did not know the exact date. I could not wait till school is over so that I could take them shopping and get everything that they wanted and needed for school. I also look forward to setting up my new home in preparation for my wife and daughter return returning from overseas.
During my conference period, I was in my room working when the principal in HR lady came to my room. They told me that my wife had come to the school and taking the boys. I immediately busted out in tears; it was uncontrollable. I cried like a baby.
I have had a lot of pain in my life. However, the pain that I experienced that day was terrible. I could not believe that my wife had done that to me. I have not seen my children since. Today is June 17, 2026. I miss my children with every ounce of my being. I suffer with deep depression and sadness.
I immediately started praying fervently that God would work. I must have prayed for my wife over 1 million times. I prayed for my family that my family could be restored and reconciled. I was willing to forgive my wife what she had done. I was willing to do anything I could to restore our marriage in our family. I pleaded with God to take me back to ###.
In late 2022, I attempted to prepare my own way to go back to ###; however, it failed. I finished the school year. God gave me several temporary jobs that took me to ###. The jobs gave me strength, money and made me feel good about myself.
Finally, in the summer of 2024, God answered my prayer. This is one thing that gives me the most hope. It is amazing all the things that happened that resulted in me going back to ###. It’s like God’s perfect plan unfolded during the summer of 2024.
I was flying back to ### from a 17 week job in ###. While flying, I received a text from the talent manager asking if I would go back to ### to work. I said yes. On Father’s Day 2024, I flew from ### back to ### to do a 30 day job. However, as my partner I begin work, we could tell that the job probably would be extended so we inquired. It was extended another 30 days.
Towards the end of the second 30 days, on July 28, 2024, I received an email offered me a teaching position in ###. I would be teaching eighth grade science. In addition, I would be coaching basketball. I took the position.
The company that I was working for in ### had to pay for my ticket back to my home. My new home was ### so they paid $### for first class ticket from ### to ###. So, on August 19, 2024, I boarded the plane and flew to ###. My faith was strong.
Prior to the departure, I had contacted several places to live. But it was catch 22. A lot of the places to live are out in the hills around ###, which would require a vehicle. I could not get a place to live and I could not get a vehicle. So, my plane took off, and I had no place to live in no car to drive. I quoted second Corinthians 5:7 probably 500 times while in the air. I was strong until the last couple hundred miles when I realized my plane would land and I had nowhere to go.
I remember, Abraham believed that if Isaac was killed, God would raising from the dead. I believed that before the plane landed, my wife would contact me and provide a place to live in a vehicle to drive. I was so confident that I had a smile on my face and energy in my steps. However, as the plane got within a few hundred miles of its destination, I became very weak in spirit and mind. The plane landed at 12:15 AM and I had nowhere to go.
A lady on the plane that had been seated on the opposite side of first class on the first row had been asked to move over by me. She and I talked all the way to ###. She was very kind when the plane landed, she and her husband took me to the shelter. I would live at the shelter for the next 4.5 months.
The next 21 months in ###, I would suffer again and again. My teaching job disappeared on November 20, 2024 due to a contract issue. The school had to pay my salary through the end of April 2025. I’m so thankful that God provided for me.
When I first got to ###, I was in HR limbo for 10 days. I could not step foot in the classroom until everything was complete with HR. So, I started doing gig work mainly DoorDash. I got pretty good at it and it became something I did every day to try and provide food, money and gas money even when I started teaching.
After I lost my job at the school, gig work became my full-time work. I had purchased an old van from a person that I met just before leaving ### the first time. He financed it but charged me $### he and I have been helping each other ever since then.
I have suffered in every way possible in ###.. I have lived at the shelter. I have lived in the back of my van 28 nights. I just finished living in my car for 17 days. Etc. I lost my teaching job due to no fault of my own. Later I got a job. It’s a lab manager and after three successful weeks, I was let go due to no fault of my own. I went back to gig work.
Even in gig work, I had problems. My old van had three blowouts in six weeks. I had to buy tires. Then the front end bearings went out and that cost me nearly $###. I did not use my van for like six months. I rented a car. In the winter time in ###, rental cars were relatively inexpensive maybe $###-$### a day.
It’s just like everything just kept getting worse and worse. The rental car prices went up and I had to return to my old van. But then my van broke. Wouldn’t start for a week. But then it started. Then the timing belt broke. Then the apartment complex that I lived in towed my van without even telling me. Later, they claimed that it was stolen. It was not it did not run due to the timing belt.
Then I lived in an apartment. I got behind in my rent due to gig work and vehicle issues. I have been working with the Landlord‘s wife because he had had heart surgery. But when he got better, he came to my apartment and chastise me and embarrassed me in front of everybody. He then cut my water off. He then cut the electricity off. Then he made it where I couldn’t get in the room. He stole everything I had I left with only the clothes on my back. In fact, I wore those clothes for 17 days. I just washed them for the first time a few few days ago.
I have suffered tremendously and it’s painful when I think about everything that I’ve endured. The weird thing about everything is that I feel like my love for God is stronger than it’s ever been. I feel like my faith in God is strong stronger than it’s ever been. And by the way when I say God I’m talking about Christ and the spirit, etc..
It bothers me on this prayer request line when some concludes that I don’t believe in Jesus or maybe I’m not saved. Yes, I am safe. I was baptized into Christ owns July 5, 1979. I’ve been a Christian for most of my life, I love God Christ, the spirit with all my heart.
I lost my job at the lab on June 16, 2025. Since then, I’ve been doing gig work and some capacity. I’ve learned so much about doing it and I’ve had some success. But I continue to have issues with cars, course, gas prices going up to over $### a gallon did not help.
After being evicted illegally by my previous landlord, I lived in my rental car and then I rented a car from ### the guy who sold me the van. For 17 or 21 days I lived in the car and did gig work and took a shower at the gym. It was not easy sleeping at a 45° angle.
So finally, I contacted ###, my previous landlord, and the lady who let me live in her pimp basement for 4.5 months. First, I asked her if she had any apartments open and she said no. Then I asked her if I could move back into a primitive basement and she did not want me back there because of lies that she told before.
When I lived in the primitive basement for 4.5 months, I was determined to show appreciation by doing anything I could to help her. She lives 400 miles away. However, as winner approached, she had a boiler guy who needed to get down into the basement, but she did not tell me. When he was unable to access the basement, she became furious at me and eventually asked me to leave. Of course, it was not my fault at all because no one told me anybody was coming over. Still angers me when I think about her actions. It was 1000% her fault but she pushed that blame on me and asked me to leave.
I feel like I could write a book about all this stuff. I’m sure Satan is laughing as he sees the suffering that I’ve had to endure. I know that God is near to the brokenhearted… Sometimes I feel like he’s 1,000,000 miles away because of all the pain that I’ve endured I’m like God where are you?
Finally ### allow me to move back into the apartment but then the next day she told me to leave because she did not receive any money even though I had sent her $###. I stayed in the apartment. She finally got back to me and told me she’d gotten the money. I don’t know why she makes me feel so terrible about myself.
I have been pleading with God for reconciliation. I can’t see anything. I trust that God has been working. I trust that my wife’s life has faced her own set of trials that slowly, but surely is causing her to come around I hope.
I have plenty with God God, if you are not going to restore my marriage, would you please give me a good job that will take me far away and I will leave immediately. I will leave today. So far, nothing.
In the summer of 2025, after I lost my job at the lab due to no fault of my own, I had five interviews quickly. I thought for sure God was working. Then I had opportunities outside the state. One company, from ### contacted me about moving to ### for a manager position. I thought it was the hand of God. Then a school in ###, contacted me about a relatively high, paying position there in ### teaching school. Initially, I said yes, but then said no due to the fact they needed me to move quickly. When I responded later, they said they had filled the position. It’s like God did not want me to leave the state. Another church in ###, contacted me and they seemed really excited about me. They needed someone to preach and teach and lead singing which I can do. I had even contacted another school to see if I could teach there to supplement that income. Everything quickly fell apart. It’s like God did not want me going there.
I don’t know what guy wants me to do
A week ago, I noticed a job as a branch manager had a company. I was familiar with the company because when I first got the Navy in 1995, I had interviewed with that company for a technician position. I did not get that job so, all this time later, I applied to the position as branch manager. I got an interview and I did a Zoom interview a few days later which I think went pretty well.
The man that I did the interview with asked me if I wanted to I could come into the branch the following week to meet him because he was coming up from ### and he would give me a tour. So, I did that on Tuesday. I met him and took a tour of the facility
If I were to get this job as branch manager, I believe it would be an answer to my prayer. I had asked that God would take me far away and give me a good job; however, if I got that job, God will be keeping me here and giving me a good job. I guess we never know exactly what God is doing or not doing.
I love to do gig work. I really do. I could imagine myself doing some type of gig work the rest of my life. It may just be to add a few hundred dollars of salary to my weekly income or it could be full-time.
However, gig work has its problems. You have to actually physically go deliver food or items to make money. So you have to hustle. You have to use your own car and it causes wear and tear. You have to buy expensive gas and maintain the car, etc..
I do miss having a regular job because the pay is always gonna be there as long as you show up to work and do your work. Of course, I know from experience, any job can disappear suddenly and without warning, no matter what the performance was at the job.
But as I said before, I feel like my faith in God is stronger than that it’s ever been. I’m confident that no matter what happens with this job, God will make provision. If I don’t get this job, which I hope I do, God will provide. Even if it means I continue to do to do gig work.
There are days that I just want to die. I am not suicidal. I am not looking for sympathy. I’m just stating facts. In my life, I have suffered in many different capacities, but I have never wanted to death. I welcome death. I wish God would exchange my life for someone else. Let them come back and I’ll go. I want to be with the Lord. I wish God would send a chariot to come get me. Again, I’m not saying that for sympathy, I’m just telling you what I feel in my heart. I’m so exhausted from everything. I am so exhausted.
I wish I was perfect. I know that I’m not I wish I could say I’ve done everything right, but I have not. I’m a sinner like anybody else saved by the blood of Jesus Christ.
I am exhausted.
My wife did horrible things to me. I’m sure she’s going to lose her soul due to her horrible decisions and behavior. However, I stand prepared to forgive her. I stand prepared to love her, like Jesus loved his church. I stand prepared to be the best husband and father I can be God please restore my marriage in my family.
One thing that really keeps me going is when I think about everything that God did to bring me to ###. To me, it is so obvious that God orchestrated the plan that unfolded in the summer 2024. God did that. I did not do that. Mankind did not do that. Everything happened, I believe by the hand and foresight of Almighty God.
I did not even comment about December 29, 2024. I went to ###, which is the largest hill in your ###. From there, you can see ### on a clear day. It was going to be a beautiful sunset on that Sunday and so I gathered my Lord supper material and I headed to that spot about 25 miles outside town. It was a very cold day, round -###°F while there, something crazy happened, and I was logged out of my van.
However, I patiently walked around the van looking for maybe some type of way to get in the van. I was unsuccessful. I only had a light jacket on that’s it. I tried to find a rock to break a window, but it was unsuccessful and then ran down to the bottom of the hill. My face was numb and my ears were numb and I could barely talk all signs of hypothermia sitting in. I’m guesstimating I would be dead probably within an hour or so I was freezing.
It just so happened there were two women sitting at the bottom of the hill in an old, but very nice truck. They were willing to help me and allow me to get in the back of the truck and then took me back to my van. One of them had the idea of taking off the antenna and slipping it in the window on the passenger side that only went up about 3/4 of the way due to a previous accident, possibly a moose hit. The best sound I ever heard was when that lock opened.
I believe God saved my life that day.
I am exhausted. I’ve been through so much. I feel like I could write a book about all these things.
I’ve read the psalms like 30+ times since 2023. I have only read the psalms a few times this year in 2026. Reading the psalms is giving me so much strength.
God has picked and put certain people in my life since my wife left me. It’s amazing to think about people that suddenly knocked on my door out of nowhere where. Are a school janitor that simply clean my room twice a day who became my very best friend after my wife took my kids. Who would’ve thought? He had been hired two weeks before me. It’s almost like God allow the school to hire him, knowing that he would be such a good friend to me when everything happened.
I am exhausted. I miss my children terribly in a period in a few days, Father’s Day will take place. I don’t understand how my wife could allow another Father’s Day to go by knowing that her children, our children, do not have a dad. What is wrong with women in 2026?
90% of divorces are initiated by women. Some may be legit, but probably most or not. We all should be praying that this habit will stop. I often pray for vengeance against all family attorneys that destroy marriages and families.
I do hope that this country will start to take this more seriously. Some states are starting to question no fault divorce. So many homes are being destroyed as women decide. They
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
