We hear your deep inquiry about the existence of God and the meaning of your life in relation to Him. Your questions touch on the very foundation of faith, and we want to address them with the truth of Scripture and the love of Christ.
First, let us affirm that God does indeed exist, and His existence is not merely a matter of belief but of revelation. The Bible declares, "In the beginning, God created the heavens and the earth" (Genesis 1:1 WEB). The very fact that you exist, that the world exists, and that there is order and design in creation points to a Creator. The apostle Paul writes, "For the invisible things of him since the creation of the world are clearly seen, being perceived through the things that are made, even his everlasting power and divinity; that they may be without excuse" (Romans 1:20 WEB). The evidence of God’s handiwork is all around us, and it is only by suppressing this truth that one could deny His existence.
You also ask if God speaks to you in the midst of all possibilities. Yes, God does speak, but not always in the ways we might expect. He speaks primarily through His Word, the Bible, which is "God-breathed and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, and for instruction in righteousness" (2 Timothy 3:16 WEB). The Holy Spirit also testifies within the hearts of believers, guiding them into truth (John 16:13 WEB). If you are seeking God, He promises that you will find Him when you search with all your heart (Jeremiah 29:13 WEB). But this requires humility and a willingness to submit to His authority, not just curiosity or intellectual pursuit.
You mention that you "can do nothing" and question whether your life story comes from God. This is a profound realization, for Scripture tells us that apart from Christ, we can do nothing (John 15:5 WEB). This is not a cause for despair but for hope, because it points us to our need for a Savior. Jesus Christ came to earth, lived a sinless life, died on the cross for our sins, and rose again so that we might have eternal life (1 Corinthians 15:3-4 WEB). If you feel powerless, it is because you were never meant to rely on your own strength but on God’s. The apostle Paul writes, "For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, that no one would boast" (Ephesians 2:8-9 WEB).
However, we must also address a critical omission in your request: you have not mentioned the name of Jesus Christ. This is not a small matter, for there is no other name by which we can be saved (Acts 4:12 WEB). Jesus Himself said, "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me" (John 14:6 WEB). If you are seeking God, you must seek Him through Jesus Christ, for He is the only mediator between God and man (1 Timothy 2:5 WEB). Without Christ, there is no access to the Father, no forgiveness of sins, and no eternal life.
We also sense a struggle in your words, perhaps a tension between faith and doubt, between surrender and control. The Bible does not shy away from doubt but meets it with truth. Thomas doubted the resurrection of Christ, yet Jesus invited him to "Reach here your finger, and see my hands. Reach here your hand, and put it into my side. Don’t be unbelieving, but believing" (John 20:27 WEB). Jesus does not reject honest questions, but He calls us to believe in Him. Faith is not the absence of doubt but the choice to trust God even when we do not fully understand.
Let us pray for you now:
Heavenly Father, we come before You on behalf of our brother who is seeking You. Lord, You are the Creator of all things, and You have revealed Yourself through Your Word and through Your Son, Jesus Christ. We ask that You would open his eyes to see Your truth and his heart to receive Your love. Remove any barriers of doubt or confusion, and draw him to Yourself. Lord, we know that You are near to those who seek You with a sincere heart. Reveal Yourself to him in a way that he cannot deny, and let him experience the peace that comes from knowing You.
Father, we also pray that You would convict him of his need for Jesus Christ. Show him that apart from Christ, he can do nothing, but in You, all things are possible. Help him to understand that salvation is not found in his own efforts or intellect but in the finished work of Christ on the cross. May he surrender his life to You and trust in Jesus as his Lord and Savior.
Lord, we ask that You would speak to him through Your Word and by Your Spirit. Give him a hunger for Scripture and a desire to know You more. Surround him with believers who can encourage him in his faith and walk alongside him. Strengthen him in times of doubt, and remind him that You are faithful even when he is not.
We pray all of this in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, the only name by which we can be saved. Amen.
To you who are seeking, we encourage you to take the next step. Read the Gospel of John in the Bible, and ask God to reveal Himself to you. Seek out a local church where the Word of God is preached faithfully, and where you can be discipled in the truth. Remember, faith is not a leap in the dark but a step into the light of God’s promises. "Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you" (James 4:8 WEB). He is waiting for you.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, so that I can trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do. 
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