Blogs

Have decided to put/move the posts here instead of in a thread about process of dealing with a dependency on two people God willing with God's help. Seems a bit more appropriate here maybe. Jan 7 2013 I am not in a good space. Have decided for now I will try and post here every day. God knows everything. so today feeling dependent and very needy on two people. need God's help to go to God. to break this. it seems impossible at the moment

Today I am very aware of the last two years. I am still so amazed at what the Lord has done in me. April 2, 2011 I received a call from my son in New Orleans around 1:00 am, All I could hear was mom it's not good, it's not good mom I don't think dad is going to make it. I will never forget the desperation, fear, and sadness in his voice. A bit of history. My husband got transferred to New Orleans, he did not want the two younger kids and I down there. He said it was a horrible place for kids. He came home once a month to visit. He had been working there for a year when my second oldest son went to work for him. During that year I saw my husband changing. He wasn't as desperate to come home, he began going to bars with his friends...

When fear comes and grips your mind, speak out these verses continually. Fear will run away from you For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. 2Tim 1:7 I sought the LORD, and he heard me, and delivered me from all my fears Psalms 34:4 The LORD is my light and my salvation-- whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life-- of whom shall I be afraid? When evil men advance against me to devour my flesh, when my enemies and my foes attack me, they will stumble and fall. Psalms 27:1-2 What shall we then say to these things? If God be for us, who can be against us? Romans 8:31 Do not fear the reproach of mere mortals or be terrified by their insults For the moth will eat them...

This song is by Downunder called How Many Kings. Very powerful... Follow the star to a place unexpected Would you believe after all we've projected A child in a manger Lowly and small, the weakest of all Unlikeliest hero, wrapped in his mother's shawl Just a child Is this who we've waited for? Cause how many kings, stepped down from their thrones? How many lords have abandoned their homes? How many greats have become the least for me? How many Gods have poured out their hearts To romance a world that has torn all apart? How many fathers gave up their sons for me? Bringing our gifts for the newborn savior All that we have whether costly or meek Because we believe Gold for his honor and frankincense for...

I am fasting and praying for the salvation of two of my children, my husband, future daughter-in-law, and complete healing spiritually, physically, and emotionally for them, myself, my daughter, and another son. Last night my husband, who has not been saved and was very uncomfortable with church, responded to an altar call. He received prayer from the entire church for a childhood trauma only I knew about. In obedience, I am going to confess some things. I will not hide in darkness; I will shine light on all the deepest, darkest places. I experienced anxiety today about my own mortality. Lord, forgive me. Lord, lead me in faith. You did not give the spirit of fear. I confess to pride. The evil one tells me the lie that I somehow...

Today I began my fast. I am doing a Daniel fast. I have failed at fasting, I believe, due to the fact I was doing it to please God or somehow gain His acceptance. I still do not know exactly why I am doing it except I am walking in obedience to the Lord. On day 1 I already have a praise report. I was sexually abused as a child by my uncle. My biological father also sexually abused me. I believed after many years of counseling and prayer it was no longer an issue. In my teen years I was sexually promiscuous. Until I got pregnant at 19. I have had 2 husbands cheat on me. I have battled anxiety and depression off and on most of my life. I am on medication for it but it still reared its ugly head. It used to be anxiety about dying. Even...

This is my list of 12 Bible verses that can be comforting when you are sad, worried, stressed, etc. All are taken from the New International Version of the Bible. Let me know if it helps you or you have a verse that you think could be added to the list. Thank you! 1. Psalm 147:3 "He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds." 2. Philippians 4:13 "I can do everything through Him who gives me strength." 3. 1 Peter 5:7 "Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you." 4. Philippians 4:6 "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." 5. Matthew 5:4 "Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted." 6. Isaiah 40:11 "He tends His...

Psalm 66:18 If I cherished sin in my heart, the Lord wouldn't have listened. Proverbs 34:15 The eyes of the LORD are on the righteous and his ears are attentive to their cry Proverbs 1:25-26 Since you ignored all my advice and would not accept my rebuke, I in turn will laugh at your disaster; I will mock when calamity overtakes you. when calamity overtakes you like a storm, when disaster sweeps over you like a whirlwind, when distress and trouble overwhelm you. Proverbs 21:13 Whoever closes his ear to the cry of the poor will himself call out and not be answered. 2 Chronicles 7:14 If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven...

Romans Chapter 1 explains about how apostle Paul prayed 1. Giving Thanks Romans 1:8 2. Without Ceasing Romans 1:9 3. Making request and waiting for the will of God to happen Romans 1:10 4. He believed in the Word of God Romans 1:16

About a week ago, I took a shower at around 10:30 at night, shortly before I went to bed. I usually don't like taking showers that much or anything, but it felt warm and refreshing, and I just felt good. As someone who is constantly thinking about God, spiritual lessons often come to me when doing everyday things, such as taking a shower. That night, I thought that the cleansing of water feeling good could stand for the cleansing of our souls making us feel refreshed and loved. The message: take a moment, right now, to search your heart. What sins do you need to repent of? Take a couple minutes to talk to God about it/them. Ask Him for forgiveness and the strength to not do it/them again. Or maybe you are hurting now and you need God's...