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I really want to see the beautiful face of Jesus. I thought before going into coma. My surgery was done in the middle of the morning. Doctors voices I hear. The light that goes through my mind is clear. I really want to see Jesus lovely face. Smiling at me. Calling my name. Come dear child of mine. I long for you to come home. Oh the tears that rolled my cheeks. I love You Lord... I am so alone in this world. You are my Father, my mother my all in all. Fear not. Surgery is done. You are OK. Everything that was hurting you is out. I hear the doctors voice. Am I still here? Is this heaven? That is when I woke up. Realizing that Jesus wanted me here for a while. His plans for me are true...

Life is so difficult and most of the time we have a hard time understanding things. A lot of the times we want to just give up and stop fighting. I have been in so many places where I wanted to give up and where it would be easier to end my life. Since November of last year I had been dealing with depression and anxiety. I had lost a cousin in October, in November I had found out my grandmother had cancer. And exactly a month and a week later she was gone. She was my best friend outside of the love of my life ### and my mom. He had always been there for me since we were well since we were 12. And in January he decided he couldn't handle things and his feelings had changed. And I had some other issues during this time. And my depression...

I will praise You with music. Telling of your faithfulness to all Your promises. O holy One of Israel. Psalm 17.22 Jesus alone satisfies the longing soul. The one that has gone away from Him. Now wanders in a dark forest of problems, Worries and fear cover his head. There is no other way to turn. Let us all turn to Jesus. He alone is the satisfier of our wounded souls. Riches and glory of this world cannot satisfy us. Gold, silver, material possessions are empty promises. Deception and emptiness comes to us. When we put our trust in those things. Let us all look up to Jesus. He alone is the satisfier of all lost souls. O how glorious art Thou o Lord our God, Stock of David savior of our souls. Fill us with joy we pray. Confort us...

The anxiety for a future mate is getting worse. It's bothering me day and night, robbing me of sleep. I can't stop thinking about her, trying to find her. I tried reading my Bible and reassuring myself that God is in control, but I keep seeing girls and thinking, I'd like to be in a relationship with her, she's pretty, upbeat, and she's funny, and has a cute personality. Only to find out she's involved or not interested. I wish God would help me get through this season of my life. Christmas is a miserable time for me. I know we are celebrating the birth of our Lord and Savior, but I always feel left out around that time of year. Everyone else seems to be so happy, and most of my male cousins are now married or they are involved or...

Today I went to a singles group to try and meet some new people and make some new friends. Maybe even meet that special woman. But instead I got shut out. No one sat next to me, so I tried sitting next to a girl I thought might be a nice person. You cannot tell who's nice and is not nice anymore. I sat next to her and it was like I was a ghost. I tried to say hi but of course she ignored my existence. I was hoping maybe I could meet an older woman, someone who would understand. No such luck. I'm running out of options as far as singles groups, so I don't know what else to do. Guess I just don't fit in. I'm tired of being single. I want to know what it's like to have that person who accepts me for all my flaws. Instead, I have to keep...

God looked past David's outward appearance and his human frailties. He looked at his heart. Even though David wasn't a perfect man, he had a true heart for his Lord. 1 Samuel 13:14 The Lord has sought out for Himself a man after His own heart, and the Lord has appointed him as ruler over His people. 1. David loved God with all his heart. He had a true desire in his heart to walk with God and please God. His heart was completely His. We see this in Psalms 103:1 "Bless the Lord, O my soul; and all that is within me, bless His holy name." 2. David had a humble heart who never lost sight of the fact that he was nothing, and God was everything to him. He knew all his success came from his Lord. 2 Sam. 7:18 Then David the king went in and...

It does not matter how long you have been sick. How painful it was. Jesus can heal us from any illness. He healed ten lepers and only one came to thank Him Thank Jesus for His healing today. Amen

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Hello all It has been awhile since I have posted and I am so sorry, And God has been doing things in my life and it has been an amazing journey. To set the mood for this post I will share a little bit about what is happening in my life. In June my wife moved to a new state and decided to leave our girls with me until she got settled in. God was very clear to me that I had to move as well. And let me tell you I fought every step of the way. I could have stayed and kept our girls and stay in my parents house, but God persisted. Every reason for me to stay was selfish. I had a good job, but couldn't seem to get things going. After several confirmations from God that I need to go, He even supplied the finances for me to get here. To make a...

Tonight for dinner I am making chicken codon bleu mixed with veggies and my rice meddley. Pasta adds special touch to rice. Italian pasta is my favorite and it has a wonderful flavor. Love the narrow short spaghetty like noodle with butter and seasonings. Banana split for dessert and chocolate cake for icing on the cake. God provides for us such a wonderful food to eat on a daily basis. Our hearts should be thankful for everything He sends our way and we must share with others the blessings He gives to us on a daily basis. Let us all look at the eternal food that God want us to take today. Whoever eats my flesh, and drinks my blood has eternal life. And I will raise them up at the last day. John 6:54 What a wonderful promise...