Bei1052
Disciple of Prayer
I don't know what else to say or do, Lord. I've done everything I know how. I've tried to fix things myself. I've cried. I've prayed; I've put in tens-- maybe hundreds-- of prayer requests. I've read everything I know how. I've listened to sermons. I've gone to church. I've tried to know You better. Yet... Nothing.
I know that sounds wrong, but I'm at a loss, Lord. For over a year I've been hurting. What is the point of me continuing to hurt? What good has it done me? Why won't You answer me? How did I wrong You? Why open doors to shut them in my face and disappear when I NEED you the most? Never before in my life have I felt so disconnected from You. I feel exceedingly worse today than when this situation first arose. I feel like I'm being punished for trying to do good. I feel like I should simply do as everyone else does, and do wrong. Why continue on pretending like everything is okay when they're not and when You don't seem to care? I'm physically, emotionally and spiritually exhausted. This situation requires very little of You to fix. I'm tired of it. If You have no desire to have it fixed, then PLEASE release me from it.
That is all I want.
I know that sounds wrong, but I'm at a loss, Lord. For over a year I've been hurting. What is the point of me continuing to hurt? What good has it done me? Why won't You answer me? How did I wrong You? Why open doors to shut them in my face and disappear when I NEED you the most? Never before in my life have I felt so disconnected from You. I feel exceedingly worse today than when this situation first arose. I feel like I'm being punished for trying to do good. I feel like I should simply do as everyone else does, and do wrong. Why continue on pretending like everything is okay when they're not and when You don't seem to care? I'm physically, emotionally and spiritually exhausted. This situation requires very little of You to fix. I'm tired of it. If You have no desire to have it fixed, then PLEASE release me from it.
That is all I want.
