Pebble
Prayer Partner
It’s official: I have parted ways with my company. I knew this was coming, but I’m still feeling a bit numb, discouraged, and, if I’m being honest, deeply relieved. For a long time, I went above and beyond, taking on extra responsibilities while they continued to make promises they didn't keep. To be treated with disrespect on top of that weight was exhausting, and I am so relieved that I no longer have to be available 24/7 for people who mistreat me. Despite how rudely they went about doing it. Normally I would be beyond pissed off and thinking I'll have thoughts, but I know I deserve more and there's better out there for me plus I am bone tired.
While I am glad to be out, I will admit I am beyond afraid of falling back into the situation I faced before, being unemployed for over two years and struggling just to avoid eviction. I have spent the last four years in survival trauma mode, only to drop right into burnout. I am worried about how my bills will be paid, especially since I only have myself to rely on. But I am choosing to actually feel these emotions instead of becoming numb or letting fear guide my actions.
It might feel delusional to some, but I am ready for my dream job. I am looking for the things that should be the norm, such as walking in my truth in a role that actually correlates with my education and experience. I want to be in a place of respect where people act like human beings, have real conversations, and keep each other accountable. I desire to have true work-life balance where I don't have to fear repercussions for taking a vacation or even just a day for a doctor’s appointment.
I know God is with me. My prayer is that I have learned the lessons I was meant to learn in this season so I can finally move forward into a more prosperous one. I just want to remember what happiness feels like again and get back to a healthy space. I want to move out of survival mode and toward the respect and stability I know I deserve.
I pray that the doubt is removed as I step into my future. That I give myself grace to rest and heal instead of feeling the frenzy and push of this job market. That I will not allow those who will find a way to blame me instead of being compassionate, affect me, especially family. And most of all that I will be able to hear God's voice and allow Him to guide me in my pursuit of a new role. I have been inquiring about some career assistance but it is quite an investment in an ever-changing market and I'm afraid it might not work out.
I pray for peace, healing, grace, and mercy and I remember that God loves me and to remember to love myself as well through this time.
Thank you to all of you who have been supportive throughout my long journey, I almost feel like I am here constantly as a "woe is me" type situation. But I am appreciative nonetheless.
While I am glad to be out, I will admit I am beyond afraid of falling back into the situation I faced before, being unemployed for over two years and struggling just to avoid eviction. I have spent the last four years in survival trauma mode, only to drop right into burnout. I am worried about how my bills will be paid, especially since I only have myself to rely on. But I am choosing to actually feel these emotions instead of becoming numb or letting fear guide my actions.
It might feel delusional to some, but I am ready for my dream job. I am looking for the things that should be the norm, such as walking in my truth in a role that actually correlates with my education and experience. I want to be in a place of respect where people act like human beings, have real conversations, and keep each other accountable. I desire to have true work-life balance where I don't have to fear repercussions for taking a vacation or even just a day for a doctor’s appointment.
I know God is with me. My prayer is that I have learned the lessons I was meant to learn in this season so I can finally move forward into a more prosperous one. I just want to remember what happiness feels like again and get back to a healthy space. I want to move out of survival mode and toward the respect and stability I know I deserve.
I pray that the doubt is removed as I step into my future. That I give myself grace to rest and heal instead of feeling the frenzy and push of this job market. That I will not allow those who will find a way to blame me instead of being compassionate, affect me, especially family. And most of all that I will be able to hear God's voice and allow Him to guide me in my pursuit of a new role. I have been inquiring about some career assistance but it is quite an investment in an ever-changing market and I'm afraid it might not work out.
I pray for peace, healing, grace, and mercy and I remember that God loves me and to remember to love myself as well through this time.
Thank you to all of you who have been supportive throughout my long journey, I almost feel like I am here constantly as a "woe is me" type situation. But I am appreciative nonetheless.

