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Haruss
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Recently I've lost my desire to worship Jesus, read the Bible, or even praise and thank him! I'm extremely worried! Plus, I was so tired I almost gave up being a Christian and I was just an inch away from becoming an atheist. I barely made it, but for 30 seconds I started searching for evidence about if God is real or not, etc...and I was angry with God, so angry that I accidentally sinned, and blasphemed his name, I called him an "a**h***", I'm scared because...is that the same thing as rejecting Jesus? I almost became an atheist, probably for maybe even a second I was if that's possible, but I woke up out of it, still...I'm scared...is that the same thing as rejecting Jesus? This has haunted me so much! Please help! I don't want to and never did want to reject Jesus, I was just so angry and I couldn't handle the doubts anymore! I just wanted to give up, but I barely didn't! Also being angry at God for a moment, that I accidentally sinned...that's not the same as rejecting him is it?? These doubts are so serious that I cry about them, then I literally (sorry if it's disgusting...) start to throw up. I can barely sleep. I doubt my salvation. I doubt if God ever loved me. And those 2 memories haunt me every day. Please pray for me! I need a lot of comfort for this, and if it IS Satan's lie to me, I need comfort, he just won't go away, this is really discomforting for me, please pray for me!!
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