woke up this morning and was listening to my heart, it is beating, the patient is dead inside. dont even know what to prayer for, I love god, but do wrong all the time, what does that make me?
O God, I am also Your servant. Please have mercy on me as well, and bless me too with Your countless favors. Grant me happiness in my life. I am ### years old now, yet I don’t know who I am, why I am here, or what I am supposed to do. It feels as if my life has no purpose at all.
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Lord, I woke up anxious again. Please calm my heart. I want to believe it is done. That my abusers are out of my life and that this long chapter of my life is closed. I want to believe this. I want to have faith over sight. I can’t help waking up scared and anxious, but I ask that you take this...