Hungry4love357
Servant of All
God why am I having such a hard time here lately. I feel like even though good things have happened recently, I am under attack. And Father my stength is gone. I feel no peace, I am wrestless. Father, I thought this girl was the friend I had asked for, and yet I can't seem to talk to her anymore. God, it hurts. I am very lonely, and very broken hearted right now. What happened to me Father? Why can I not feel you anymore? I need you Father. I need your healing hands to be upon me Father. Restore my confidence. Father help me to find the right balance. Father, I am so anxious, and I can't seem to stop it. I don't understand Father. I dont understand the autism, the social akwardness, the depression, the anxiety, I don't know why you made me with these things Father. I can't overcome these giants that are trying to crush me. Father the giants keep telling me that I will never get a girlfriend because I'm too shy, I am not man enough, I am not handsome enough, I am not good enough, I don't have what it takes. God rejection has time and time again made me feel as if though I am not worth a chance. Father, I feel inferior to men who have gorlfriends, and can get dates. I wonder why I can't do it too. I wonder why I am never given a chance. People say I am too nice. People say it's because I am boaring. People say it's because I have no confidence. People's say it's because I don't seem you first. Father I am seeking you. I am asking for your help, your comfort, your love. Father my mind is filled with fear, frustration, and grief. I don't understand Father. I don't understand why I am this way. Father what am I doing wrong? Why can't I make friends? Why is it so hard for me to make friends with women? Why can't I stop thinking about what it would be like to have that person in my life. Father it's driving me nuts. I just want to go beat my head on the wall. I don't understand why I am so different. I just want to be accepted, and wanted. I don't understand my emotions Father. I just dont know how to deal with being single. I dont like being single. I feel like I am missing something, and people tell me Jesus will fill that void, but I don't know how that happens. Am I doing it wrong? If Jesus is feeling the void then why do I still want a girlfriend, and marriage so bad? Father I need peace. I need to be able to trust you with this, but I am scared too. I am scared you won't give that special friend, and that the blessings of marriage will never be fullfilled in my life. I want a girl friend, and a best friend. Father whyis this so hard for me? Why do I feel like I will be single for life? Why can't I see what you see? Please don't forget about me. Please help me. Father is my friend ever going to come into my life? Am I ever going to find my helpmate? I am so unsure about this Father. I am afraid of the unknown Father. Help me Father. Please help me make the leak of faith. Help me to keep my focus on you, so I don't think about her as much. Father give me the peace that surpasses all understanding. Please help meget through the single season. Father, I want to enjoy life again. Please lord, Jesus, mediate on my behafe. Please plead this case to the Father. I long for a girl that will be my bestfriend and helpmate. Father I don't want to be single my whole life. I need a helpmate. Father please fill the void in my heart u ntill she comes, restore my joy, give me peace, inner peace. Father speak to me and calm me when I get impatient. Father help me trust you. Jesus help me. Please help me. I have no confidence in myself. Help me get my confidence back. Help me to become confident. Help me to know I can do things though Christ, who gives me strength. Please Father. I am so insecure about myself. I don't like who I am, I am not content with my body, I am not content with the way I look, I feel ugly. I feel incompetent, and I feel unloveable. Please show me that I am loved and can be loved in a way that I can feel it, and understand it. Please Father help me to become content with who I am. Help me to realize that I have worth. Help me too see what you see in me Father. Help me Jesus, I pray this all in Jesus name, Amen.
