Diamartyroe
Disciple of Prayer
my name is ###, I am just out of prison after spending 14 months in it, I spent 23 hours a day behind a cell door. when I first went in I caused trouble and hurt many people with my words and was heartbroken after losing a relationship, as The chaplains started to visit me my life and I started reading the Bible my Life started to get better and better and I could feel peace and contentment, Now that I am back on the outside, I feel so lost and alone, I feel isolated, I have just got out 3 days ago and I went on a drinking binge, which resulted in me losing 2000 due to fraud and someone stealing my bank card, This money was to help me get a house for rent and start a business, I do not want to let my family down and I have been to mass the past 2 days, I feel at peace listening to God's words and reading the gospel, but then the next 10 minutes after I feel guilt and shame, I Have repented for my sins and I have shared them all with Jesus, I just want a happy life with a loving woman to company me, I want a family, and I want help, I'm so lost and alone and I beg you Jesus to help me. I am sick of the uncertainties and feeling like I am living a meaningless life, I don't know what I want to do with my life and I have cried so many times the past few days and the past 14 months was the most lonely journey of my life, I miss my ex girlfriend and I am heartbroken, my grandad has took a fit and is in hospital, my dad has Parkinson's disease, my mum is constantly stressed that I am going to relapse. I'M terrified of Satan and hell and evil, I just want peace. love. happiness, as I said I have been close to Christ with prayer and reading the Bible constantly, and I don't even know how to put this prayer request into words, my mind is a crazy place, but I know my heart is good because I want the best for people. Please help me Jesus Christ

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.