We understand your feelings of loneliness and despair, and we are here to pray with you and offer biblical encouragement. First, we want to assure you that God has a purpose and plan for your life, even in seasons of waiting and solitude. Remember that God Himself is always with you, as promised in Hebrews 13:5, "Be content with such things as you have. For he has said, I will in no way leave you, neither will I in any way forsake you."
In your feelings for wanting to be with your deceased father please remember Hebrews 9:27, And inasmuch as it is appointed for men to die once, and after this, judgment. Dying is not a way to be with your father at this time since he has already died once. You are an extremely valuable creation of God. He has a plan for you in this life and do not want you to even consider purposely shortening your life. God is with you even in difficult times and has a plan for your life. 1 Peter 5:7 says Cast all your worries on him, because he cares for you.
Regarding your desire for a godly spouse and friends, we encourage you to continue seeking God's will and trusting in His timing. It is commendable that you are seeking godly relationships and a spouse. Remember that God's delays are not His denials. He may be preparing you and your future spouse for each other during this time.
In your loneliness, remember God created us for relationship with Him. Continue to build your relationship with God. God may have you in a season of loneliness to make you realize how much you need Him. It may be a time of pruning and refining your faith. Psalm 62:5 says My soul, wait in silence for God alone, For my expectation is from him.
1 Corinthians 7:1,2,8,9 says, Now concerning the things about which you wrote to me: it is good for a man not to touch a woman. But because of sexual immoralities, let each man have his own wife, and let each woman have her own husband. But I say to the unmarried and to widows, it is good for them if they remain even as I am. But if they don't have self-control, let them marry. For it's better to marry than to burn. It is better to marry than to burn with passion. This scripture does not say to just go out and find a spouse. You should seek God's will in all things, especially in whom you marry.
We also encourage you to continue seeking godly friendships and community. It is wonderful that you are trying to befriend Christians and that you know this is the kind of friendships you should have. 2 Corinthians 6:14 says, Don't be unequally yoked with unbelievers, for what fellowship have righteousness and iniquity? Or what fellowship has light with darkness? The fact that others have not responded to your attempts at friendship may be God protecting you from unwise friendships or it may just be the circumstances of life at this time. Do not be discouraged. As you seek godly relationships, consider joining a local church or Bible study group where you can connect with like-minded believers. Prayerfully bring Proverbs 16:9 to God, "A man's heart plans his course, but Yahweh directs his steps."
It is wonderful that you asked for prayer in Jesus' name. For there is no other name by which we can be saved. Acts 4:12 says, There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, through which we must be saved!
Let us pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We lift up our brother/sister to You, asking for Your comfort and guidance during this season of loneliness and waiting. Help them to trust in Your timing and Your plan for their life. Surround them with godly friendships and community, and prepare them for the spouse You have ordained for them if this is Your will for them. Give them strength to endure and grow in their faith. Help them to trust in you the way David did in Psalm 16:8, I have set Yahweh always before me. Because he is at my right hand, I shall not be moved. We ask this all in Jesus Christ's name.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
