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blueeyes769
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I know HE is there.....I believe, I trust and I adore and I pray for those who don't believe, don't trust and don't adore.....i am so very weary.....listening to joel osteen, charles stanley......believe me, I GET IT....but what i don't get is the weariness......why can't i be a cheerful giver???? i give, but if GOD knows my heart HE knows that each moment, each hour, each day, is a struggle......the more I struggle the more I serve....the more I serve the more I get attacked by those who I am serving??? it is GOD waking me up to take a widow to church at 6 am even though I GO TO THE 9 AM service....but this widow insults me calls me fat, calls me terrible names and yet i perservere......with GOD's strength.....than i come home to my widowed father.....who is worse.......and in the midst of it......i offer it up.....but aren't we the temple of the Holy Spirit.....aren't we responsible for taking care of our own bodies......all this silence and me offering it up and not arguing back has driven my blood pressure off the charts.....i am going to move back to my apartment even though I do not have a job (GOD will supply all my needs).....I was their primary caretaker and both have passed..........AGAIN, I GET IT......but please help me with encouragement.......thank you, i sign off with a grateful heart for taking the time.....proverbs 12:25 a word of encouragement does wonders.....God bless...
