A
andi323
Guest
I have been in a relationship for the past 2 years with a man I have truly truly loved. 4 months ago we broke up. Recently, I began feeling strong pressure in my heart to pray for this man's salvation. He is in a very lost place right now, and the love I have for him enables me to pray earnestly and constantly for him. But since I've been praying for God to pull him out of the life he's in right now things have gotten so much worse for me. I have such overwhelming feelings of depression and hopelessness when I'm praying for him, and since I'm already going through such painful things I find myself not wanting to make my depression and lack of hope even worse. But when I stop praying for him, I feel horrible guilt and again hear a voice telling me to begin praying again, to not let this man down by abandoning my praying for him. I got through a lot of this by falling back on the love we've had for each other that seemed to endure through all the bad times. Friday night, for the first time ever, he told me he did not love me. I was stunned, and such pain hit me immediately I could not even pray. Now, whenever I think of praying for him or trying to, the only thing I can think about is him saying he does not love me, the pain he's caused me, and the way he betrayed me. I cannot even form the words right now needed to intercede for him.
I realize satan has a strong grip on this man. I've seen it. And my love for him enabled me to come against the enemy in prayer, claiming his release from hell in the name of Jesus. Now, I am so hurt and resentful I find myself not wanting to pray for him. Or feeling like a hypocrite when I do.
I am not sure what I am to do here. The pain he's caused is so deep and those words Friday night just echo in my head constantly. I know satan wants him, and by having him satan will also have his 3 sons, and by keeping me in this much pain satan is hindering my prayers for him. I am the only person in hs life praying for him. The only one. Without my prayers, and before my prayers, he had no one interceding, praying to God for him. I know I'm the only one. But do I keep on, even as he says and does worse and worse things to hurt me? Do I continue to pray through the spiritual attacks?
I've always been a strong pray-er. And my love and loyalty enable me to pray strong prayers. But I am already in a hurting place and I feel very weak. I've asked God what to do, but am not told anything. I just feel pain when I stop praying for him. But I am attacked on all sides when I do. And as I said, now that he has said he does not love me I find myself unable to pull together the strength and faith and desire to pray for him.
I cannot imagine my prayers could possibly threaten the enemy this much. But I know there is something unseen going on here, and I'm tired.
Just wondering what others think.
I realize satan has a strong grip on this man. I've seen it. And my love for him enabled me to come against the enemy in prayer, claiming his release from hell in the name of Jesus. Now, I am so hurt and resentful I find myself not wanting to pray for him. Or feeling like a hypocrite when I do.
I am not sure what I am to do here. The pain he's caused is so deep and those words Friday night just echo in my head constantly. I know satan wants him, and by having him satan will also have his 3 sons, and by keeping me in this much pain satan is hindering my prayers for him. I am the only person in hs life praying for him. The only one. Without my prayers, and before my prayers, he had no one interceding, praying to God for him. I know I'm the only one. But do I keep on, even as he says and does worse and worse things to hurt me? Do I continue to pray through the spiritual attacks?
I've always been a strong pray-er. And my love and loyalty enable me to pray strong prayers. But I am already in a hurting place and I feel very weak. I've asked God what to do, but am not told anything. I just feel pain when I stop praying for him. But I am attacked on all sides when I do. And as I said, now that he has said he does not love me I find myself unable to pull together the strength and faith and desire to pray for him.
I cannot imagine my prayers could possibly threaten the enemy this much. But I know there is something unseen going on here, and I'm tired.
Just wondering what others think.
