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Heidi
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Heavenly father, thank you, we made it through the divorce papers. We were able to get through all of it. Lord, you know I am angry, hurt, feel unloved by ###. He still feels very strongly about this divorce. But Lord, he can't tell me that he doesn't love me anymore. He says he's not going to lie to me. How can he want a divorce, and still love me? Lord, this is in your hands. Only you know what is best for me. I am going on that promise. I'm having to sell a home I'm upside down on, have to move in with my parents. Continue raising my children without ###. Yet I know this is in your hands. You must know what lies ahead. Father, I know this home is just concrete, walls, and paint. But it's our home. This is all the children know. Yet, you know what is best for me. Father, I feel like I'm heading to a firing squad. I hate my lawyer, I really hate ###'s lawyer. To me these guys are just hungry wolves. I don't mean to bare all my dirty laundry here Lord. I need help and understanding. Why must I go through this trial? Lord, how am I supposed to accept ### back, after all he's taken away? I'm just so confused, I trust in you Lord. I just want my sufferings to be over. Lord, you know what I gave to this marriage. So why do I have to suffer, because ### didn't add to this marriage. I know I should have put you first always. I know you're not punishing me. Lord, I ask, what are you trying to teach me? At least tonight, I got my confirmation from ###, he's nowhere close to wanting to work it out. So father, it's in your hands, do with ### what you must. I turned the other cheek, I have been kind. I will continue to be. I will be faithful to you, because you have my best interest at heart. I don't like what has to be done. But I solely trust in you. I pray this storm goes fast. In Jesus Name. Amen.
