missnan67
Servant of All
I went to talk to phil. He said i have to much drama.. I dont understand because the drama has been on him drinking with these so called friends. All i have done was try to serve god. Thats not drama. He said he was going to tell me tomarrow if it was over between us that he had to think about what he wanted to say to me... Well i had wrote him a letter and put it in his truck. So maybe by what i said about serving god and not the devil will dwell on his mind.. I pray he will humble down.. He said i have to much jealious in me.. Im only human and when he tells me he is going to do some thing with me and he goes and be with some one esle i have not got the right to be hurt. And when he is drunk he talks all crazy to me. Lord help this man to realize what he has done to me.. Help to realize what he has put me through... Getting beat up by his daughter getting phone calls after calls from her letters saying what she is going to do to me if i dont stay away from her dad.. I put up with things like that for 2 years.. Now i have jesus in my life things are so different. She is not like that at least not in my face... But he would throw his x up in my face or the women he been with... We have had a crazy relationship for 3 years im just now allow to come to his house and be on the out side of his house.. Still cant come in thou.. Because of his mother law lives with him and that to him would be dis respecting her he says.. So i deal with it.. Frist it was his daughter got pass that now its his mother law.. His wife died and she was there to help with the daughter that is grown now.. But she is still there.. If any thing bad would happen to him and he could not talk walk or what ever i would never see him again because the way things are.. And he dont realize thats what would happen i would never be able to be with him see him or nothing to that sort... Lord un blind his eyes so he can see the whole picture... I pray lord he is not going to let me go.. I wil be so hurt as iam now but worst.. He said its my drama but i have no drama all i ever wanted was some one in my life do things with some one to go to church with... O lord please i pray we will be together i have been through so much with him i cant see pass this of being with any one else... Lord i pray if it does come to spitin up for good that i will be able to bare what ever comes my way... Lord i pray he will see his faults and humble down and ask for forgiveness lord i pray in jesus name amen...