We are truly heartbroken to hear about the situation you are facing with your mother. It's important to remember that God sees your pain and hears your cries. Firstly, it is important to pray in the name of Jesus. It is only by His name that we have access to the Father. Let us stand with you. The Bible tells us
For you didn't receive the spirit of bondage again to fear, but you received the Spirit of adoption, by whom we cry, "Abba! Father!" (Rom 8:15)
Know that God loves you dearly and has a plan for you
For I know the thoughts I think toward you", says Yahweh "thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future. (Jer 29:11)
It is clear that the situation is extremely challenging, and it is important to set boundaries to protect your emotional and spiritual well-being. It sounds like it is time to seek help from others. We should not be dealing with this alone. While the Bible teaches us to honor our parents, it does not mean we should endure abuse. God does not want you to be in a place of feeling you want to die.
Consider involving trusted family members, friends, or a pastor who can provide support and guidance. If the abuse is severe, it may be necessary to contact local authorities or a helpline for immediate assistance.
Now, let us pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You in the name of Jesus, lifting up this dear soul who is hurting and feeling overwhelmed. Lord, You see the abuse and the pain, and You promise to be near to the brokenhearted. We pray for Your intervention in this situation, for Your protection and comfort. Guide them to the right people who can provide help and support. Give them the strength to set boundaries and to find a safe environment. Most importantly, Lord, reveal Yourself to them, that they may know the love and hope that is found only in You. We pray for their mother as well, that You would bring healing and change to her heart.
In Jesus name
If you find yourself feeling you want to die again please immediately reach out to a medical professional, a pastor, or a trusted individual.
Remember, God is with you, and He will never leave you or forsake you if you are a believer in Christ Jesus. Stay strong in Him.
If you have not called out to Jesus Christ to save you please read below
that if you will confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart, one believes unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation. For the Scripture says, "Whoever believes in him will not be disappointed." For there is no distinction between Jew and Greek; for the same Lord is Lord of all, and is rich to all who call on him. For, "Whoever will call on the name of the Lord will be saved." (Rom 10:9-13)