We are standing with you in prayer and we hear the weight and heartbreak in your request. We lift you, your husband, your marriage, your father and your brother before the Lord together, and we thank you for calling on the name of Jesus, for it is only through Him that we have access to the Father. Jesus said to him, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me. John 14:6 and There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved. Acts 4:12 We pray that both you and your husband and your family would know the saving grace of Jesus Christ deeply, not just as Savior but as Lord and Healer and Prince of Peace.
We are grieved to hear of your husband's long suffering with serious medical conditions and the heavy spiritual attack upon him, and that he says daily that he wants to be dead. The Lord sees this despair and draws near to the brokenhearted. Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit. Psalm 34:18 We want to gently but firmly say that this desire to be dead is not from God, who gives life and purpose, and it needs to be taken very seriously with both spiritual and practical help. We encourage you to ensure he is not left alone in that darkness, to involve a trusted pastor, a mature Christian counselor, and his medical doctors immediately, and if he speaks of a plan to harm himself to seek emergency help right away. God has purpose for his life even in suffering and He is able to restore. But I will restore health to you, and I will heal you of your wounds, says Yahweh. Jeremiah 30:17 and He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds. Psalm 147:3 We pray for his complete healing physically, spiritually and emotionally, and for that implant to work successfully as you requested.
We also hear the pain of walking on eggshells, of his extreme anger, lashing out, snapping, and talking of divorce, and your wisdom in walking away until he calmed down. That was a wise and biblical response. A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger. Proverbs 15:1 and So, then, my beloved brothers, let every man be swift to hear, slow to speak, and slow to anger; for the anger of man doesn’t produce the righteousness of God. James 1:19-20 We must lovingly rebuke the anger and the talk of divorce, for this does not reflect the heart of God for marriage. Be angry, and don’t sin. Don’t let the sun go down on your wrath, neither give place to the devil. Ephesians 4:26-27 Marriage is a covenant before God between a man and a woman for life, So that they are no more two, but one flesh. What therefore God has joined together, don’t let man tear apart. Matthew 19:6 and For I hate divorce, says Yahweh, the God of Israel. Malachi 2:16 We understand the devastation you feel, but God hates divorce because He loves marriage and wants to heal it, not end it. We do not condone poor behavior either, and you are right not to condone it, but we also must not allow anger to rule the home or give the enemy a foothold. We pray for your husband to take responsibility for his anger and his words, even in his pain, and to seek the Lord for self control which is fruit of the Spirit.
We are also concerned that he is stopping his medications because he is angry with you. We lovingly rebuke that decision, for it is not wise or safe and it harms his body which is the temple of the Holy Spirit and it harms your marriage. We pray he will repent of using his health as a weapon and will take his medications as prescribed in counsel with his doctors, honoring God with his body and honoring you as his wife.
We commend your humility in saying you are far from perfect and asking God to change everything you need to change. That is a beautiful and godly prayer. We pray the Holy Spirit will search both of you and show each of you what to repent of and how to love better. If it is possible, as much as it is up to you, be at peace with all men. Romans 12:18 We encourage you to continue to show him love and appreciation even when he cannot see it, to speak that love clearly when he is calm, and to set loving biblical boundaries that do not enable sin but do not return evil for evil.
We also lift up your elderly father and younger brother for health, and your finances. My God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19 We know this season feels impossible and you said you do not know what else to do, so we remind you to cast all your worries on him, because he cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7 and In nothing be anxious, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7
We pray together now.
Father in heaven, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus Christ and we lift this precious wife and her husband and their marriage to You. Lord, You see the years of serious medical conditions, the physical pain, the emotional torment, the spiritual attack, and the daily heaviness that makes him say he wants to be dead. We rebuke the spirit of despair, death, anger and divorce in Jesus name and we ask You to deliver him and fill him with Your Holy Spirit, with hope, peace and a desire to live for You. Heal him Lord, body, soul and spirit, restore health to him and heal his wounds, and let this implant work successfully for Your glory. Convict him of his anger and his threats of divorce and his decision to stop his medications, and give him a soft and repentant heart, self control and a love for his wife as Christ loves the church. We lift this wife who is walking on eggshells, devastated and weary, strengthen her, guard her heart, give her wisdom to speak the truth in love, to set godly boundaries, to not condone sin, and to show Your love even in hard moments. Change in her everything that You want to change and change in him everything You want to change, make this marriage a testimony of Your healing and reconciliation. We pray for her elderly father and younger brother, touch their bodies and bring healing and strength. Provide for their finances according to Your riches in glory and let them know You are Jehovah Jireh. Holy Spirit please intervene for them now, for we cannot fix this but You can. Draw them both into full salvation in Jesus, let them be born again and filled with Your peace that passes all understanding. We ask all this in the name of Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior, amen.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, the way You want me to know You. So that I will trust You with my life and anyway that You move in my life. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, lean not to my own understanding, acknowledge You in all my ways, and allow You to direct my footsteps and actions. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do. 
