Chruylorgate
Disciple of Prayer
Thank you for your prayers from the previous post. It means the world to me that you all are willing to take the time to pray for me and my family and our circumstances. God Bless you all.
As of now, I still feel like I am walking in darkness. I am ### days away from the deadline to possibly graduate from school and I may not make it to that deadline. If I do not, then I will have to wait until summer. My funding from my university ends after this semester. I have been applying for jobs and nothing has come to fruition yet.
Right now I feel lost and a complete failure. I feel like I have let my wife down, my two young boys down, my family down, and I let God down. I am on my third straight night of little sleep because I keep worrying about what is to come if I cannot graduate, if I cannot find a job, and whether I can find some sort of peace through God. There are days where I feel like driving away would be the best thing for my family because I feel like I have failed them. I am trying to keep faith but with all that is happening in my life (school, father-in-law needing heart surgery, raising two kids, owing thousands in taxes, wife trying to find a new job, me trying to find a new job) I feel like there is this massive weight on my shoulders and I just feel like I cannot hold it all much longer.
Thank you again for your continued prayers and support. It means a lot to me and I don’t know what I would do without it.
As of now, I still feel like I am walking in darkness. I am ### days away from the deadline to possibly graduate from school and I may not make it to that deadline. If I do not, then I will have to wait until summer. My funding from my university ends after this semester. I have been applying for jobs and nothing has come to fruition yet.
Right now I feel lost and a complete failure. I feel like I have let my wife down, my two young boys down, my family down, and I let God down. I am on my third straight night of little sleep because I keep worrying about what is to come if I cannot graduate, if I cannot find a job, and whether I can find some sort of peace through God. There are days where I feel like driving away would be the best thing for my family because I feel like I have failed them. I am trying to keep faith but with all that is happening in my life (school, father-in-law needing heart surgery, raising two kids, owing thousands in taxes, wife trying to find a new job, me trying to find a new job) I feel like there is this massive weight on my shoulders and I just feel like I cannot hold it all much longer.
Thank you again for your continued prayers and support. It means a lot to me and I don’t know what I would do without it.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You. Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.