Christ child
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I am not happy every single day. I complain about my life every single day. I wish things were different but it's not. I wish things were better but it's not. I dreamed about a better life, a wonderful life, drama-free, stress-free, but it will never happen as long as I'm on this earth. I wanted good things out of life from God but I can't get them, so now it's not that I gave up or just stopped asking; it's more like I'm just being realistic with this earth, realistic with God. God can only give me things from the earth, so I asked myself why bother God, I'm asking him things that are not from this earth, he can never give me. So it's good and better to stay silent with God. I got tired of asking the same things over and over again, being patient for absolutely nothing. Now I feel relieved because I finally came to my senses that God can't give me those things. I wanted them before, but now I no longer want them. I am just going to deal without having them in my life. I just want prayers from whoever reads this post. Please don't just read it; help me and reach out to me. I just need prayers so that I feel fully content with myself. I decided to not want things God can't give me. And I won't accept what God will have for me because I already know I will not approve them. I want to feel good about myself. I want to be successful on my own. I want to be independent; it's not just that I want, I have no choices. I am single, it has been that way for years and it will stay that way for the rest of my life because there is nothing out there. I don't mind anymore as long as God brings me happiness as a single person. I no longer want to get married because I don't believe it for me. I just want prayers for me to be happy alone, single, for the rest of my life. I don't want children, so I want to be strong now so that I am not getting pressure from family, friends, the environment around me, asking me stupid questions: do I have a boyfriend, when will I get married, do I want children. Please pray for me, thanks.
