Trying To Earn Grace

[Evigsommar]

I think I am trying to earn Gods approval constantly. My body is tense. I can't relax.

The thought of God loving me just as I am boggles my mind and I can't get it into my understanding, everytime I'm on the edge of understanding I just feel so... naaah, it can't be true. I mean come on, look at me and how I've wasted my life in the past! And I'm still wasting away cause I don't understand the treasures God has put inside me and I don't know how to serve the lord..

and I go on trying to earn grace. Become better..... I can't relax, all the time even when I'm by myself I find that I havn't taken a breath for about 30 seconds.

i can't share my life with anyone. like friends, I have a hard time opening up. I think it is cause I'm afraid of being judged, and well.. being Human, I don't understand I think what it means to be a human. Is that making faults and God still loving me? I don't know. I want to do what is right...and I'm so scared of doing wrong that it always end up in me doing nothing

I'm supershy and full of fears. The fear of people is really making my life stink. My body tenses when someone lays their eyes on me and I feel so awkward.

I also need someone to pray that I start to value my life more and see what's on my inside cause I am already SUPERFAMILIAR with my looks. I don't know what is hiding on the inside, my focus has always been way to much on appearance. I have a distorted selfimage I want to get rid of. I am seeing changes in my life and I thank God, though I feel stupid and blame myself for not having enough wisdom in the past.

The truth shall set us free but sometimes it HURTS!!!

I wanna change.

 

[The Encourager]

Child of God,

Psalm 94:19 Tells Us…When I worried (when I am anxious) about many things, Your assuring words (God’s Word) soothed my soul with comfort and joy.

Let’s Pray… God I ask in Jesus’ name, “Minister to my heart through your Holy Spirit and the Word of God. Comfort me with peace and understanding when my spirit is troubled and I am overwhelmed. Let me pray about everything and not worry about anything. And as I am praying let the presence of Your Holy Spirit comfort me, quite my anxious thoughts and guard my heart and mind through Christ Jesus. Let me know that everything is going to be alright. That this will work out for my good.

When I don’t understand, give me understanding. When I don’t know which way to go, please direct my foot steps. Lead and guide me in the direction that You want me to take. Bless me with courage and deliver me from the spirit of fear when and if it tries to attack my faith with anxious thoughts. Bless me with strength when I am weak. Bless me with hope when all seems hopeless. Encourage Me Lord Jesus. Never let me give up on my God given dreams, and goals. Bless Me. Supply all my need. And all that I have asked You to do for me in this prayer please do the same for all those that care about me, those I care about, and the writer of this prayer, God Thank You for answering this prayer with a Yes and Amen.†Amen, so be it.

Philippians 4:6,7 tells us …. To be anxious for nothing (don’t worry about anything), but in everything by prayer and supplication (pray, talk to God), with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

Encourager Linda Flagg, LM, CS

Christian Life Coach & Youth Minister