Anonymous
Beloved of All
Tonight I slid all over a major highway during a storm right against both guard rails and was just told by the insurance company that I was at fault.............it's the final straw for me. I have spent the years as a single parent scratching and clawing my way, my whole life if work and drudgery and outwardly I appear strong and in control and I've never felt more angry than I do tonight. If there is a God he sure has not been watching over me and whatever minute amount of joy I've managed is immediately smothered with another issue that needs attention. I cannot tell you how worn out and fed up and tired I am. For some of us there simply cannot be a God present because our best efforts are simply never footwork enough..................the feelings of hatred I have for the world, the system and most people right now is overwhelming as is my anger. Not good enough that I was brought up in total dysfunction that even at my age and I'm in my 50's I still can't find peace....so, if there is a God, why am I consistently overlooked.........and where is he right now. I feel as though I could cry and never stop as though I don't even care if there is a God anymore and that I'm happy we don't live forever and still I have to keep a happy strong face ~ I'm so glad we're not stuck in this stupid hellish life forever
