Today i will start again. Everyday i will start again till i have reached the promised land. Till i no longer have to try it is automatic. till i noloner have to force my self, i jusp up and expectantly want to follow God. Every day i will start again untill i automatically look to him first and not the clock. Untill i stop questiong why. untill i stop dreaming about my what i have lost, till i am just plain ole happy. everyday i will strat and die to the flesh everymorning. AMEN