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mwilson61
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Today im on writing more for a question so please dont judge me or be harsh but i would like others to help me understand. So many months ago i would pray for relationship restoration between the father of my boys father and i. It seemed like the more i prayed the further away we became and the worse i felt hopeless. I just wanted my family reunited so i prayed the woman he was with would juat leave or find someone else.So i started praying for others such as my daughters father to find a job and be happy since he hadnt worked for years and i prayed for the woman who i wanted to go away to be happy and find her true love and start a family with. I repenting my sins. Prayed and prayed and kept faith. After time when praying seemed to make things worse i just stopped. Thought what happens happens. After a few months of not praying my daughters father got a job and was laying child support after 4 years.wow! Then the woman i prayed for moved to florida and my sons father and i were in the berge of getting back together again we were falling back in love with each other he was taking care of our kids everything great. So i started thanking god and praying again then wam! The woman who moved back from florida was back. I kept my faith but then another hit she says shes pregnant by my love....of course he says no its not his so i took his word and have been prayi g lord let this child be happy and healthy child with another man and to still restore my meagan and charles relationship. Then another hit ....he starts acting distant and i started looking on our phone account and there was a picture of him and another woman. I couldnt believe it. When he was down on his luck i helped with fhe bills i bought him groceries so he would t be hungry...but now he haz money and hes not around for our children or myself. I turned his phone off which i shoulnt of because of spite and now havent heard from him or even have his new number for 2weeks. And at the same time my daughters father lost his job and im no longer getting child support and i prayed for him2. So my question is ...is my prayers back firing and soing that exact opposite of what i praying for. And what is god trying to teach me or show me or tell me? I really do love charles and feel he is my soulmate. No matter what we go thru i forgive and still love him....so why when i pray does everything turn for the worse for me and seem like everyone else is happy and im the one who has lost?
