To My Husband_- Please All Advice Is Very Welcome And Appreciative. Honest I Would Prefer Most

Tonight Friday 7 March 2014 Time 22:54 At night in Ascot Berkshire

Like every night, this is the time I missed him the most. I never go to bed until I am really over tired and I know I just will fall asleep, not noticing the empty space beside me.

I am reading his scripture of the Funeral Service( My husband ) and like to share this with you if I may. I'm only mention couple of verses that touch me.

Gen 48: 1- Sometime Joseph was called, Your Father is ill. So he took his two sons Manasseh and Ephraim along with him
vs 8 When Israel saw the sons of Joseph, he ask : Who are these?
They are the sons God has given me here Joseph said to his father. Then Israel said , Bring them to me so I may bless them.
Now Israel eyes ware failing , because of his old age, so he could hardly see. So Joseph brought his sons close to him and his father kiss them and embraced them Vs 13 And Joseph took both of them, Ephraim on his right toward Israel's left hand and Manasseh on his left towards Israel's right hand and brought them close to him.
But Israel reached out his right hand and put it on Ephraim's head though he was the younger and crossing his arms he put his left hand on Manasseh's head, even though Manasseh was the first born. vs 17 When Joseph saw his father placing his right hand on Ephraim's head he was displeased, so he took hold of his father's hand to move it from Ephraim's head to Manasseh's head. Joseph said to him No, My father this one is the firstborn; put your right hand on his head. But the father refused and said I- I Know my son I know

I felt many times to grab God's hands and say " please Heavenly Father and telling Him Lord not this way, My son is to young to be without a father. Everything I know my husband thought me, I was a Mother and housewife. I do not work I have a son to look after. Lord I'm begging if not for me my son. I still feel so lost and I feel I am still mad at God and My Husband. If my husband who was 21years older then me, If He really Loved us He would Have fought to be with us ,his family, But he did not love us enough.

I am so sorry for my disobedience but try not to think about this. Please brothers and sisters please help me. I know my relationship will grow stronger with God. I beg you Lord forgive my doubting this decision you made in my life. Help me Understand Amen

 

[Catherina]

A long awaiting break trough



Prov 10 :12



Hatred stirs up dissension;

but love covers all wrongs.



For months I was angry at my husband, I also felt that Our all knowing God made a wrong decision or a mistake. But I truly feels better now. I went to see a GP which explain that my husband died of an aneurysm in the brain , death just come suddenly. There was nothing for me or your husband to know that.



Dear God All mighty. I bow myself before Your heavenly throne. I am so sorry for doubting You. Merciful God Forgive me - when I felt wrong , I needed Someone to blame, and You And My Husband was easy targets. It only cost me more pain and hatred. It is so easy to give over to hatred. only love can cover the deeds and heal the heart. Thank you that you always near I ask this in The Name of Our Lord Jesus Christ Amen

 

[Stitcher]

I am sorry, Catherina. I have several friends with a parent who had an aneurysm, and there was very little time to try to save them. One friend's parent died immediately, and the other friend's parent was in a coma and had surgery, and died several weeks later, having never awakened.



I am praying for you as you continue to heal and grieve. God created us with feelings, and He will help us sort out our feelings.



Stitcher

 

[Catherina]

Thank you so much. I am coping much much better now. But I do need more prayers.



God bless you