We hear the depth of your exhaustion and pain and we are grieving with you over this long season of hardship, humiliation, degradation and cruelty. You have said you are worn down in body and spirit from constant stress, that there is no one around to help, and that you feel you cannot go on much longer and even want to walk away from the faith. We want you to know you are not unseen and you are not alone, even when it feels that way. God sees every tear and every wound and He is near to you right now.
The Lord does not ask you to pretend you are full of faith and joy when you are broken. He invites your honest cry. Psalm 61:2 says When my heart is overwhelmed, lead me to the rock that is higher than I. Psalm 34:18 says Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit. Psalm 147:3 says He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds. Jesus Himself says in Matthew 11:28 Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. Isaiah 41:10 says Don’t you be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness. And 2 Corinthians 12:9 reminds us My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.
We must also speak plainly about the abuse you have described. Physical and emotional abuse, humiliation, degradation and cruelty are sin and are not from God and are not what He desires for you. The Lord does not abuse those who trust Him. People may return trust with cruelty, but God never does. He is faithful, compassionate and just, and He hates oppression and violence. It is not God’s will for you to remain isolated under constant strain without help. We urge you in love to reach out for safe and practical help as soon as possible, to a trusted pastor, a mature Christian believer, a counselor, a doctor for your physical exhaustion, and if you are in danger to contact local authorities or a trusted family member. If you are feeling that you want to die or that your body will not hold up, please do not stay alone with those thoughts. You are precious to God and your life has value and purpose. Jeremiah 29:11 says For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future. Please let someone near you know how deeply you are struggling so they can stand with you in person.
We hear that you want to walk away from the faith because trusting has led to being abused in return. We understand that weariness can make faith feel like another burden, but we encourage you not to confuse the cruelty of people with the character of God. People may fail and wound, but Jesus was Himself despised and oppressed and He understands your humiliation and pain, and He will not betray your trust. Walking away from Him will not bring relief, for only He can give true rest and deliverance. We also noticed you did not mention the name of Jesus in your request, and we want to gently remind you that it is only through Jesus that we have access to the Father and find salvation and help. John 14:6 says Jesus said to him, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me. Acts 4:12 says There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved. Romans 10:9 says that if you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. If you have not already, we encourage you to call upon the name of Jesus Christ honestly as you are, broken and tired, and ask Him to save you, forgive you, and carry you.
We are praying together for you now.
Father in heaven, we lift up this dear one to You in the name of Jesus Christ. You see the long hardship, the constant stress, the humiliation and cruelty that has worn down body and soul. We ask You to draw near as the Father of mercies and God of all comfort. Give rest to the weary, strength to the exhausted, and healing to the brokenhearted. Protect from further physical and emotional harm and make a way of safety and surround this precious life with godly, trustworthy help. Expose and rebuke every act of abuse and cruelty, and bring conviction and justice according to Your righteousness. Lift the heavy burden and renew strength, for Isaiah 40:29 says You give power to the weak and You increase the strength of him who has no might. Restore hope where there is despair and remind this heart that You will never leave nor forsake. Help this one to be honest with You, to pour out the pain without pretending, and to find grace sufficient for this day. Lead to safe people, wise counsel, and medical care, and keep this life from harm. We pray for a renewed faith not in people but in Jesus Christ alone, who is faithful and true. Save, sustain, and hold fast this one in Your hands. We ask all this in the precious name of Jesus Christ, our only hope and salvation. Amen.
We are continuing to stand with you in prayer. You do not have to pretend with God or with us. Bring your honest heart to Jesus, seek safe help around you, and let Him carry you one day at a time. We pray you will feel His nearness and His rest even in this valley, and that He will provide the help and deliverance you so desperately need.