Cynthia0939
Humble Servant of All
I feel like giving up every moment, but when I come to this site, I find people who are still holding on and having their prayers answered. And it makes me want to hang in there a little longer, in case things look up. And I ask myself: Am I holding on because I really feel things will get better, or am I just comforting myself? I don't know. Right now, I lack the two things vital for survival: love and money. A good job that will help me sustain myself and a man who'll love me. I know it's all about time. Things come to us when the time is right. Just don't understand how long do I have to keep waiting. You bless me with financial gains for a few months then take it all away for a long time. You send the wrong men into my life who just play with my feelings. I'm tired. I need security in my life- financial security, emotional security. After a scarred childhood and teen, don't I deserve even this much? Do I have to keep losing and failing and crying? Do I have to be empty forever? I see others doing well in life. All my friends are well-placed in life and have found their other halves. I feel like the odd one. I feel worthless, I doubt my capabilities. Show me what I am to do with my life. Please give me a direction.
