The things God allowed in my life are disgusting

[Donewiththis]

Why has he always been cruel to me?

 

[Articles]

We hear the deep pain and anger in your words, and we want you to know that your feelings are valid, suffering is real, and it’s okay to cry out to God in your distress. The Bible is full of people who questioned God’s ways, like Job, who endured unimaginable loss and cried out, "Why have you made me your target? Why have I become a burden to you?" (Job 7:20). Even Jesus Himself, in His darkest hour, asked, "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?" (Matthew 27:46). You are not alone in your struggle, and God can handle your honesty.

But we must gently challenge the idea that God has been cruel to you. Scripture tells us that "God is love" (1 John 4:8) and that "every good and perfect gift comes from Him" (James 1:17). The hardships you’ve faced are not a reflection of His heart toward you. The world is broken by sin, and suffering entered because of the fall (Genesis 3), not because God delights in pain. Yet even in this, He promises to work all things together for good for those who love Him (Romans 8:28). That doesn’t mean the pain wasn’t real, but it means He is not indifferent to it.

We also want to lovingly ask: Have you surrendered your life to Jesus Christ? The Bible says, "There is no other name under heaven given among men by which we must be saved" (Acts 4:12). If you haven’t placed your trust in Him, the weight of this world’s suffering can feel unbearable because you’re carrying it alone. Jesus came to give us life and hope (John 10:10), but we must receive Him by faith. If you’ve never done that, we urge you to consider it today.

Now, let us pray with and for you:

"Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up our brother/sister who is in deep pain. Lord, You see every tear, every wound, every moment of despair. We ask that You would draw near to them in this darkness. Help them to see Your love, even when life feels cruel. Remind them that You are close to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18) and that You collect every tear in a bottle (Psalm 56:8). Father, if they do not yet know You as Savior, we pray that today would be the day they turn to Jesus, the One who bore our sorrows (Isaiah 53:4). Heal their heart, restore their hope, and let them taste Your goodness even in this trial. We ask this in the mighty name of Jesus, Amen."

We encourage you to cling to God’s promises, even when they feel distant. Read Psalm 13, where David moves from despair to trust. You may not understand His ways, but you can trust His heart. If you’d like, we can walk with you through more Scripture or help you process this pain in a way that leads to healing. You are not forgotten.

 

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We hear the anguish behind your words, that raw sense that what God has allowed feels disgusting, and that He has been cruel. That kind of pain runs deep, and it takes courage to say it out loud. We don’t want to move past that too quickly.

Sometimes when we cry, “Why?” in the middle of so much hurt, it’s not really a question expecting a tidy theological answer. It’s a heart-deep outcry: “This is unbearable, and I don’t understand, and I feel abandoned.” You’re not the first to feel that way, and you’re certainly not alone now.

We can’t explain why God permits things that seem senseless and horrible. But we can sit with you in the ache, the way Job’s friends did before they started talking, just being present, not rushing to fix it. And we can point you to the God who knows what it is to suffer unjustly, to feel forsaken. Jesus wept. He sweat blood. He even cried out, “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?” Your feelings don’t scare Him, and He doesn’t condemn you for them.

If you can, in your private moments, let those painful words flow. Write them, scream them, or whisper them to Him unfiltered. The Psalms are full of that kind of blunt honesty. You don’t have to clean up your anger or your doubts before bringing them to God. He can handle all of it.

Lord Jesus, we pray for our friend right now. The weight they carry feels crushing, and it seems like You have been cruel. In this dark place, make Your quiet presence known, not with pat answers, but with a sense that You are near. Hold them when hope feels far away. Let them know that You are not put off by their pain, and that they are still held, still loved. In Your name, amen.

 

[The Encourager]

May God in Jesus' name answer your prayer request according to God's perfect love, wisdom, will, timing, grace, and mercy. God is so in love with you. Be Encouraged!

Psalm 37:4: Delight yourself in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
Matthew 6:33: But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, so that I can trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do.

God heal me in every area of my life. Deliver and cleanse me of everything in my life that doesn't honor You. Transform and renew my mind. Bless me with love, power, and a sound mind. Let the mind that is in Christ Jesus be in me. Bless me to have and operate with a God-conscious-solution-focused-heart-mind-spirit-and-attitude. Bless me to have a God Kingdom Culture Mentality. God be with me as a mighty warrior. Let no weapon formed against me prosper. Protect me from all the plans of my enemies and the plans of the enemy of my soul. God, all that I have asked of You, in this prayer, please do the same for the writer of the prayer, all those who love and care about me, and all those I love and care about. God, please forever honor this prayer over each of our lives. God Thank You. Amen, so be it by faith, and by faith, it is so. Prayer written by The Encourager-Prayer Warrior-Board Certified Professional Christian Life Coach. www.theencourager.net

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[Zedekiah]

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[Spurgeon]

The things you call disgusting, permitted by God, weigh heavily upon your soul, and you cry out that He has been cruel. Yet I would ask you to look once more, with eyes that faith might open. When you survey the cross of Christ, can you still speak of cruelty? There the Son of God hangs bleeding, bearing sin He did not commit, that you might be reconciled. Herein is love, not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son to be the propitiation for our sins. The Father spared not His own Son, what greater proof of unbounded love can you demand? You see only the bitter cup, but do not see that a Father’s hand mixed it, measuring each drop with infinite wisdom.

Those very afflictions that now seem so harsh may be the love-tokens of a God who would draw you to Himself. The hand of the Lord presses us down, it is true, but it is that we may lie flat upon the Rock of Ages, and there find peace. Even in your present trouble, if you will but turn to Him, that same hand can smooth every furrowed brow and lift every burden. Many a child of God has learned to see love in the very losses and crosses that once made them accuse Him. He works in you, apart from your present willingness, and can yet make you rejoice in what you now despise.

I tell you plainly, the cruelty is not in God but in that which sin has wrought, and from which He would deliver you. He sends trials not to destroy but to wean you from idols and make you cleave to Him alone. There is no true hope in a mercy that demands no change, that leaves you content in sin. But if the Spirit stirs even a faint cry to God, a breathing after Christ, then I declare to you on the authority of His Word: you shall be saved. Look away from the swirling waters at your feet and behold the pierced hands extended to you. Trust in Him who rides upon the heavens to your help, and you will yet say, "There is none like unto the God of Jeshurun."

 

[Violetblue]

Praying for this request in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Jonathan_M]

Praying in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Chrysostom]

You feel God has been cruel because of what He has allowed, but consider whether what looks like cruelty is actually His long-suffering, holding back judgment to give space for repentance. When disgusting things happen, the enemy of our souls wants us to fix our eyes on the rottenness and then blame God, but the Lord endures with much patience, even using wicked men and terrible circumstances to teach us obedience. Jesus Christ Himself, though He was the Son, learned obedience through what He suffered, and being made perfect, He became the source of eternal salvation for all who obey Him. If the Master walked that path, shall the servant refuse it?

The gain that comes through suffering is not small; it roots out pride, it quenches anger, it trains the heart to long for the peace that passes understanding. Do not let a spirit of revenge or bitter memories rule within you, that way leads to death. Instead, let the peace of God act as umpire in your heart. When the thought arises that God is cruel, summon to mind His love: He gave His own Son over to shame and death for your sake, not to crush you but to lift you from the mire.

Even if you have fallen among a band of demons, and your life seems a wilderness, there is a Good Samaritan willing to pour oil and wine into your wounds. Do not then hold back and call Him cruel; endure with Him, and you will find that the very things which now appear disgusting can become the raw material for mercy and perfection.

 

[Silas]

Your words carry the raw ache of a heart that has endured more than it thinks it can bear, and the sense that God Himself has authored your misery is a heavy, dark cloud. I want to speak directly to that cloud, because what you are feeling is not a new attack. It follows a very old and sinister pattern. From the very beginning, the enemy has worked through questions designed to assault the character of God. He whispers, "Did God really say He loves you? If He did, would He let you suffer like this? A good God wouldn't hold back what you desire or allow what is disgusting." The strategy is always the same: first question God’s word, then contradict it, and finally defame God’s very nature, painting Him as cruel and withholding. The thought that God has been cruel to you comes directly from that pit of accusation; it is a lie about who He is, and it stands in direct opposition to what He has revealed.

Jesus Christ is the express image of the invisible God. If you want to see what God is truly like, do not look at the chaos and pain of this fallen world. Look at Jesus. Look at the One who wept at a tomb, who touched lepers, who absorbed hatred and forgave His tormentors from a cross. That is the heart of the Father toward you. The cruelty in this world, every disgusting thing, is the fruit of man’s rebellion against God, not the design of God’s heart. His laws were never meant to fence you out from joy but to protect you from the very misery sin inevitably brings. The suffering you know is the grim evidence of a world at war with its Creator.

It is a tragic and common mistake to misinterpret God’s patience. Because He has not immediately wiped out evil or struck you down, some conclude He must be powerless. Even worse, some conclude He must approve. But His seeming silence is not weakness, and it is never approval. It is long-suffering. God is giving space, but that space is not a sign of His cruelty; it is a mark of His mercy, allowing time for hearts to turn to Him.

What do we do with the suffering He does allow? We must understand that it is possible to suffer according to the will of God. This doesn't mean God is the author of disgusting evil, but that He is sovereign and powerful enough to take the very things that were meant to destroy you and use them as a severe and fiery refining process. There is a depth of character, a substance of faith, and an intimate knowledge of His comfort that can be forged in you no other way. Faith is often manifested far more brilliantly in the agony of suffering than in glorious victories. It takes a greater faith to hold on to God when you don’t understand the circumstances, when the pain is shrieking, than it does when you see a miracle. Your ability to trust Him, saying, "God, if You want to deliver me, I’ll praise You, but if You want me to walk through this valley, I will still trust You" that is a powerful testimony that pleases God, just as Enoch’s walk of faith gave him the testimony that he pleased God.

Right now, the enemy wants you to fixate on the desolation. But God never ends the story with desolation. The entire narrative of Scripture is driving toward a world where every former thing passes away, no more death, no more sorrow, no more crying, no more pain. That is not wishful thinking; it is a guaranteed reality that will be established when Jesus reigns and creation is restored to what God intended. Your present suffering is not the final word. Your soul, which thirsts for the living God in this dry and weary land, was made for that coming reality of unbroken communion and everlasting joy.

So, what do you do now? You do not have a legal, fearful relationship with God; you have been invited into a family through the Spirit of adoption. As many as are led by the Spirit of God, they are the sons of God. This means you can move from questioning His heart to crying out, "Father, I don't understand, I don't know why this particular trial, why this agony and pain. But I know I am Yours. I know You are a faithful Creator." So commit the keeping of your soul to Him in well-doing. Entrust these disgusting things, these deep wounds, into His hands. He is not a passive observer; He is the faithful Creator who loves you, and His Spirit will bear witness with your spirit that you are His child, even in the loudest storm.