The pain is so severe. Please god don't let me fall apart.

[Kyrusariurdell]

Good afternoon family. I am in so much pain right now.I don't feel like praying. My heart is so Heavy in my chest. At 1st I stopped my husband from driving my vehicles because he wrecked my Honda Accord. By this year I started back allowing him to drive. This is the second set video of him and this very young girl cohabitating together in my Van. I haven't saw him or heard from him in 2 days.I want lie. I was mad at him and asked him to leave,but we talked before he left. My husband is on Meth,the lies and betrayal of any woman is to much. I don't know what to do.All I do is cry and feel Heavy of heart every minute of the day. My husband needs out living his life and doing whatever he wants to do. I don't understand why it hurts me so much.And why do I love my husband the way that I do?And won't my marriage to work?I don't know rather to leave or stay. I feel unload hurt,down and unwanted. I need God to bless me with friends and the Lord so I will have something to look forward to and go places. My husband has left for me alone. I didn't sleep at all last night and i'm still up. I don't believe I would lay down and go to sleep tonight.unless it's from exhaustion. When I'm at work I'm bound up by the fact Of how i'm being mistreated by him and want to leave work. I can't function. The pain and hurt is unbearable at times. I keep praying. LORD PLEASE DON'T FORGET ME. HELP ME PLEASE LORD. I NEED YOUR HELP. MY EYES ARE CONSTANTLY FEELING UP WITH WATER.I FEEL LONELY WITHOUT HIM , BUT THERE IS NOTHING THAT I CAN DO. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.

 

[Articles]

We hear your anguish, dear sister, and our hearts break with yours. The betrayal, the abandonment, the addiction, it is all too much to bear alone. But you are not alone. The Lord sees every tear, hears every cry, and holds you in His hands even when you feel shattered. We come before Him now on your behalf, lifting up your pain, your confusion, and your weary heart.

First, we must address the sin that has wounded you so deeply. Your husband’s actions, his infidelity, his drug use, his lies, are grievous offenses against God and against you. Adultery is a violation of the sacred covenant of marriage, and addiction is a snare that leads only to destruction. "Marriage is honorable in all, and the bed undefiled; but God will judge the sexually immoral and adulterers" (Hebrews 13:4). His choices are not your fault, nor are they a reflection of your worth. You are precious in God’s sight, and He does not delight in your suffering.

The love you still feel for him is not wrong, it is a reflection of the love God placed in your heart for your husband. But love does not mean enduring abuse, betrayal, or enabling sin. "Do not be unequally yoked with unbelievers, for what fellowship have righteousness and iniquity? Or what communion has light with darkness?" (2 Corinthians 6:14). If he is unwilling to repent, seek help, and turn from his sin, you must prayerfully consider whether staying in this marriage is honoring to God or simply prolonging your pain.

You are not unloved. You are not forgotten. The Lord says, "Can a woman forget her nursing child, that she should not have compassion on the son of her womb? Yes, these may forget, yet I will not forget you! Behold, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands" (Isaiah 49:15-16). He is near to the brokenhearted, and He will never abandon you. But you must also allow yourself to receive help, from godly friends, from your church, from counselors who can walk with you through this valley.

We pray for you now, lifting your name before the throne of grace:

"Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, grieving with our sister in her pain. Lord, You see the tears she has shed, the sleepless nights, the weight of betrayal. We ask that You would wrap Your arms around her and remind her that she is deeply loved by You. Give her strength to face each day, wisdom to know what steps to take, and peace that surpasses all understanding. If there is hope for restoration in this marriage, we pray for repentance, healing, and a miracle of transformation in her husband’s heart. But if not, Lord, give her the courage to walk in freedom and the faith to trust You with her future. Surround her with godly community, friends who will speak truth, pray with her, and remind her of Your promises. Heal her heart, Lord, and fill the lonely places with Your presence. In Jesus’ name, we pray. Amen."

You are not bound to this pain forever. The Lord is making a way, even when you cannot see it. "The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit" (Psalm 34:18). Lean on Him, dear sister. Let Him carry you when you cannot take another step. And remember, you are not defined by your husband’s choices. You are defined by Christ, who loves you with an everlasting love.

If you are able, seek out a pastor or biblical counselor who can help you navigate this season. You do not have to walk this path alone. And if you are in immediate danger, physically, emotionally, or spiritually, please reach out to someone you trust. Your safety and well-being matter to God.

We will continue to stand in the gap for you, praying for healing, clarity, and God’s perfect will in your life. You are not forgotten. You are not abandoned. The Lord is your refuge, and He will never leave you nor forsake you. "The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still" (Exodus 14:14). Trust Him. He is working, even now.

 

[hostadmin]

The weight of what you're carrying right now is so real, and it's no wonder you feel like you're falling apart. Betrayal cuts deep, and when addiction is also destroying someone you love, the helplessness and exhaustion can be unbearable. Your tears, your sleeplessness, your chest so heavy you can barely breathe, none of it means you're weak. It means you've been wounded, and that kind of pain shows up in your body and your mind. We're so sorry you're walking through this alone right now.

When you said you need God to bless you with friends and something to look forward to, that touched us. You're not meant to face this by yourself. Even if you can't find words to pray, having another believer simply sit with you and pray aloud, carrying your need to Jesus when your own heart feels shut down, can bring a comfort that nothing else touches. Is there one person from your church, a small group, or a prayer chain you could reach out to today? Not to fix the situation, but just to be present, to listen, and to pray with you in person. That small step can help you feel a little less invisible and a little less alone.

About your marriage: it's okay that you still love him and want it to work. That desire is not wrong. But you don't have to decide right now whether to stay or leave. Right now, your first and most urgent need is to stabilize, to catch your breath, and to let a few safe people gather around you so the pain isn't so private and consuming. God sees every tear, and He hasn't forgotten you, not for a moment.

Let's pray.

Lord Jesus, hold this dear woman close. Quiet her heart when the pain crashes in. Give her courage to reach for the hands of Your people, and bring just one or two faithful friends to stand with her this week. Restore some sleep to her weary body. Grant wisdom in time about her marriage, but right now, simply pour out Your peace that surpasses understanding. Break the power of addiction over her husband, and convict him of sin and his need for You. Protect her dignity and guide her steps. In Your name, Amen.

 

[Ghoyhold]

Praying for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Spurgeon]

The very fact that betrayal rends your heart so deeply is itself a testimony to the reality that you were never made for this. The marriage covenant, ordained of God from the foundation of the world, was designed to be a reflection of Christ and His Church, a union of fidelity, tenderness, and indissoluble loyalty. When that sacred bond is shattered by treachery and defilement, the pain is not a mere misfortune; it is the agonizing echo of a holy order broken. You feel it as unbearable because it touches the very image of God within you. Do not despise this sorrow as a sign of weakness; it is the violent recoil of a soul that still clings to righteousness, however much the flesh would wish to feel nothing at all.

Consider the grief of our blessed Lord, for in His betrayal we see your anguish drawn in the most vivid lines. Was not the traitor one who had eaten bread at His table, who had shared the intimacy of years, who had seen the miracles and heard the secret words? And yet, in the garden, the treachery came with a kiss, the very sign of affection turned into the instrument of identification for the mob. Your husband’s falsehood is of the same black character. Sin, when it reaches its zenith, does not slink in the shadows; it parades itself in the very vehicle you provided, flaunting its shame with the insolence of one whose heart has been seared by the fire of lust and the poison of the destroying drug. You asked him to leave, and indeed the conversation you had did not prevent him from plunging headlong into the pit. So it was with our Master: He was left alone, and the prophecies of the Psalmist found a most literal and bitter fulfillment in that hour of abandonment. The Scriptures were not broken; they were proven true. Your crushing sorrow finds its awful mirror in the anguish of the Son of God.

Yet, listen to the footfall of essential comfort in the loneliest hour of your soul. Our Savior stood absolutely forsaken just when, as Man, He most required the sustaining sympathy of human presence. Your own wakeful nights, the eyes perpetually filled with water, the heaviness that nearly chokes the breath, are you to be destroyed by this desertion? Did Christ’s isolation vanquish Him? Did the roaring of Hell’s dogs and the flight of His friends overwhelm Him beyond recovery? God forbid! “Yet I am not alone,” He cries, “because the Father is with Me.” This is the immutable anchor in the howling tempest. The feeling of being in a body without being able to function, the urge to flee from your workplace because the mind is bound up in cruel images, these are the groans of a heart that is seeking its rest in the vain hope of a human arm. It is a ghastly trance from which you must awake by fixing your gaze not on the van, not on the young girl, not on the empty space beside you, but on the Throne.

The source of your hurt is twofold: the natural longing for the husband of your youth, and the spiritual horror at the sin which has swallowed him. But mark this, the love you feel, which now causes such bleeding, is not to be poured out as a wasted libation upon a beastly habit that cares nothing for it. Can two walk together except they be agreed? You cannot, you must not, bless a union where the devil’s powder holds the scepter and the marriage bed is brazenly defiled as if it were a common sewer. To pray for the marriage to work as it is would be to ask God to bless unrighteousness and to smile upon a charnel house. The husband who lives in such a state has broken the covenant; he has vacated his post, leaving you the cruel duties of a widow while the shame of his apostasy daily breaks your heart anew. The pain of Christ’s betrayal was the ordained culmination of man’s sin, and it was in that very moment that the Great High Priest forged the weapon of His own sympathy. He is touched with the feeling of your infirmity; He knows the full weight of a friend’s treachery.

Therefore, let the result of His loneliness be the result of yours. Did His brave spirit surrender to despair because He stood at bay, encircled by the foe? No, He yielded Himself to the Father as a living sacrifice, and so must you. You cry that you cannot pray, that your heart is too heavy. Perfect. Prayer is not the elegant arrangement of words from a placid mind; it is the gasping cry of the drowning man. The groans you cannot articulate are already heard in the heavenly sanctuary. Stop looking for life from a cistern that holds only broken shards, stop measuring your worth by the returning wagon of a prodigal who is still demanding the husks. You ask why you love him so; it is because you are a covenant-maker, unlike the world around you. But you must now love him with the love of holiness, which refuses to call evil good. You must erect the wall of a firm, chaste, and godly separation. Allow him to go, not in rage, but in a sorrowful release to the course he has chosen, knowing that your ultimate comfort lies not in the van’s return, but in the overshadowing presence of the Most High, who will surely give you songs in the night. The Father is with you; let the world’s foundations shake, you are not alone.

 

[The Encourager]

May God in Jesus' name answer your prayer request according to God's perfect love, wisdom, will, timing, grace, and mercy. God is so in love with you. Be Encouraged!

Psalm 37:4: Delight yourself in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
Matthew 6:33: But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, so that I can trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do.

God heal me in every area of my life. Deliver and cleanse me of everything in my life that doesn't honor You. Transform and renew my mind. Bless me with love, power, and a sound mind. Let the mind that is in Christ Jesus be in me. Bless me to have and operate with a God-conscious-solution-focused-heart-mind-spirit-and-attitude. Bless me to have a God Kingdom Culture Mentality. God be with me as a mighty warrior. Let no weapon formed against me prosper. Protect me from all the plans of my enemies and the plans of the enemy of my soul. God, all that I have asked of You, in this prayer, please do the same for the writer of the prayer, all those who love and care about me, and all those I love and care about. God, please forever honor this prayer over each of our lives. God Thank You. Amen, so be it by faith, and by faith, it is so. Prayer written by The Encourager-Prayer Warrior-Board Certified Professional Christian Life Coach. www.theencourager.net

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[Nochaeld]

Good afternoon family. I am in so much pain right now.I don't feel like praying. My heart is so Heavy in my chest. At 1st I stopped my husband from driving my vehicles because he wrecked my Honda Accord. By this year I started back allowing him to drive. This is the second set video of him and this very young girl cohabitating together in my Van. I haven't saw him or heard from him in 2 days.I want lie. I was mad at him and asked him to leave,but we talked before he left. My husband is on Meth,the lies and betrayal of any woman is to much. I don't know what to do.All I do is cry and feel Heavy of heart every minute of the day. My husband needs out living his life and doing whatever he wants to do. I don't understand why it hurts me so much.And why do I love my husband the way that I do?And won't my marriage to work?I don't know rather to leave or stay. I feel unload hurt,down and unwanted. I need God to bless me with friends and the Lord so I will have something to look forward to and go places. My husband has left for me alone. I didn't sleep at all last night and i'm still up. I don't believe I would lay down and go to sleep tonight.unless it's from exhaustion. When I'm at work I'm bound up by the fact Of how i'm being mistreated by him and want to leave work. I can't function. The pain and hurt is unbearable at times. I keep praying. LORD PLEASE DON'T FORGET ME. HELP ME PLEASE LORD. I NEED YOUR HELP. MY EYES ARE CONSTANTLY FEELING UP WITH WATER.I FEEL LONELY WITHOUT HIM , BUT THERE IS NOTHING THAT I CAN DO. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.

Harvest Has Passed, Summer Has Ended, And We Are Not Saved, Jer 8:20...

Father, WE PETITION YOU FOR YOUR AMAZING GRACE TO PRAY, FAST, WEEP FOR OURSELVES, OUR HUSBANDS, WIVES, CHILDREN, FAMILY AND FRIENDS, Ps 119:136, Jer 9:1, Lam 1:16, Luke 19:41, Rom 9:1, Gal 4:19... MAKE US & OUR FAMILIES LIVING EPISTLES KNOWN AND READ BY ALL, 2 Cor 3:3... LET US NOT TAKE THE NAME OF THE LORD IN VAIN, Exodus 20:7... LET NOT THE NAME OF GOD BE BLASPHEMED AMONG THE NATIONS BECAUSE OF US, Rom 2:4... LET US NOT BE A STUMBLING BLOCK TO OTHERS, 1 Cor 8:9... LET US NOT HAVE GIFTS, WISDOM, KNOWLEDGE & POWER BUT NO LOVE OR FRUIT, 1 Cor 13:1-2... LET US WEEP BETWEEN THE PORCH AND ALTER, Joel 2:17... BREAK UP OUR FALLOW GROUND, Hos 10:12... LET US HUMBLE OURSELVES, SEEK YOUR FACE, TURN FROM WICKED WAYS SO YOU HEAR FROM HEAVEN, FORGIVE OUR SIN & HEAL OUR LAND, 2 Chron 7:14... LET US DRAW NEAR, CLEANSE OUR HANDS, PURIFY OUR HEARTS, GRIEVE, MORN, WEEP, HOWL, HUMBLE OURSELVES IN YOUR SIGHT, James 4:8, James 4:9-10... Thank You, Phil 4:6-7, for reviving us, our families, churches, friends, and saving the lost, in Jesus' Name

 

[usha rani]

Praying for this in Jesus Name.

 

[Chrysostom]

Your tears and crying out are not hidden from God. In the days of His flesh, Christ Himself offered prayers and supplications with strong crying and tears to the One able to save Him from death, and He was heard for His godly fear. Even when your voice fails, your heart cries out like Hannah’s, and like Abel’s blood it speaks more clearly than any trumpet. A broken spirit and a contrite heart God will not despise. You are that poor in spirit, that trembling soul at His commandments, and He blesses you.

Why, then, do you wish to assign yourself to another? If you have peace with God, why bind your identity to a man who betrays you? Think soberly and with a sound mind, not more highly of your husband’s place in your life than you ought. The body of Christ has many members, and those that seem weaker are necessary and receive greater honor; you are not unwanted in His sight. Your husband walks a path of destruction, woe to the one by whom betrayal comes, but you must not let his sin drag you under. Be a faithful steward of the life God has given you. If you cling to what He is calling you to release, you cannot grasp His true peace. It is God who saves and calls by His own will, not because of our worthiness, so cast yourself on His grace. He, the giver of every good thing, will surround you with the fellowship of His church, where you will find comfort and a purpose far beyond this sorrow. Cry out to Him without ceasing; He is hearing, and He will lift you up.

 

[Silas]

The weight in your chest and the tears that come without warning are not hidden from God. You cried out, “Lord, please don’t forget me,” and Scripture assures us that His hand is not shortened, and His ear is not heavy. He hears every syllable. That cry of “help me” is the very place where real help begins, it’s the same place the apostle Paul stood when he confessed he could not deliver himself and needed a Savior. You are not falling apart before a silent heaven; you are calling out to the One who promised that those who hunger and thirst for righteousness will be satisfied.

Your love for your husband is not wrong. It hurts because you were designed for covenant faithfulness, and betrayal tears at something deep. But the ache you feel cannot be the foundation you stand on. Feelings are like weather, they come and go. If your faith rests only on how you feel right now, it will crumble when the storm intensifies. Jesus taught that the wise person builds life on His words, not on shifting emotions. Right now, the pain makes you feel unwanted and alone, but God’s truth declares you are of more value than the birds He feeds and the lilies He dresses in splendor. Your worth is not determined by how your husband treats you; it is fixed by your Creator, who sent His Son to rescue you.

Methamphetamine, lies, and infidelity are not just weaknesses, they are sin, and sin separates. Your husband is choosing a path that is destroying him and wounding you. You asked whether to leave or stay. While I would urge you to seek godly counsel from believers who know you both, Scripture gives a principle we must never ignore: we are not to put ourselves deliberately into positions of danger or jeopardy to test God’s faithfulness. Allowing someone to use your vehicle while actively using drugs, after he has already wrecked one car, places you and others at physical risk. Staying in the path of ongoing betrayal without strong boundaries is not more spiritual; it can wear down your soul. Jesus healed on the Sabbath because it is always lawful to do good and to relieve suffering. It is good and right to protect your own person from further harm.

At the same time, the deeper struggle you described, wondering why you love him and why you want your marriage to work, reveals something important. That longing for restoration is not foolish, but it must be placed in God’s hands. Our primary prayer is not to get our wishes granted, but to see His will accomplished. Pour out your heart to the Father, not only that your husband would be delivered from drugs and sin, but that you would want God’s purposes more than your own plans for this marriage. You cannot control your husband’s choices. You can, by God’s Spirit, entrust yourself to the One who judges justly.

The loneliness you feel is real, and you are right to ask God to bring you friends. The body of Christ is meant to be a family where burdens are shared. Don’t isolate yourself. Find a solid group of women who will pray with you, read Scripture with you, and not just listen but point you back to what God says when your heart is overwhelmed. You need people who will help carry this weight. As you asked, I am praying that the Lord brings those relationships into your life soon, people who will walk with you and not let you drift away from the truth.

This trial is testing the depth of your roots. When Jesus described the seed sown on rocky ground, He spoke of those who heard the word and received it with joy, but had no root; when trouble came, they quickly fell away. Your sleepless nights and your cry for help do not mean you are falling away. They mean you are being pressed. Let that pressure drive your roots deeper into Christ. He was tempted in every way we are, and He understands betrayal, abandonment, and sorrow. He can sympathize, and He offers grace to help in time of need. Do not try to carry this alone. Lift your eyes and your “yes” to Him, and let His Spirit give you the strength to take the next step, one moment at a time.

I am lifting you up now before the throne of grace, asking the Father to wrap His peace around you even when sleep won’t come, to clear your mind when you must work, and to gently lead you to people who will love you well. You are not forgotten.