We hear your cry for help, and we lift you up before the throne of grace with heavy hearts. The weight of depression, fear, and inadequacy is not one you were meant to carry alone. The Lord sees your struggles, your tears, and your earnest desire to draw near to Him through fasting, study, and obedience. We rejoice that you have turned to Jesus Christ, for He alone is the Way, the Truth, and the Life (John 14:6), and no one comes to the Father except through Him. There is no other name under heaven by which we must be saved (Acts 4:12), and we are grateful you have called upon Him.
Your mention of an overdose is deeply concerning. If this was an attempt to harm yourself, we must rebuke the spirit of despair that seeks to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10). The enemy would love nothing more than to convince you that your life has no purpose or that you are beyond the reach of God’s grace. But we declare that is a lie! The Lord knit you together in your mother’s womb (Psalm 139:13), and He has plans for you—plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope (Jeremiah 29:11). If you are still struggling with thoughts of self-harm, we urge you to reach out to a trusted believer, pastor, or medical professional immediately. Your life is precious to God, and He desires to restore you.
We also want to gently address the fear you feel about being "plucked from life." While we do not know the day or hour of Christ’s return (Matthew 24:36), we are called to live each day in faithfulness, not in dread. The Lord has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind (2 Timothy 1:7). Instead of focusing on what may come, we encourage you to fix your eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of your faith (Hebrews 12:2). He is with you in every moment, and He will never leave you nor forsake you (Deuteronomy 31:6).
Your commitment to fasting and studying God’s Word is commendable. Fasting is a powerful way to humble yourself before the Lord and seek His face (2 Chronicles 7:14). As you fast, we pray that the Holy Spirit would strengthen you, both physically and spiritually. Remember that the Lord does not despise a broken and contrite heart (Psalm 51:17), and He delights in your desire to draw near to Him. Your progress in writing, typing the Bible, and studying Scripture is evidence of the Holy Spirit’s work in you. Do not despise small beginnings (Zechariah 4:10), for the Lord is faithful to complete the good work He has begun in you (Philippians 1:6).
We also want to encourage you in your pursuit of knowledge, whether in math, grammar, or deeper Bible study. The Lord has given you a mind to use for His glory, and He will equip you as you seek Him. Proverbs 2:6 tells us, "For the Lord gives wisdom. Out of his mouth comes knowledge and understanding." Ask Him for wisdom, and He will give it to you generously (James 1:5). Your desire to grow in these areas is a reflection of your hunger for truth, and we believe the Lord will honor that.
The loss of friends and financial struggles can leave deep wounds, but we serve a God who is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit (Psalm 34:18). Your parents’ provision is no coincidence—it is the Lord’s hand of mercy at work in your life. Trust that He will continue to provide for your needs according to His riches in glory (Philippians 4:19). In the meantime, we encourage you to seek fellowship with other believers. Isolation can amplify despair, but iron sharpens iron (Proverbs 27:17), and the body of Christ is meant to bear one another’s burdens (Galatians 6:2).
Let us pray for you now:
Heavenly Father, we come before You on behalf of our dear brother in Christ, lifting up every burden he carries. Lord, You see his heart—his fear, his inadequacy, his loneliness, and his longing for Your return. We ask that You would wrap Your arms around him and remind him that he is never alone. Strengthen him as he fasts, Lord, and fill him with Your peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7). Heal his mind and body from the effects of depression and any lingering effects of the overdose. We rebuke the spirit of despair in Jesus’ name and command it to flee!
Father, we pray for Your provision in every area of his life. Meet his needs, restore his hope, and surround him with godly friendships that will encourage him in the faith. Give him wisdom as he studies Your Word and grows in knowledge. Help him to see himself as You see him—a beloved child, fearfully and wonderfully made, with a purpose that only he can fulfill. Remind him that his worth is found in You alone, not in his accomplishments or the opinions of others.
Lord, we ask that You would draw him closer to You with each passing day. Let him experience Your presence in tangible ways, whether through Your Word, worship, or the kindness of Your people. Guard his heart from fear and fill him with Your perfect love, which casts out all fear (1 John 4:18). Prepare him for the day of Your return, not with dread, but with joyful anticipation, knowing that You are coming soon to make all things new.
We thank You, Father, for the progress he has already made in his walk with You. Continue to work in him and through him for Your glory. May he find his identity, security, and purpose in Christ alone. We ask all these things in the mighty name of Jesus, our Savior and Redeemer. Amen.
Hold fast to this truth: "The Lord is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth" (Psalm 145:18). You are not forgotten. You are not abandoned. You are deeply loved by the Creator of the universe, and He is working all things together for your good (Romans 8:28). Keep pressing into Him, and He will lead you into green pastures and still waters (Psalm 23:2).
