We hear the deep distress and confusion in your words, and we are grieved by the spiritual and emotional turmoil you are experiencing. First, we must address the foundational truth that salvation, deliverance, and peace come only through faith in Jesus Christ, who is the Way, the Truth, and the Life (John 14:6). You have invoked His name, and that is where our hope lies—not in fear, superstition, or accusations, but in the power of Christ to break every chain and bring clarity to chaos.
Your words reveal a heart that is burdened by fear, misunderstanding, and a sense of oppression—both from external sources and from within. Let us first correct some dangerous misconceptions in your request, for the Bible warns us that our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against spiritual forces of wickedness (Ephesians 6:12). Your cousin’s autism is not a source of demonic possession or witchcraft. Autism is a condition that God, in His sovereignty, allows, and those who live with it are fearfully and wonderfully made in His image (Psalm 139:14). To attribute their behavior to possession or witchcraft is to misunderstand both the nature of disability and the work of the enemy. Satan seeks to divide, accuse, and distort truth, and we must resist his lies with the Word of God.
Likewise, your grandmother is not a witch simply because she communicates differently or because you feel controlled by her. The Bible commands us to honor our parents and grandparents (Exodus 20:12, 1 Timothy 5:4). If there are genuine concerns about spiritual influences in her life, the answer is not accusation but prayer, love, and the proclamation of truth. If you believe she is being deceived, pray for her eyes to be opened (2 Corinthians 4:4) and for her to encounter the love of Christ. But do not entertain fears that lack biblical foundation.
You also express frustration with the church, calling it a source of "religious oppression" and "enslaving effects." The church, as the body of Christ, is meant to be a place of truth, grace, and growth—not oppression. However, we acknowledge that human institutions can fall short, and legalism or empty repetition can creep in. But the answer is not to reject the church entirely, for Christ loves His bride (Ephesians 5:25). Instead, we must seek a biblical, Spirit-filled community that points us to Jesus, not to empty rituals. The repetition of Scripture is not "insane"—it is how we renew our minds (Romans 12:2) and hide God’s Word in our hearts (Psalm 119:11). The issue is not the Word itself, but how it is received. If you feel burdened by it, ask God to reveal its truth and power to you afresh.
Your regret over financial decisions and the loss of your job is understandable, but we must caution you against the bitterness that seems to be taking root. You mention that you "should have kept [your] money for bodybuilding and purchased education" rather than giving during suffering. While stewardship is important, the Bible teaches that giving is an act of worship and trust in God’s provision (2 Corinthians 9:7, Proverbs 3:9-10). If you gave with a wrong motive—such as seeking a "miracle" rather than out of love for God—then the issue is not the giving itself, but the heart behind it. Repent of any bitterness or idolatry of money, and trust that God is able to restore what has been lost (Joel 2:25). He is not a man that He should lie (Numbers 23:19), and His promises are sure.
As for your struggles with discipline—your wake-up routine, exercise, and study—these are good desires, but they must be rooted in a deeper dependence on Christ. Apart from Him, we can do nothing (John 15:5). Ask Him to renew your strength (Isaiah 40:31) and to order your steps (Psalm 37:23). Do not rely on your own willpower, but surrender each day to Him.
Finally, your fear of "suffering a worse life" if you follow Christ reveals a misunderstanding of the Christian walk. Jesus never promised an easy life—He promised a *purposeful* one. Suffering is not a sign of God’s absence, but often the very means by which He refines us (1 Peter 1:6-7, James 1:2-4). The world’s definition of success is not God’s. His goal is not our comfort, but our conformity to the image of His Son (Romans 8:29).
Now, let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we lift up our brother to You, knowing that You are the God of all comfort and truth. Lord Jesus, break the chains of fear, confusion, and accusation that have bound his mind. Rebuke every lie of the enemy that has distorted his perception of his family, the church, and Your Word. Holy Spirit, bring clarity where there is chaos, peace where there is anxiety, and truth where there is deception.
Father, we ask for deliverance from any spiritual oppression—whether real or perceived—and we declare that no weapon formed against him shall prosper (Isaiah 54:17). If there are generational strongholds or ungodly influences in his family, we pray that You would expose them and bring Your light and freedom. Soften his heart toward his grandmother and cousin, and help him to see them through Your eyes—with love, not suspicion.
Lord, we ask for restoration in every area of his life. Provide for his financial needs, open doors for employment, and grant him the discipline and strength to steward his time well. Heal the regret and bitterness in his heart, and replace it with trust in Your goodness. Remind him that You are his Provider, not his job or his savings.
We pray for a renewed hunger for Your Word—not as a burden, but as life (Deuteronomy 32:47). Remove any legalism or empty religion from his path, and lead him to a community of believers who will spur him on in faith, not bind him with rules. Help him to understand that suffering is not meaningless, but a tool in Your hands to produce endurance, character, and hope (Romans 5:3-4).
Finally, Lord, we ask that You would reveal Yourself to him in a fresh and powerful way. Let him know that You are not a distant God, but a Father who loves him deeply. Break the spirit of fear and replace it with the spirit of adoption, by which we cry, "Abba, Father!" (Romans 8:15).
We pray all these things in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, who has overcome the world. Amen.
